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[[STEPH]]
Age: 17
Location: United States
Joined On: Dec 19, 2006
+ I'm Steph
+ Jesus is my Savior
+ My parents don't agree
+ Music is my passion
+ My favorite bands are Blindside, OLD Kids in the Way, Staple, and Falling Up
+ I listen to Hardcore Christian music
+ I go to A LOT of concerts
+ I can be very emo at times
+ I am obsessed with nature
+ I love photography
+ All my pictures are unedited
+ I love to learn about other cultures
+ Specifically Asian ones
+ I hate most of the crap on the radio
+ Lips Rings make me smile =D
+ I plan to get my lip pierced as soon as I turn 18 and move out of this house
+ I just got out of a relationship with someone that proved to me that I'm easily replaced
+ I am slowly building up my friendships that have been torn down in the past few months
+ I am slowly learning a little bit about myself everyday
+ I strive on a daily basis to be in God's will not my own
+ I care about everyone way to much and most of the time it only gets me hurt
+ I won't add you unless you talk to me
+ To sum that all up - I'm a freak
Since November;;
^ go there
Are you bored??
Everyone ((whether you know me super well or not, I'm curious)) should go here and do this because you are all bored and don't have a life =]] j/k lol http://www.bored.com/judgefriends/questions_list.php?qz_id=21260&code=3f2624ba9ffc5ebd40c98284e1379e99
R.I.P. 3-5-2007
I already typed all this up once but the computer messed up and deleted it all so whatever...
One year ago tomorrow my heart was ripped in a way it never has been before. My grandpa unexpectedly died of a heart attack...
One year and I still can't believe your gone. One year of me being in disbelief. One year of not being able to stay up with you until 2 or 3 watching Becker and making fun of oursleves even though grandma specifically told us not to stay up late because we had things to do in the morning. One year of not helping you sort your coins. One year of not hanging out in your office. One year of not hearing your squeaky chair. One year of no "like ya's" One year. and I am still in dibelief.
I am now starting to realize that I took for granted all of the time that we spent together. I took for granted all the smiles and hugs and "like-ya's" I heard every time I saw you. Now that I look back and I can only smile at those times. I look back at the weekend before you passed when my parents and I went to your house and had lunch and we were all surprised that you were playing with the cat, an animal that you clearly hated all your life. Or how when you showed Ranee and I the new coin that you bought for your collection and you told us not to show my dad because he would find somethign wrong with it and you sepent way to much money on it for it to have faults. I remember asking you if it was a "90% coin" one of our overused inside jokes. and then I remember telling you that we were going to tease you about that until the day you died. We all had a great time. and as we were saying goodbye I took one last look at you and waved and you had a huge smile on your face as you were playing with your cat. That is that last memory I have of you. You were happy. You were smiling. Everytime that I think of that day I can't help but smile as a tear finds its way in my eye.
I love you and miss you terribly
One year and I still can't believe your gone.
&& the truth is that I can't go over to your house anymore because I always want to go up into your office and look for you. I always walk in and wonder where you are until I realize that you aren't there anymore. That house is empty without you. It's ackward.
I miss you more than words could explain...
One year...
In the words of Kids in the way;
"Farewell, this is the end
But I’ll remember you
I know we’ll meet again
And our days will be all brand new"
I will go through my day tomorrow and I will try my hardest to keep my composure. I don't want attention. I just want to be left alone. I don't want to be sad because I know thats not what you would want but I never felt like I completely dealt with this loss. and I don't think that I ever really mourned for you. I was in to much shock and didn't believe it. I still don't...
This is a poem that Ranee and I wrote the day after he passed and we read it at the funeral...
Psalm 62:5-8
5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.
Selah
I Will Not Be Shaken
Written by: Ranee Barron and Stephanie Zickefoose
The sky was beautiful the day you went away.
As the wind blew hard, I remember the words you used to say.
You spoke of joy, love and life - I will never forget;
Your smile as colorful and vibrant as the sunset;
You offered love and forgiveness even when it wasn’t deserved;
When you spoke you were full of wisdom and now I cherish every word.
The joy you brought when you were around;
Was like radiant cascades flowing in the background.
From “ninety-percent coins,” to your squeaky chair;
Your jokes and laughs could be heard everywhere.
All the memories of the shared times;
Shine brightly like blooming flowers during springtime.
I’m glad I can stand here and proudly proclaim;
The world is a better place because of what you gave.
More than a grandpa, but no less than a friend;
The love we shared no one will ever comprehend.
We will all love you long after you’re gone;
We will always remember you at the break of every dawn.
March 6, 2007
I miss you terribly && I love you so much, even a year later
R.I.P. 3-5-2007
LYdi ♥
well you need to!! lol
posted Jan 12
LYdi ♥
i havent wrote a comment to you in FOREVER!
posted Jan 02
kels
life? extremely stressful lol. school? okay. senior
year =]. how are you?
posted Oct 13
kels
HELLO =]
posted Oct 09
LYdi ♥
i know steph like seriously like i dont see you anymore
at all and i miss you so much. i wish we were at least
in one class together! but no just hallway talk. its
stupid. hey do you have an email? i need it girlie if
you have one.
posted Sep 09
LYdi ♥
sorrry steph for deleting you! not my fault i swear!!!
lol
posted Sep 04
LYdi ♥
hey! so im in office tech right now and decided to
write you cuz im bored... and theres no one else to
write. not saying that your like my last and only
choice... I LOVE YOU! haha anyways so i can get on pv
but i cant get on a email.. isnt that weird?? i dont
get it!!! anyways yeahhhhh... ill go now.. :] bye
posted Aug 29
Shanon
Hey! I just saw your profile on the list of Ilia's
fans. I wanted to tell you about an online radio
station called Cleft in the Rock
(www.cleftintherock.net). They are a 24/7 Christian
Rock radio station, and they play pretty much every
band you have listed that you like (Spoken, RED, and
others like that). They also do a live show on Friday
nights, 7-10PM eastern, and its really cool! You
should check it out sometime, I really think you would
like it. Blessings! -Shanon
posted Aug 26