Love Vs. Love
Posted March 15, 2007
I just don't know anymore.
I thought I knew,
I believed I heard God speaking clearly,
But the devil and God are raging inside of me.
God, speak!
Or at least comfort me,
Tell me that what I'm doing is right.
I miss you, oh, I miss you,
But I feel that I need to learn to live without you by my side.
God is by my side,
And that's enough.
But oh, I miss you.
Sitting together with smiles on our young, naive faces,
Never once imagining that this could bring anything but joy.
We say that we can't go there,
And that we need to "cut off whatever we had... If anything."
I think we had something.
I know we did.
And it has to die.
Or does it?
I miss you, I hope we don't have to cut off all communication.
Now the devil is raging inside of you,
Is this an indication of our situation being something we ought to get out of?
God is by my side,
And He's by yours.
But oh, I miss you.
I miss the you that always smiled and didn't stop when I approached.
Now our countanances have fallen,
You avoid me for some reason I can't yet grasp.
God's timing is never a mistake,
And that I know for sure.
You're doing what you feel God is leading you to do.
But oh, I miss you!
So I'll pray that God kill what's left of you inside of me,
And He'll fill us both with Him.
I don't know if I miss this -
God's taught me so much.
Oh, does it have to die?
I will praise You, Jesus,
For the trials We endure,
Through them I can cling to You and grow closer.
But fill me with joy, not sorrow,
Deliver me from my "hopelessness,"
So that others will see You in me.
For You are my hope, my strength, the Rock on which I stand.
I know You are with me always.
Don't let me take it for granted.
And tame this raging beast,
The human side of me.
For all I do is futile,
And what You can do is everything.
~bryan ruhe
