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the good kind
Posted September 11 | Leave a Comment
"Do you wanna run away together?" I would say was your best line, ever. Too bad I fell for it. And I walked alone Waiting for you to come along Take my tortured heart by the hand And write me out Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry? And it's not the good kind... Well you forced me to become strong When I craved just being weak And you think you know And I would like to think so But do you know when you go I fall apart... Do you know I cry? Do you kno… read more
After Effects
Posted July 25 | Leave a Comment
feeling alone in an empty room, i shut my eyes only to find, i'm even more empty inside what i don't understand is what i had... i had something amazing and i lost it, i lost you now i feel lonely amd forgotten and as dead as i was before i met you, before i loved you i was sad and departed from this world i had nothing to live for, no one to care for- but then you looked at me and you hair fell into place and i realized- i didn't have to feel that way, but i lost it, i lost you and now… read more
OveRKilL
Posted May 8 | Leave a Comment
just when i thought it couldn't get any worse, it did i thought i was dead-but now i'm the living dead. I'm living a death that doesn't quite kill me, but it hurts enough to make me wish i were actually dead. i thought i wasn't able to feel the pain anymore, like i was numb to it by now, i thought i was numb to the hurt you had caused. i was wrong.... over and over again, your knife stabs into my back. Why don't you just leave it there, you and i both know you'll need it there again 2 sec… read more
killer
Posted May 2 | Leave a Comment
i wrote a blog called dead along time ago and it was written for my best friend, who i hurt. i felt so bad that i hurt him(my best freiend) and now, i've realized he did the same thing to my only in a dirrerent form. He's killed me. And i guess i'm not mad, i'm just sick of getting beat down by someone who should care. in my blog, dead, i wrote that i can't look at myself the same way, and all i see is a stranger. Funny how karma has a way of comming back to you, only it's always worse. i… read more
Why would i do that for you
Posted April 17 | Leave a Comment
why.... why do you treat me like this, why are you so harsh? your words kill me as if i'm not dead already.... you've changed and not for the better, you make me feel horrible about myself... what the hell have i ever done to you you were my best friend.. but i don't know you anymore you eat away at me.. you pick out every bad flaw in me and hold on to it you keep it in your mind and never forgive or forget you don't care what happens to me you unload all your anger on me.. as if i'm a fu… read more
GOODbYe MY lOvEr
Posted March 14 | Leave a Comment
I listened to this song over and over again when i went to NYC. It is how i feel about someone. I want them to know that i love them, but i just can't do this anymore. I'm just confused and this song sums up how i feel. I love you and i always will and we'll see what happens in the future. Thanks for everything. (listen to this song if you have never heard it before.) JAMES BLUNT "Goodbye My Lover" Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown… read more
please take my life
Posted March 6 | Leave a Comment
God take my life away, So I dont have to live another day Please forgive my deadly sins, If not Ill have to die again, in a hell meant for evil. To die a death that never ends, is to die a death all over again I can feel my heart beat, faster, faster...I anticipate waiting for my death sentence- Is like waiting for the day to end God,... speak,... Im waiting for you, I am waiting for your call Please answer me today So I dont live another day. Break my body, Tear me apart Do whatever you… read more
oceans from the rain
Posted February 23 | Leave a Comment
Seventh Day Slumber Oceans From the Rain And Im amazed by You. Cause Youre never far away And all that Ive been through, Your love has never changed Chorus: You make oceans from the rain Breathing life into this place And I will drown inside your love Until I see your perfect face And nothing Ive acquired means anything at all Cause youre everything I needed Youre so much more than I deserve You make oceans from the rain Breathing life into this place And I will drown inside your love… read more
"More than Useless"
Posted January 30 | Leave a Comment
RELIENT K LYRICS "More Than Useless" I feel like, I would like To be somewhere else doing something that matters And I'll admit here, while I sit here My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather Whats the purpose? It feels worthless So unwanted like I've lost all my value I can't find it, not in the least bit and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all But then you assure me… read more
pain
Posted January 17 | Leave a Comment
"Pain" -three days grace Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than no… read more
YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL
Posted January 16 | Leave a Comment
Your Guardian Angel -Red jumpsuit Apparatus When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm stronger I've figured out How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's ok. It's ok. It's ok. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all… read more
ThE sEcReTs OuT
Posted January 1 | Leave a Comment
I realize as I'm sitting in a car for 5 hours that my mind only concentrates or focuses on one thing. No matter what song I listen to it reminds me of him. I see landscapes, sunrises and sunsets and everything reminds me of him. Is it a coincidence, is it fate? How come I dream about him or I just can't stop thinking about him? I get done talking to him on the phone for hours and as soon as I hang up I want to call him back but fear that I will look even crazier then I am. I see him almos… read more
O' Child
Posted December 28 | Leave a Comment
O' Child Nevertheless ~live like we're alive I want to come closer but you are so distant lately your thoughts are so far I want to show you all that you're missing and i'll meet you right where you are o' love, i've always known you and o' love, you've always been mine o' love, i'm only asking you for your life say that you need me i know what you're feeling you cannot do this alone i gave you my word, and i gave you my life so that you'll never be on you own you're waiting for this life… read more
alone
Posted December 15 | Leave a Comment
i'm dead to the world, and dead to myself. there isn't a hopeful thing left in my cold, heartless body. i feel nothing, for i have lost everything. i feel not your touch, or even your thoughts. there isn't joy in anything. i have no one to help relieve my pain and nothing to bring me up from this dark area i'm in. i am a rotting corpse, waiting to be buried, and taken from my misery. to end this horrible feeling of being alone........ ~JeZra RAe read more
the untouchable me
Posted November 29 | Leave a Comment
I'm one of those girls who appear sweet and uncomplicated at first glance. I have a classic girl-next door innocence and charm, but once you get to know me, i have a really dark, mysterious side. Even though you realize i could be deceptive and distant, your curiosity might get the best of you and you could possibly be drawn to me. You could get caught up in my allure and be blind to my real motivations. I have a certain danger about me, and you can't help but be attracted to it. But if y… read more
