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Age: 17

Location: Iowa

Joined On: Mar 14, 2007

Occupation: Student

Website: http://www.myspace.com/linny...

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music, running, guitar, computer, food, t.v.

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Favorite Artists

Enrique Iglesias Official

Pop / Other

FRAMING HANLEY

Rock / Alternative / Indie

Band Marino

Indie / Rock / Other

Jupiter Sunrise

Indie / Rock / Powerpop

ZOX

Rock

The Real You

Pop / Rock / Alternative

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Well, I'm pretty sure you don't know me. If you do, wow, thats fucking amazing. I love a lot of music. So original, right? If it gives me chills, it's inevitable that I'll listen to it nonstop for months. I like the Cubs. I love summer. I love peeling skin. I have calluses from guitar/golf. I can play the guitar, piano, harmonica, clarinet, drums. I am afraid of guys who are bold enough to tell me they are in love with me after knowing me for only a few hours. I can't handle being around people who give me horrible feelings. I am not strong in body or mind, though I may appear to be. I am uncertainty and regret. You might not be able to handle what runs through my head every day. That's about it.

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January 17

a little help from a stranger.

Maybe you can guess my question by the way she answered it.

"It's not pathetic, because I feel the same way. I spend my days wondering the same thing, wondering if I had talked to him before, would I be in the situation I am in now. I've wondered why things happen the way the do, and why other girls get noticed but not me, I think it's for the reason that I'm so shy and that radiates, even when I'm trying to be more outgoing. It really is hard to get through feeling lonely, I mean you could be in an ocean full of people or even with your two best and closest friends, but you'll still feel so alone. I'm sorry if I'm not much help, I'm kind of helping myself too, I really haven't read a questions that I can relate so much to. Your friend is right, but it's a lot harder than just speaking those words. It takes time, building confidence and friendships. No pressure to build your confidence, make friends little by little, and eventually, you'll find someone, I'm sure I will too. And everyone else who feels the same way."

paranoid ?

When I feel on top of the world one minute
and lower than dirt the next..
What am I supposed to think?
Do I blame others?
No... I don't think they are the ones I need to blame.
Do I blame myself?
Of course.
When I'm having a bad day... hour... moment...
and I take it out on others
What do they think?
I'm not usually so awful.
I'm usually very nice.
Even funny.
But when I feel like nothing is happening the way it should
or if I can't change or fix my situation
I can't help but feel unhappy and out of control.
I only acknowledge those who I think are closest to me
and ignore the rest.
Even those I think are friends notice
notice how I can't find a single reason to be civil to certain people
who perhaps haven't done much to deserve my anger.
How long will it take for them to realize what an unbalanced person I am?
Not very long, I'm sure.
How long until they stop talking to me?
Not much longer, I'm afraid.
How can I make it through this without going completely insane?
... books, music, movies...
may slow my descent..
but the inevitability
the certainty
of falling downward
out of control
in total confidence
into nothing and everything
with no end in sight... and nothing to keep me company...
it seems to be coming quick
and dangerous