His Dedication
Posted March 22, 2007
~His Dedication~
(Written on January 28th, 2007)
I think I have it all together.
That's when it hits me the hardest.
Like a brick to my face.
Mayday.
Meltdown.
I feel like I know nothing at all,
Like I'm cut out for the most unfulfilling "thing":
Nothing.
Get behind me, satan!
Stop feeding me your lies!
Putting one foot in front of the other,
I begin to unwind.
I see how foolish my thoughts were,
Oh, God, rid me of my hopeless cycle!
I stumble.
I fall.
I pity myself too much to even attempt to crawl.
But You're there.
I may give up on myself,
"Just leave me here," I say.
But You don't give up on me.
You pull me to my feet,
But I fall again.
And as my back hits the concrete,
I see that someone has written upon it with chalk,
"I love you!"
Immersion in Your love.
Mayday.
Meltdown.
I love You, too, Jesus!
You pick me up,
And like a father would for his son,
You raise me onto Your shoulders,
Because I am too tired to walk anymore.
Thank You, Jesus.
When all else falls away,
And think I have nothing,
Can do nothing,
Am nothing,
I still have You.
Lord, You still have me.
~bryan ruhe
