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***LILLI VILLI***
Age: 18
Location: THE 208
Joined On: Sep 06, 2006
Occupation: Snow Cone artista, extrodinaire, maker what ever you want to call it.
Website: www.myspace.com/heartbeatlilli
the lyre
Los Angeles
-Tosis Maguill-
Colorado Springs, Colorado
sinspawn-ammes
in my grave
ashleen_thinks_aj&sonni_are_supaflyXxX
In Your Shower
Movie trailers never show the whole picture.....
I'm never one to wear my emotions on my sleeve. And you knew that, you knew how to get Under my skin. You made me feel like nothing else was important. I hate you for that.. I hate the fact that you were my would of, should have, but now it's to LaTE. I hate that I miss your hugs. I hate that I miss you whispering in my ear "I LOVE YOU." I hate the way you looked me straight in the eyes and we would falll asleep in eachothers arms. I miss your face I miss sneaking you out. I miss those slepless nights of laughing and giggling, and I miss those loveable naps in the middle of the day. I remember how we watched videos of random stuff. I hated when you got a Girl friend because you were so impulsive, and you lost intrest in them within a week. I hate how people think they know you on the level I do. I hate how when we're cold our noses freeze off. I miss how soft your cheeks and lips were. I hate how sparks woud fly between us then I would deny that anything was going on. I miss you so much I hate myself. I hate how you make me feel bad for loving you so much that I want to SAVE you. I miss how I love your music and you hate mine. I can't watch scary movies anymore because of you, I need you there to protect me. I hate how I feel safer when we are together. I miss how you would scare the crap out of me by doing your crazy crap. I miss how you made my heart race and my cheeks blush. I never told you this but I loved you and it scared me to death because I'm afraid of Love and the pain you feel at the end of it. I hate that you're the only one that knows what I'm talking about. I hate how we hid our affection from everyone. I miss holding your hand under the table when no one was looking. You're the only boy I every let get close enough to break my heart. I hate how a few miles can isolate two people from eachother. What i want to say is I LOVE you, I MISS you, and I want to HUG you until the end of time.=[ The truth is you won't even get to read this and this was a waste of my time but I had to get it out some how.
Acoustic poet You will one day save someone....
SO this is a comment i left one of my friends and I don't know why I can open up to someone i have never met but feel like she is a realy good friend. This blog Is dedicated to Devyn<3. Love ya girlie thanks for listening.
Ya I totally understand being from a family of seven its kinda hard paying for college. that's why so far only my oldest brother has gone to college. ha ha he is 34 and i'm 17 so there is such a huge age gap in age between the yonger siblings and older ones. YA that's what i want to to after school is kinda help my parents with no kids in the house they will do a lot better with out having to support me, or the rest of us. ya sorry for such a late reply it's been kinda hectic and I went to the fair today it was really werid because I haven't been to it in like three years cuz I usually spend summers away. I really didn't miss it, but hey there has always got to be a last time for everything.
I know how you told me to make the best of Highschool, but why does everyone tell me that? Don't get me wrong i know people have different experiances. But everyone tells me "its that best time of your life, you'll see." , If it's best time of my life I hate to see what the rest of my life is going to be if that was my highlight just kill me know. I consider the town I live in and the High School I go to hell on earth the academic part isn't tough it's the social scene I guess you would say. I screwed up so much with people and all the Drama I caused is just coming back full fold and ready to kill me the more I try to make my wrongs right and try to love everyone it slaps me in the face and all I can do is turn the other cheeck. I don't know where all this is coming from, school starts in two days and I couldn't be more depressed angry annoyed I'm just over whelmed with emotion and I can't handle it. I'm sorry I had to vent to you, but you seem to really understand why the heck I feel this way. It's my senior year and I want to drop dead before it happens. I guess all i can do is pray It gets all better right?
p.s I'm sorry for sounding so whinny. Why the heck can i open up tp like this? Are you suppose to be my psychiatrist? spell check that word. sorry.
My time to flow
Jump around Shove all the people out of the way. Kick punch and dance in your little zone. Lets go I love... too punch you and beat you. Windmill all through the set. Push your way to the front of the crowd. jump up jump down. feel the beat in your body find someone scream the lyrics together. the crowd becomes one as they scream and shout throw your fist ups and lets get it going. The last look you get is the guy on the other side ready to collide. here we go the dirt rises as the dancers go inhale cuz it's what you made sweat and blood its all good fun.
Then its done AMAZING
Why?????????????
Just keep reading don't stop even if you think I'm complaining, it will get better.
Why do you put me trough pain?
Why doesn't anyone want to be with me?
Why can't I fit in?
Why can't I have money when I want it?
Why don't I have that cd that I really want?
Why do I make such horrible mistakes?
Why do people judge me?
Why am I ugly?
Why is everyone better at everything then me?
Why am I alone all the time?
Why am I here in this wicked place?
Why don't you give me what i want?
Why don't my parents let me do what i want to do?
Why is my family so bad?
Why doesn't anything ever go my way?
Why do i feel unloved?
You want to know why?
Because
He loves me more then anyone can love somone else.
He gave life and will soon present me with death.
He is always their when I need him, I just call out his name and he answers.
He has given me everything I have ever needed.
He is the only one who will judge me when the day comes.
He has Eternal life waiting for me when I leave this wicked place.
In his eyes I am beautiful, he created me after his own image.
Money means nothing if I can't take it to heaven.
The newest cd dosen't compare to the wonderful love he gives me eveyday.
I'm never alone no matter how I feel.
He gave me parents that care about me.
He will always accept me no matter what.
He is merciful and forgiving.
I fit in with his people no matter what.
The pain I fell was nothing compared to what Jesus had to go through to save me and you from our sins.
He gave his only son to die for me and I wasn't even born yet, but he knew I was on my way.
The only love I need for the rest of my life is his love.
Cancer bats Fo sho
Okay wel since I'm rad and I have a Rad BRO-oh and an awsome Youth Pastor, Cancer Bats played at my Bro's house. It was so sweet. I absolutely love Love lufff... Cancer bats. For those of you who don't know me... I am totally and completely Obsessed with Canada and everything about it. Well Cancer Bats if from Canada and I was so stoked, plus Secrets Known to liars have a new song and they played it too, very bueno. Anyways, Cancer Bats tre Rad, they like sealed it I'm moving to Canada When I Graduate. Liam the lead singer said "ABOUT" for me and I was changed for life I love the accent it is so Rad. They are amazing live o - my - gosh they are I got Butt load of sweat on me but it was all good Hommie. lol. After the set was over they hung out a little and my brother gave them an old rusty Golf cart to throw of a bridge cause here in Idaho He have this thing called the Prime Bridge and it's huge. It was just a fun show and My sister beat up her Ex-boyfriend. Dont' cry Sunni.hahaha
: Qola :
I wish i was a Snow Cone artista :o)
posted Mar 02
damnlovely
holidays came in smoothly and what not and b-day and
valentines and paycheck haha.yes i dont get on much.
:]..changed your hair lately? keep on surviving :]
posted Feb 16
ThursdayxMayhem
Happy Valentines Day!!! XOXO[Cindy]XOXO
posted Feb 14
Window_Serenade
LILLI BEAN!!!!!! your alive!!! hallelujah!!! praise the
freakin LORD!!!! hahahah dude, it\'s all good. . .
there\'s nothing wrong with the \"cold shoulder\"
routine girlie. . i\'m kinda use to it. . so it\'s all
good. . .and i forgive you lovely. . .come on now. .GOT
NOTHIN BUT LOVE FOR MY LILLI BEAN!!!! fo rizzle. .
cause she\'s the CRUNKEST CHICK I KNOW!!!! aw yeah!!
dude, i will so add you on myspace then. . in a
heartbeat.. or two. . .or three. . .whatev, i\'ll add
you regardless love!!!! LoL
posted Jan 17
Window_Serenade
LILLI BEAN!!!!!! your alive!!! hallelujah!!! praise the
freakin LORD!!!! hahahah dude, it\'s all good. . .
there\'s nothing wrong with the \"cold shoulder\"
routine girlie. . i\'m kinda use to it. . so it\'s all
good. . .and i forgive you lovely. . .come on now. .GOT
NOTHIN BUT LOVE FOR MY LILLI BEAN!!!! fo rizzle. .
cause she\'s the CRUNKEST CHICK I KNOW!!!! aw yeah!!
dude, i will so add you on myspace then. . in a
heartbeat.. or two. . .or three. . .whatev, i\'ll add
you regardless love!!!! LoL
posted Jan 17
ashleen_thinks_aj&sonni_are_supaflyXxX
nah its not lame or silly that u wanted a fire in your
school i always wanted one too and there finally was
one and yeah me and the boy i like and my bffls went
skating soooooooo funn so whats up wit u
posted Jan 14
ashleen_thinks_aj&sonni_are_supaflyXxX
I know its been foreverness darlin!! im great our
schools cafe was on fire yesterday so we had too stand
outside for 20mins till they got it out and yea i got
everything i wanted and great holidays and
yourself??!!! The Ben Thing is going pretty good!!
posted Jan 11
Cr@nked & Nicotine
hey!... i\'m good
posted Jan 10