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IF GIVEN AN ULTIMATUM?...
Dreams...
As the darkness arises in my mind...
I fall asleep
and I dream...
I dream of the past
when things were better,
when things were hopeful,
when I loved life,
wishing I could go back...
but I can't,
so my subconscious takes me there...
I dream of the future,
but instead of things getting better...
I dream they get worse.
I dream I am alone.
My dreams are so vived,
so colorful,
so real,
so full of life,
so meaningful,
even more real to me then reality.
Although sometimes...
I dream of nothing...
That I have nothing.
That I want nothing,
that there is nothing,
that everyone thinks I'm nothing,
that life is nothing,
that hope is nothing,
that love is nothing...
That I am nothing...
Am I nothing?...
Am I only a dream,
Or am I only something in my dreams?
Are my dreams my reality?
Or is my reality a dream?
I'd rather just sleep,
and dream.
My dreams hide my painful reality,
even though my dreams can be painful themselves,
they never compare to life.
A life of tears,
of dreams.
Dreams of death,
Dreams of loss,
dreams of falling,
dreams of heartache,
dreams of reality...
I dream of reality,
wondering when a normal life will arrive.
Is normal impossible?
Is reality abnormal?
Am I abnormal?
Is everyone abnormal?...
Abnormal...I dream...
Of awaking,
of being alive...
for once,
finally,
finally awaking from this dream,
my eternal sleep interrupted...
and happiness awaiting me there...
only in my dreams......
Used...
I'm feeling used.
Am I being used?
I just met him.
I already feel used.
I'm used.
Or should I say reused.
Used over and over.
Same situations.
Same types of people.
Same used feeling.
Over and over again.
Just used used used used used.
I can't put my feelings out there...
because I'll just get used.
I can't dress the way I want to...
Because I'll just get used.
I can't listen to people...
bucause I'll just get used.
I can't be anyone...
because I'll just get used...
over and over again.
I can't live to be anyone...
because I'll just get used...
I can't be around anyone...
because I'll just get used.
I can't talk to anyone...
because I'll just get used...
over and over again...
I can't love anyone...
ever again...
for as long as I exist...
because I don't want to get hurt...
because I can't live through more pain...
because I can't take the suffering...
because I can't trust the words...
because truth is a lie...
because I don't want to get used...
again...
Alone...
Visions
visions of hope....
but not hope
Only terror and fear.
Only lonely and black.
Only empty and gone..
gone to a far away place.
Somewhere sad.
Somewhere dark.
Somewhere lost,
lost in the shadows.
Lost in the thorns....
Alone
Left to die.
Left to think.
Left to hurt....
Alone
Away from life.
Away from love....
Alone
My dreams haunt me.
My sleep heals me.
My life leaves me.
Dreaming I hurt.
Awaking I suffer...
So I dream..
dreams never thought of by man..
dreams that can never be described,
that can never be real,
that awake to sadness...
and loneliness.....
A reality
lost in confusion,
in tears,
in masked smiles...
for happiness torn..
a little at the end.
His hands hold each side....
waiting....
just waiting....
for the chance to pull...
to split it in two...
just to leave me...
to leave me...
leave me....
me.....
Alone
Just a great and dandy week... D.:
How could this week get any worse...I have no idea. I hate the fact that I'm so numb to everything. There is some stuff going on with my family right now, that if I was a person that got even the least bit depressed and crazy, I probably would have slit my wrists by now. I should be going insane because it is an intensely insane situation...but i can't...Im too normal. Then, to add to that, I'm going through my second break-up in the past two months. The last time I had a boyfriend that lasted more than a month was 3 years ago...this is really aggrevating. So I'm lonely...plus I'm a normal person surrounded by a bunch of crazy freakin' people (my family). Am I going to be the only person in my family to live a somewhat normal life? I really need to get out of this stuff. I shouldn't be having to live with their problems, I should be depressed about regular teenager stuff. I guess that's why stuff doesn't really affect me anymore. but yet, that's depressing in itself...ok...now i sound emo...great...
my first...on this site at least....
Hey everyone...I usually just put poetry or something in these things, but i decided that I could use this to do a formal introduction.. My name is Jade. I live in St. Martinville LA. I'm going to LSU next year. I love music, but the music that I usually like is hardly ever on the radio. I seem like I would be a happy preppy artificial something, but my friends call me the weird one. I guess that I'm just a little deep for my exterior...lol. Well, I'm here mainly for music, but I'm open to making friends who probably know a lot more about music then I do. Leave me comments, send me messages, be A FreakiN FrienD!!!! Latuh hunnies!!!
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