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Age:  15

Location:  United States

Joined On:  Jul 24, 2009

 
 
 
Goodnight Sunrise Goodnight Sunrise

Pop / Rock / Powerpop

Breathe Electric Breathe Electric

Pop / Electronica

Slow Motion Sickness Slow Motion Sickness

Screamo / Post Hardcore / Electronica

EYES SET TO KILL EYES SET TO KILL

Post Hardcore / Rock / Screamo

Halifax Halifax

Rock / Pop Punk / Emo

the black dahlia murder the black dahlia murder

Metal / Death Metal

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I'm 15
Am a Christian
Vegetarian
Not typical
Black eyes
Brown/black hair
4 piercings
0 tattoos but planning on getting em soon
I have flaws
My mother: always trying to change me and isn't happy with who i am
My father: only one who understands me but doesn't want to be apart of my life
my heart is already broken, i'm not sure if anyone can repair it
Make most (if not all) my jewelry
I don't prejudge
I don't have a favorite color
Went over my texting plan by 2500 (on a 5000 plan) =]
Am addicted to sugar
Don't think i'm all that pretty
Never excepted for who I am
I smile, I weep, I sleep
Completely agree with these quotes by Dr. Seuss: =]
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”


TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Jackie
Birthday: 90's baby
Birthplace: Cali
Current Location:
Eye Color: Black (serious, idk how it happened)
Hair Color: Black/brown
Height: 5'3" =D
Right Handed or Left Handed: both =) haha
Your Heritage: mmmm....well that could take awhile
The Shoes You Wore Today: flats =)
Your Weakness: completely ADORABLE guyS, espcially if they can sing/play and instrument
Your Fears: JELLYFISH! D=
Your Perfect Pizza: vegetarian
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: don't fall asleep in class =)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: smiley faces =)
Thoughts First Waking Up: Blehhh
Your Best Physical Feature: mmmm....idk ha
Your Bedtime: don't gots one =)
Your Most Missed Memory: my grandfather
Pepsi or Coke: neither please
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither please =)
Single or Group Dates: i guess both haha
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: mmm....i'm an ice tea addict so BOTH =)
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla please
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee please
Do you Smoke: nope
Do you Swear: haha this shouldn't even be a question =) and the answer would be a YESSIRRY
Do you Sing: sing, scream vocals, you name it =)
Do you Shower Daily: of course!
Have you Been in Love: sadly ya
Do you want to go to College: Yep
Do you want to get Married: someday
Do you belive in yourself: on occasion
Do you get Motion Sickness: Nah =)
Do you think you are Attractive: eh
Are you a Health Freak: i can be
Do you get along with your Parents: ......haha, well...depends on the day i guess
Do you like Thunderstorms: yessirry
Do you play an Instrument: mhmmm. 2 actually =)
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: nope =)
In the past month have you Smoked: second hand
In the past month have you been on Drugs: pain killers? they were perscribed tho so...
In the past month have you gone on a Date: well idk if that really counted haha
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: OF COURSE!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: EW no (they have animal in em)
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no! poor fishies
In the past month have you been on Stage: well...hahaha...ya
In the past month have you been Dumped: nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: i guess not lol
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
Ever been Drunk: blehh no
Ever been called a Tease: yep haha
Ever been Beaten up: by dodgeballs haha
Ever Shoplifted: i don't think so
How do you want to Die: in peace
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Photographer
What country would you most like to Visit: Spain =D
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Brown or Blue please =)
Favourite Hair Color: doesn't really matter
Short or Long Hair: depends
Height: taller than me so 5'4"+ (that shouldn't be too hard)
Weight: depends on your height =)
Best Clothing Style: i've been know to go for skaters, surfers, and guitar players so whatever their styles is
Number of Drugs I have taken: .....
Number of CDs I own: i can't count that high (haha, i prolly could, just choose not to)
Number of Piercings: 4
Number of Tattoos: zer0 =(
Number of things in my Past I Regret: plenty

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

 
 
September 29

Snow White's Poison Bite- So Cinderella

You say love stories are just for fools
Because this story is cursed by fairy dust
Dead in the end this end was made for you
Fairytales can be so cruel
A happy ending is lost for you

You say love stories are just for fools
Because this story cursed roses with poisonous thorns
Dying to live this life is dead for you
Fairytales can be so cruel
Oh darling glass slippers can break

Love stories are just for fools
Fairytales can be so cruel
A happy ending was made for you

So Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart
'Cause you're so Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart

Slashed, cut, ripped and teard, torn to peaces but no one cares
Slashed, cut, ripped and tared, torn to peaces but no one cares

You've got to find forever to love forever
And never ever say never because love stories can come true
Can come true!
And when ever hearts are broken never evers' for you
Never evers' for you!
So believe in forever and fairytales can come true
Can come true!

Love stories are just for fools
Fairytales can be so cruel
A happy ending is lost
So pull yourself together
Pull yourself together now

'Cause you're so Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart
'Cause you're so Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart

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September 19

Now I Fall

This world trembles at its knees

Your words make the oceans roar

and the earth shake

The stained call out your name for release

The broken beg to become whole once again

You are the light of the world

You are what makes life worth everything

You are what makes my life worth living

But now your light can not reach me

For I am consumed and captured in my darkness

This darkness that seems infinite

This darkness where my demons try to take control

Take over my thoughts

Take over my actions

Take over my being

The one thing that keeps me sane is the thought of You

You're forever searching for me

Taking on everything as I am but in greater number

You fight my battles with me

You shed your blood for the sake of my own

You will never let me loose

You will never let me go

But the choice in winning this battle is all up to me

I just hope I am strong enought

I need Your help

Because the score is not in my favor

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August 10

Black Rose by me

You sit by a stream, roots dug deep in the soil

Enveloped in a cloak of leaves and thorns

Your face never looks upon the world, you're head always turned toward the ground

Water always being wallowed upon you by that merciless stream

Never being allowed to breath

You're too close to that dirt floor

Too close for your own good

Surrounded by none of your kind

Besieged by beauty norm

Their faces held high to the heavens

Yours still shoved to the earth

So different, so unique, so shunned you are

My Black Rose

Rare to see beauty among the pain

Among the thorns

Many draw from the ones around you

Choosing face

Choosing what is accustom

Day after day, moon after moon

Still you by a stream, roots dug deep in the soil

Enveloped in a cloak of leaves and thorns

Patience is your only comfort

The wait is endless

But you still wait

Wait for that day when someone comes along

Comes along

Willing to look past obsticals

Enduring the pain to reach you

Willing to get close to the edge of that stream to finally be able to have you in their hands

To finally take you away

To never let you go

My Black Rose

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August 2

Thank you

I want to say thank you

Thank you for not letting my flaws get in the way

Thank you for always trying every way to get to me

Thank you for always holding me close to you

Thank you for saying I was beautiful, gorgeous, perfect

Thank you for taking my hand when I needed it

Thank you for always being by my side just to talk

Thank you for saying I was the only girl for you

Thank you for saying you couldn't love anyone else

Thank you for accepting all of me

Thank you for that night I saw you with that other girl

Thank you for cheating to me

Thank you for lying to my face

Thank you for making it hard to believe I was beautiful

Thank you for making me cry night after night

Thank you for making me hate the world

Thank you for making me blame myself

Thank you for making my friends worry about my state

Thank you for breaking my heart into a million pieces

Thank you for making it harder to let anyone else in

But thank you

Thank you for making me rebuild myself

Thank you for making me pick back up the pieces

Thank you for making me stronger

Thank you for realizing what true love is and isn't

Thank you for not being the one

 

(We all go through heartbreak, this is what I wrote to help me realize it isn't the end of me)

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July 30

No escape

Silence

Silence is what surrounds me

I open my eyes

I see nothing

Nothing but a veil of black

I stagger to my feet

Still enveloped

There's nothing to do but walk

Step after step my legs take me further

but further to what?

to anywhere?

to nowhere?

What is this place?

Still I walk

The only sound I hear now are my own breathless sighs

The only sight I see is an ocean of darkness

It's endless

It's maddening

What is this place?

I must escape

I must

My walk change into strides which quickly turn to a desperate run

I hear my breathing alter, bigger, heavier

My sight does not change

I am still staring into the face of a black lagoon

Nothing changes

I am still stuck here

Here in this place

Finally I stop by running, I stop my frantic try of escape

All I can do is stay

Stay wrapped in a magician's midnight cloak

My leave is pointless

There is no exit

No exit to this hell that is relentless to keep me here

All I can do now is cry

Cry for the world I once knew

Cry for the people that I will never see now again

Cry for myself

My tears add to the darkness that surrounds me

But the darkness seems to separate

Off in the distance

Is it possible?

A small light

A small glimmer of hope

I run with every ounce of strength I have left

I run with every ounce of myself

My body carries me toward the light

It becomes brighter, brighter, brighter

Finally I will be able to return

Return home

Return to my reality

The light grasps me

It is blinding

But I open my eyes once more

Darkness

Darkness is all I see

Silence surrounds me

There really is no escape for me

No escaping this nightmare

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Le Geñua

I've been good... doing nothing important.. XD. just
college stuff... what about you?

To say the least....we have a problem.

Why not Eggnog? haha, unless you had somethin better
than eggnog...but otherwise! Eggnog wins. haha. :D

Cody!!

Why? :O

taxxa_dead

because he was in school didn't reply your comment
before but now I have no classes xD and celebration *-*

To say the least....we have a problem.

Haha, so true! I'm so sleep deprived....I totally had
my test like step on me...not pleasant. lol....You
should buy me Eggnog. :D You would be the bestest
person ever.

To say the least....we have a problem.

I know!...I'm soo stressed lately...I need to go
like....die...haha. College is kickin my butt...

CJ[Tell me you love me]

ehhhh, computer bordd as helll (:

CJ[Tell me you love me]

soo what are you doingg??

 
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