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JOEFY
Age: 24
Location: Arizona
Joined On: Dec 06, 2006
Occupation: Student!
My name is Joey
I play the drums I never finish the last bite of any meal My favorite food is cotton candy I draw, maybe too much I laugh at random things I never talk first Im shy when I should'nt be, almost to a fault I like to be spontaneous I like when people say everything thats on their mind (How did he come to this, His mind is working harder than ever before. Thousands of thoughts in seconds. His last thoughts were of her, and how he and he alone had destroyed the once vibrant spirit he had inherited so deeply. The last pain he had ever caused is to the only woman that had ever loved him...) All I want is what's mine I dont care who I hurt Some rules are made with all intentions to break And she defends it with a warped rationale And I've seen what happens to the wicked and proud When they decide to try to take on the throne for the crown
The dream
I used to think about things that i loved when i was a kid. One particular though always came into my head. It was about the only time i have ever felt perfectly happy. Im scared to think about it or try and recreate the way i felt in any way because im afraid i might istort my perfect memory with worse things happening in my life right now...
Last night he had a dream about her, this was different from any dream he'd had before, He frantically tried to hold on to the couded visions of the night before when all he could hear was the blood pumping in his ears. He was confused but happy. Closing his eyes and taking a deep breath he replayed the dream in his head so that he could feel that way again. He knew he had just been at a party, but no one around him looked familiar. Everyone was friendly but he was constantly searching for sarcasm and secret attacks in dialogue...he was on a first date. He did not see her but he knew she was in the room; they decided to hang out with her friends that night. He smiled knowing that he would have agreed to anything just be around her. An instant passed and the surroundings changed, he was lying in a bed, he was tired and she crawled in next to him. She hugged him and held her arms close around him when a roommate walked by, "are you two in love already??" He looked at her for a reply, her eyes were closed but she was smiling and then kissed him on the cheek to show her roommate that there was a possibility. A flash and the scene changes again, she lived down the street and he walked to her house, she answered the door with a smile on her face that could have kept him thinking abou her for days. Awkwardness fades as familiar comfort sets in and they sit on the couch together, he enjoys her company more than life itself. Another flash, a cliff, hes hanging on but something is pulling him down, his harness wont hold him anymore and the rope falls lifeless past him. She is screaming but all he can hear is the hum in his ears from the adrenaline. They make eye contact and everything falls silent as a tear runs down her cheek..."i love you" she mouths to him as he falls.
Uninspire, reinspire, inspire anything
He is so easily spired, he fails to admit truth about anything serious and jumps on the possibility of endlessness. Hearts that race so quickly as his dont like to drop and sink into a lonley state of hollow feeling and high blood pressure. Close your eyes, breath in deep and wait for the pain to go away, they said it would pass just like you know it always has, white coats, blank faces, lights to bright to live under. Conversation and feeling the surge of future happenings dont come to him anymore, what was once a boy whos spirit was uncontrollable is now a recesitated multiple of the shadows it once cast. Close your eyes, take your mind away so that it wont happen again, your time will come you'll see...but for now close your eyes. Modern architecture and the ideals lift again to a place where things are so easy, glances can solve problems if looked at from the right direction and anything falls if pushed hard enough. A phone call, a letter, the argument, shes done it again. Close your eyes, breath in and forget about localizing pain in another fasion, cuts that sooth and scars that heal are meak and temporary because this is what you chose, this is what he has to live with, thinking to himself he wants something more. Smile again but only for a moment because things are coming, he's dreamed them, and they haunt him out of the corners of his gaze, they dreams are coming faster now, you can feel them, yes? One above, one to the right, close your eyes...hold on but dont hold your breath, these dreams come faster now.
I've been sharpening my teeth for this moment
s there such thing as a new years resolution in these situations that condemn the personality and state of mind that freed him from such happenings in the first place? Even the alcohol and cheapend state that he put himself in to numb the rest of the world doesnt stop him from rolling his eyes at conversation and forced laughter, he wishes he was somewhere else. "This won't ever happen to me again" he promises himself in a mirror, grins at the irony of what he just heard, swears under his breath. He's furious at the incredibly typical situation, wants to get even and tip the scales to offset the counterweight that came down on him with such a vendetta that assures him fate is a woman, he knows because her favorite weapon is sabatoge.
Girls please read this
So my good friend from high school calls me up since im in town for a few days and wants to hang out, he tells me about this girl that he likes and wants to meet up with only he asks me to call her. I say no problem since she is my friend and we talk every so often, I invite her out and she says sure, then i mention his name and she flips, totally wont go out if hes going. I wonder what is going on since i know my friend is a cool guy and she says hes been stalking her, i can tell this is kind of serious so i ask what hes done and apparently this is the definition of stalking: they had a class together, he walks by in class and says hello but doesnt sitt with her, then on the weekends he has parties at his house and he calls her to leave a message since he knows she is at work, he calls her once a week to hang out with 30 other people at his place....thats it. APPARENTLY if a girl doesnt like a guy and her life is too pathetic to involve herself with any other counts of pointless drama and other types of "ooo hey look at me im a girl"-ness then he's pegged as a "weirdo" or a "stalker" or "creepy". Then she asked me to go out with her that night and ditch my friend....WTF!?!
Honestly my friend is a cool guy and doesnt deserve to have a crush on such a bitch, but I really dont see what he did wrong here, he liked her, invited her out twice. When she didnt call him back he stopped and says hi to her in class. Is that so wrong? Maybe im not seeing it from a girl's perspective but what else can the guy do? I think its unfair that he gets the bad rep when she is the one being unrealistic. Can someone please explain this to me?
subliminalxo
Here I am! I swear I'm getting worse and worse at
keeping up with this thing. I'm actually down relaxing
in Guerneville, CA right now. Our big group of friends
gets together every year in a different location and
this year its wine country! Wine tasting and loving
every second of it :] It's absolutely beautiful through
these hills! I don't ever want to leave. Sigh.... How
are you doin? It's been forever since we talked!
posted May 25
tabitha jane xo
That would be fun to do that! Yeah. Our snow was
almost melted and tonight we are supposed to get more,
like a foot or something around there. My weekend was
good, how was yours?
posted Apr 08
tabitha jane xo
Hey, It's going pretty good... except for the 20 inches
of snow we just got where I live. Ha. But how's it
going for you?
posted Apr 01
subliminalxo
Oh jeez! Stay away from the malls if you can! Last
weekend I was getting my hair done over by chandler
mall, not even in the mall, and there was so much
traffic that I literally couldn\'t get on to the
freeway for 30 minutes!!! Its ridiculous. I was so
pissed! I say hit up safeway or something and go crazy
on gift cards - that way you might not kill anyone
before christmas :] I made the HUGE MISTAKE of agreeing
to accompany my cousin today as she does some last
minute chistmas shopping, so Im gonna be out there in
the thick of it... we\'ll see how that goes! I actually
didnt wait until the last minute this year to buy
gifts! It feels nice:] How many people do you need to
buy for?
posted Dec 22
subliminalxo
OHHHHHHH! Well thats super cool then! WELCOME :]
posted Dec 21
subliminalxo
I know, I know, Im sorry! Its true though, I havent
checked this site in forever. Werent you recently down
here in phoenix?
posted Dec 21