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We Interrupt This Normally Boring Blog/Music For An "Important" Emergency Rant, Please Hold And Thank You For Your Patience As We Go Through These Technical Difficulties...
First of all, I think we should get this out of the way, now. You don't like me. And I don't like you; though at least I actually have the balls to say this to you and not to my girlfriend who you should know by now, tells me almost everything 'cause I honestly won't say anything (this time excluded for obvious reasons).
Second, I will not be apologizing to you. I called you paranoid because I think you are; it is an opinion and I am entitled to have such things but it does not mean you need to take them to heart or think about them at all.
Besides this fact, I only called you paranoid, you have indirectly called me a pervert because as everyone knows, I am my dad and you, being the uptight arse that you are (yes, I called you something else, also just an opinion but I will apologize for this name), have called him and someone we've had as pretty much family since before I was born, and who could practically be an uncle to me, perverts; for me, this just does not sit well. So now, I don't honestly think you deserve this apology I am being told to give you (although technically, I have said sorry to you already, but apparently, it's not enough). And now I shall tell you something even I find slightly odd and disturbing, I don't like Jonathan -we know this- but, I don't like you even more.
Admittedly, yes, I do dislike you a great deal as it is anyway considering you are part of a couple, but that really isn't the only reason. Personally, I think you need to loosen up. And if I were told to describe you in a few words to one or two sentences, this would honestly be my answer: He's a very nice guy, smart, but he's also a goody two-shoes and I think a little more than slightly uptight.
Now, I've said my piece and I actually would like to see that you too have enough balls to tell me your opinion of me - besides that you think I'm a perv and I frustrate/stress you out - because really, bottling things up and keeping negative energy to yourself like that cannot be very good for you; and yes, I realize how dumb and odd that probably sounded coming from me of all people.
I am not actually asking you to do this, I'm more telling you to, mainly for the sake of a mutual party we both love who happens to be stuck in the middle of this.
Personally, as long as I know why you don't like me and your honest opinion of me, I will be able to tolerate you for her sake and will try to be kind and not do the things that you say piss you off; and really, I hope you'll do the same for me and if not for me then for her because it would not be fair to her for us to hate each other and pretty much make her choose - just without saying it - and I never want to do that to her and never would.
I believe I've finished my part now, thank you.
... Thank you for your patience and we apologize for any inconvenience this may have caused you.
Kweezi Mind Corporation: Rant Division. End Of Emergency Rant, We Now Return You To Your Regularly Scheduled Boring Blog/Music.
Tah-Dah!
Kweezi.
I will always make mistakes.
I miss all the old times; THE FANTASTIC FIVE!
I hear constant music.
I smell vanilla.
I worry about close to everything.
I regret everything and nothing Ive done so far.
I love those special select few that have shown me a reason to feel anything at all for them.
I always think about everything.
I can always listen when you need me to; but come on, let me vent once in a while as well.
I dream constantly of something somewhere better.
I sing constantly; although you cant always tell.
I cant stand being crowded or alone for too long; BALANCE NEEDED.
I lost my mind but not my conscience.
I fear life, dolls, water, loss and very little else.
I like what I have never want to lose any of it.
I listen to everything; watch what you say when Im near, its how I find out LOTS.
I can usually be found lost in my own head and/or in music, a book or computer... Most times with friends... Sometimes in Sigma.
I need constant music and/or entertainment; which isnt hard when youre easily amused most times.
I know that Im not always right and I dont always have to be apart of everything, especially matters not concerning me, yet I do anyway, and I apologize.
I hope for something to happen and everything else will turn out good in the end, even if there are rough patches.
I want to be something else other than what I am, but I guess Im content with what Ive got and, hey, I can change if I want.
I eat not a whole lot actually... But I am not anorexic or anything of the sort, thank you very much.
I am always listening to music and thinking about something or other.
I wish for a lot but I guess thats not really important and I dont really need it; but everyone wishes so I guess I can always just go with the crowd for once.
I cry not at all.
I fell for something I probably shouldnt have but I guess its what had to happen; weve all got our lessons to learn, right?
I dont think I really like any of this but I guess I can live with it anyway, its not like its really that bad, now is it?
I will always remember my mistakes, my memories, my friends, my lessons and every experience because those are the things which shape our lives and I wouldnt be who/what I am if I hadnt had them.
I learn from the things Ive done and cant change because no one can learn from anyone elses experience having not felt what they felt and having not done the things theyve done with understanding; it just doesnt happen.
I hurt whenever I think of past experiences but I wouldnt change them for anything.
I care about those select people Ive said I love and a few others whom I couldnt live without and worry about.
I think constantly about everything and anything, may it be of consequence or not.
I hate nothing and no one at all (the things Im afraid of excluded of course).
I see somethings I wish I didnt (couples for example) but I see a lot of other things as well (picture examples in gallery?).
I touch everything I can, but never anyone (unless its in some other certain way which shall not be said here for obvious inappropriate reasons).
I feel everything even though sometimes I wish I didnt.
I try as hard as I can but, yeah, sometimes its just not good enough; sorry.
I crave, at the moment, to cause drama in the happy existence of us... Or just a serious session of random stupidity with someone.
I have a crush on someone I know I can never have but I will not sit and mope about because of this; we get over things eventually with time.
I broke a few new years resolutions? No, there are maybe a few broken relationships/friendships though; none of which were really by choice.
I have pretty much everything I could need at the moment and I guess I have no reason to complain (although sometimes I do), but its human nature to want what you cant and dont have.
I still sleep with a teddy bear (who, in spite of having him for about six and a half months, is still nameless) and sadly still take to heart what people say and think about me (although I dont always follow what they tell me to do/think because let..s face it, Im neither that gullible nor that stupid to conform to what you all think is right. Shit, at some point some people think war is right, so Id have to be an idiot to think I could trust the judgment of every person in the world. And besides, Im not hurting anyone, so fuck off and leave me alone, stupid cunts).
I trust no one at all sadly, not even myself at times.
I get moody when I start thinking about certain things... And when I see couples (especially ones Rebecca or Lea are apart of).
I obsess about everything although I wish I didnt, I just cant help but think about it all and the things that could happen (even if they seem utterly stupid and irrational).
I cheer for those people I care and worry about; Im your own personal cheering section kids!
I build up the hopes of some only to let them down hard and fast. This isnt purposely, I cant help but say and do things that will make people happy, smile or laugh; Im a pleaser.
I screamed when I was born into this shithole excuse we call our world and lives... Well I probably did scream, but not for that reason, I didnt know about that part of the deal yet.
I am a bit of a smart ass at times, as well as a bitch, tease, slut and idiot. But I am also loyal, trustworthy (even if I dont trust you, you can trust me), kind, funny, weird, disturbing, morbid, kinky, fun, random, shy, quiet, romantic, jealous, a good judge of character (when it doesnt concern me) and a good friend.
I completely suck but you love me anyway; through the ups and downs, were always ready and going on stronger than before.
I actually got 100% in English for this.. Depressing.
There are so many sex related topics now. Thanks to media influence with crap like the Pussycat Dolls, Christina Aguilera, Beyonce. And the guys being no better with their videos. Look what weve been raised around; Songs like, I Want To Fuck You, Im In Love With A Stripper, and Candy Shop. What kind of thing is that to teach the people who are going to be responsible for taking care of you later in life?
Add the power of the internet to this. Now Ive got horny fifteen year old boys emailing me pictures of their cocks and jacking off on web cameras over MSN. Thats not right.
Thinking about this, my generation is probably the most likely next generation to produce the next Baby Boom; although these babies would be far less responsible, thanks to their parents (who could all very well have been teenagers when they were born).
Statistics say that were waiting until later in life to have children and marry. I have a feeling my generation could change that. Its as if wed be reliving the medieval ages, where girls had kids at around the age of thirteen. Only now, theyd have the option of abortion and maybe no husband; or even boyfriend. Right now, they might not even know who the father is out of ten possible guys.
It seems were all getting more knowledgeable on this subject at younger and younger ages as generations go on. Or, at least, were far less responsible with the type of information we receive and the way we use it all. Right now, we could have thirteen year old prostitutes, pregnant grade nine girls, and ten year olds as heroin addicts. The saddest part of all this is the people who grow up using us as role models and those who care about us all.
Some people just dont realize how much it hurts us, those who care, to see them hurting like they are. So far, Ive only met one person younger than I am who is semi mature at all. He has been addicted to heroin once or twice and was hospitalized for trying to commit suicide once last September. But even through all that and his randomness, he manages to be one of the most mature people I know. And only at the age of sixteen, he manages to pass a fair share of my own generation in intelligence, maturity, and worldly understanding and experience.
Is this not a depressing fact for the world though? To hear that this is the state of maturity to be expected of the future people who will take care of it? Well be completely like the Idiocracy generation. Charlie Chaplin and his evil Nazis! [Insert dinosaurs at the un here].
Well be the generation of sex crazed idiots who water crops with Gatorade. This is just too depressing a factor to consider now. If we dont kill ourselves (most likely with our stupidity) global warming and the next ice age we failed to prevent while being too busy fucking like rabbits will.
Honestly, Im ashamed of society and scared for everyones well being. Think about this... People fighting about cleavage and a dress, that isnt even theirs, for over ten minutes. But then, you have people walking by to their classrooms, dropping off their stuff and then, they come out and WATCH! And even better, the watchers gain followers. I didnt know what was sadder at the time, the fact that they stood there arguing about a dress and someones body type, or that people I know stood there ten minutes watching it all until the bell rang. Im actually appalled that I actually know what they were arguing about.
I've gone insane inside insanity..
I think I've completely lost my mind..
I can't remember what I've done for the past week.
I don't remember conversations I've had.
Work I've done. People I've seen.
I can hear voices in my head,
Some calling my name..
I think stress and my natural insanity have finally taken over and fucked me up completely.
Tangled webs weaved in such an intricate design..
I wonder how long it's been.. It's been at least almost.. Going on four and a half(?) months now since actually seeing..
Hm.. I bet someone $5 that I don't see him on Sunday again. I'll either go and he won't show, something comes up to cancel, or nothing gets planned at all...
I'll bet someone my heart, I never see him again.. I'll sit here hoping.. Wondering.. Thinking about it all..
It's never going to happen; fairy tale OVER.
Was this just a taste? Something to show me what I'll never have?
Give me something that had the potential to actually, really make me happy for once, and then..
Just..
Take it away...
Depressed because she doesn't have one?
What I wouldn't give to not even have the hope, the possibility..
It hurts too much..
I think the fact that my thoughts rarely leave that area bug me the most..
Why do we have this want for something that hurts us so much, causes us so much pain its almost unbearable?
Granted that at a point it was what made us happy, but it doesnt stay that way forever..
Not right now that is.
In later years to come maybe so, but by then well be through playing with heads and hearts.
Well be wiser in our age.
Well be less tempted thanks to experience.
Well have the knowledge of how it feels from past brokenhearted mistakes.
But now?.. Now we know nothing, or very little.
We know it hurts. We know its good. We know what its called..
Our little known knowledge seems to falter at times.
We get hurt. We suffer. We slowly begin to heal.
But before were done, we attach onto something new and completely forget the past..
For the moment.
Youre happy. Feel safe. Its going to last forever.
But..
Thats just not true. It all ends eventually.
Its salt on unhealed wounds. It hurts just as much, if not more.
Berating yourself for stupid double experience caused by your own act of faltering.
We suffer. We slowly begin to heal.. Yet again, it happens.
We pour salt in the wounds, we rip them open and do it again.
It never stops bleeding.
Pure and red, mixed with salt..
The color of love, the taste of the ocean..
The smooth silk of blood, and the soft sting of tears fallen.
Why we pull the same mistakes over and over again..
Is it hope? Faith?..
Denial?..
No, I dont think so.. Its more than just that..
I just dont know what else
With time..
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