Age: 15
Location: United States
Joined On: Jul 24, 2009
I'm 15
Am a Christian
Vegetarian
Not typical
Black eyes
Brown/black hair
4 piercings
0 tattoos but planning on getting em soon
I have flaws
My mother: always trying to change me and isn't happy with who i am
My father: only one who understands me but doesn't want to be apart of my life
my heart is already broken, i'm not sure if anyone can repair it
Make most (if not all) my jewelry
I don't prejudge
I don't have a favorite color
Went over my texting plan by 2500 (on a 5000 plan) =]
Am addicted to sugar
Don't think i'm all that pretty
Never excepted for who I am
I smile, I weep, I sleep
Completely agree with these quotes by Dr. Seuss: =]
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.â
âYou know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.â
You say love stories are just for fools
Because this story is cursed by fairy dust
Dead in the end this end was made for you
Fairytales can be so cruel
A happy ending is lost for you
You say love stories are just for fools
Because this story cursed roses with poisonous thorns
Dying to live this life is dead for you
Fairytales can be so cruel
Oh darling glass slippers can break
Love stories are just for fools
Fairytales can be so cruel
A happy ending was made for you
So Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart
'Cause you're so Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart
Slashed, cut, ripped and teard, torn to peaces but no one cares
Slashed, cut, ripped and tared, torn to peaces but no one cares
You've got to find forever to love forever
And never ever say never because love stories can come true
Can come true!
And when ever hearts are broken never evers' for you
Never evers' for you!
So believe in forever and fairytales can come true
Can come true!
Love stories are just for fools
Fairytales can be so cruel
A happy ending is lost
So pull yourself together
Pull yourself together now
'Cause you're so Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart
'Cause you're so Cinderella you've lost yourself in fairytales
Twinkle, twinkle fallingstar pull your self together and don't fall apart
This world trembles at its knees
Your words make the oceans roar
and the earth shake
The stained call out your name for release
The broken beg to become whole once again
You are the light of the world
You are what makes life worth everything
You are what makes my life worth living
But now your light can not reach me
For I am consumed and captured in my darkness
This darkness that seems infinite
This darkness where my demons try to take control
Take over my thoughts
Take over my actions
Take over my being
The one thing that keeps me sane is the thought of You
You're forever searching for me
Taking on everything as I am but in greater number
You fight my battles with me
You shed your blood for the sake of my own
You will never let me loose
You will never let me go
But the choice in winning this battle is all up to me
I just hope I am strong enought
I need Your help
Because the score is not in my favor
You sit by a stream, roots dug deep in the soil
Enveloped in a cloak of leaves and thorns
Your face never looks upon the world, you're head always turned toward the ground
Water always being wallowed upon you by that merciless stream
Never being allowed to breath
You're too close to that dirt floor
Too close for your own good
Surrounded by none of your kind
Besieged by beauty norm
Their faces held high to the heavens
Yours still shoved to the earth
So different, so unique, so shunned you are
My Black Rose
Rare to see beauty among the pain
Among the thorns
Many draw from the ones around you
Choosing face
Choosing what is accustom
Day after day, moon after moon
Still you by a stream, roots dug deep in the soil
Enveloped in a cloak of leaves and thorns
Patience is your only comfort
The wait is endless
But you still wait
Wait for that day when someone comes along
Comes along
Willing to look past obsticals
Enduring the pain to reach you
Willing to get close to the edge of that stream to finally be able to have you in their hands
To finally take you away
To never let you go
My Black Rose
I want to say thank you
Thank you for not letting my flaws get in the way
Thank you for always trying every way to get to me
Thank you for always holding me close to you
Thank you for saying I was beautiful, gorgeous, perfect
Thank you for taking my hand when I needed it
Thank you for always being by my side just to talk
Thank you for saying I was the only girl for you
Thank you for saying you couldn't love anyone else
Thank you for accepting all of me
Thank you for that night I saw you with that other girl
Thank you for cheating to me
Thank you for lying to my face
Thank you for making it hard to believe I was beautiful
Thank you for making me cry night after night
Thank you for making me hate the world
Thank you for making me blame myself
Thank you for making my friends worry about my state
Thank you for breaking my heart into a million pieces
Thank you for making it harder to let anyone else in
But thank you
Thank you for making me rebuild myself
Thank you for making me pick back up the pieces
Thank you for making me stronger
Thank you for realizing what true love is and isn't
Thank you for not being the one
(We all go through heartbreak, this is what I wrote to help me realize it isn't the end of me)
Silence
Silence is what surrounds me
I open my eyes
I see nothing
Nothing but a veil of black
I stagger to my feet
Still enveloped
There's nothing to do but walk
Step after step my legs take me further
but further to what?
to anywhere?
to nowhere?
What is this place?
Still I walk
The only sound I hear now are my own breathless sighs
The only sight I see is an ocean of darkness
It's endless
It's maddening
What is this place?
I must escape
I must
My walk change into strides which quickly turn to a desperate run
I hear my breathing alter, bigger, heavier
My sight does not change
I am still staring into the face of a black lagoon
Nothing changes
I am still stuck here
Here in this place
Finally I stop by running, I stop my frantic try of escape
All I can do is stay
Stay wrapped in a magician's midnight cloak
My leave is pointless
There is no exit
No exit to this hell that is relentless to keep me here
All I can do now is cry
Cry for the world I once knew
Cry for the people that I will never see now again
Cry for myself
My tears add to the darkness that surrounds me
But the darkness seems to separate
Off in the distance
Is it possible?
A small light
A small glimmer of hope
I run with every ounce of strength I have left
I run with every ounce of myself
My body carries me toward the light
It becomes brighter, brighter, brighter
Finally I will be able to return
Return home
Return to my reality
The light grasps me
It is blinding
But I open my eyes once more
Darkness
Darkness is all I see
Silence surrounds me
There really is no escape for me
No escaping this nightmare
Le Geñua
I've been good... doing nothing important.. XD. just
college stuff... what about you?
posted 5 hours ago
To say the least....we have a problem.
Why not Eggnog? haha, unless you had somethin better
than eggnog...but otherwise! Eggnog wins. haha. :D
posted 6 hours ago
Cody!!
Why? :O
posted 20 hours ago
taxxa_dead
because he was in school didn't reply your comment
before but now I have no classes xD and celebration *-*
posted 21 hours ago
To say the least....we have a problem.
Haha, so true! I'm so sleep deprived....I totally had
my test like step on me...not pleasant. lol....You
should buy me Eggnog. :D You would be the bestest
person ever.
posted Yesterday
To say the least....we have a problem.
I know!...I'm soo stressed lately...I need to go
like....die...haha. College is kickin my butt...
posted Yesterday
CJ[Tell me you love me]
ehhhh, computer bordd as helll (:
posted 2 days ago
CJ[Tell me you love me]
soo what are you doingg??
posted 2 days ago