purevolume™

barf.

Posted May 5, 2008

if i had only known at the beginning of junior year how absolutely wretched it would be i probably would have faked cancer or something. got my hopes up with him for the second time this year, he asks my friend out today. i'm freezing, i keep coughing because i can't breathe, i keep cursing like a sailor and i'm doing this instead of working on readying my brain for the ap exams on thursday and friday. it just kind of feels like while i only have my friends, they have me and someone else too. it's so selfish but i wish i had someone for just me, ya know? and why can't i get over him? i've liked him for what, five years? i've acted like such an idiot lately.