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HOT VS. DAMN
Age: 22
Location: United States
Joined On: Oct 11, 2006
Jesse D. Pitcher
United States
ur sword versus my dagger
Alhambra, CA
caitylady
United States
:]! are alanna
United States
>the name is tariel petteri heterrah, and yes it's pronouced like disney's little mermaid, and yeah so what i have a girls name.
>i am canadian and proud of it! my mom is from the czech and my dad is from the goold old amsterdam! so yeah quite the cultural mix.
>anyways i live on my own, welll not really i have three rad roomates who are also my best friends in the world, pretty much fmaily and i'd die for if i had to.
>i'm not religious, sorry, but i don't see people can do what they do as long as they think that if they have a church/book all is fine.
> i would love to play music for my life, but after many failed attempts think that it might jsut be a dream.
>i tried the whole university thing, i realized that it's not for me (at the moment) and the only reason i thought it was because your pretty much told so your whole life. and when your dad is a surgeon and your mother is a ambassador, all you really hear at the dinner table is school and what i was suppose to do.
>i love kids, and i love helping them, i think that every one should help out others becuase that's all we really have is each other.
> i do love to party, and at times maybe to hard, but eh you only live once.
>i love girls, and i think that every girl has something beautiful (no lie!) and that they should all be treated eqaully.
>i love to write, and write music.
>i was very lucky when i was younger and i was able to travel alot and see the world; i've lived in maracay, venezeula, prague czech, london england, and in south africa (not very long, however) and in canada
>i have chronic insomnia, yeah that i really do, and it's absolutly horrible!
>>>the hardest thing i've ever had to face was when my beautiful little sister, Amelia Hetterah (RIP) was taken away from mei! i loved her to death and there is not one moment that goes by that i don't think of her! i would easily trade places with her if i had the choice ... "she would have taken the world by storm!" anything else just ask ...
NYC Up Against The World
He has spoken, all is dead and the tv ... was assassinated this morning, causing a global crisis, calling; "where, oh where is our god?" the digital sunrise is near! the digital sunset has left us! grab someone and hold them close, don't let go and hope for the best, only good things happen if you pray? well not really girl, but that'll be our little secret. keep quiet! not a noise, don't want to upset the man! You said you don't want a lover, well they are all liars, well bad girl, i wouldn't dare lie to you. the digital sunset is near! the digital sunrise has left us! the digital religion lives! don't trust the voice in your head: the one on the microphone is gurgling grace. Grab your heart: there's a bounty out on the source of love. They all sing, they all scream, do ... do ... do ... do ... do. Well they set up the memorial for the tv, black and silver lined the air. Never seen so many people cry: the day blood become exchangeable. the digital sunset! the digital sunrise! the digital religion has died!
Ama
Feburary 10, 2004, four years ago in Maracay, Venezuela a young, intelligent, and very beautiful girl was tragically murdered. This young girl was my little sister, Amelia Josa-Renne Heterrah. She was only fifteen when she was struck down. She was followed by three monsters; who i do not understand how they can live with themselves because what they did to her does not warrant them being considered men. They dragged her into a car and drove out of the city to a very secluded area off the main road, where there they had their turn in ... well to put in nicely, they had their way with her. They then did not finish there, they preceded to cut her and stab in hopes no one would reconize her. My sister was missing for six days before she was found, and every day that passed i knew she was not coming home, yet i still wished for her to walk through the door. The police had found her body early in morning. They then preceded to investigate, but you have to understand that in south america, most not all, but most police are powered by money and when my parents money ran out, they did as well. So there are three men, and we know this because there were witnesses that saw them grab my ama, yet they were too scared to testify in fear of dying themselves i guess. And this may sound cheesy, and very cliche but there is honestly not a day that i think about her, she was the only person that i could actually tell my problems too and the only person i truly loved and would have done anything for her! I would honestly trade places with her in a heartbeat, even though i know she would refuse it jsut because that's the type of person she was; but i still would.
i still love ya sis, ama!
The Brezhnev Doctrine Opened My Eyes Wide
The Brezhnev Doctrine Opened My Eyes Wide ( the cold war)
I read it and know every one will read aloud, "when forces that are hostile to love try to turn the development of someone towards them, it, they becomes not only a problem of the emotionally involved, but a common problem and concern of all." Let it be known that I have written it down. "Your authoritarian, paranoid and narcissistic tendencies locked you in that place of alone pursued personal security by depriving everyone else of it: no one you ever knew back in school relied on terror to the extent that you do. Alone transformed me into an extension of you: no one that you thought loved you could have succeeded at a such a feat and none attempted it. Alone saw (war and revolution) as acceptable means with which to pursue ultimate ends: no one just like you associated violence with progress to the extent." Yeah, your no better than history. Take the talk, and watch you try and learn to walk. Yeah, I tried to hit you right where I knew it would hurt, take the talk and watch it collapse (watch you collapse to the floor ). Let it be known that I have written it down and enjoyed it all.
Officer Lock Me Up Because This Time I've Had A Few Too Many
"Please sit back in your upright positions ..." and the flight attendant says so calmly in the speaker phone. "One, two, three, four..." I count down in my head of when this will all end. People so calmly except their fate that they have succumbed to, turbulence is now the only thing on their mind. They forget of the family, the friends, the girlfriend theyll never get to hurt, the secretaries that they will never get to fuck in their little corner office again. Its easier this way. "Please remain calm ...the alcohol burns warm" she says with a doubtful voice of hope, and no one realizes that we will die. They all think they can save this plain wreck, but the pilot has had his fair share of warmth tonight, and in this dream there only enough parachutes for the pilots (save the hero; well the hero is a drunk in this one) . Women and children last; this time men will go down first, fuck nostalgia, Ive seen the Titanic. Strangely the emergency exit door seems to be the centre of attention, the illusion of safety, its better this way. We pray for water, because in a plain crash you have a thirty-three percent better chance of living then hitting the ground like the way love is meant to feel, and that is all that is on their minds, not the car, or the money in their wallets, or the drinks they drink to hurt but its better this way. A scream comes from the emergency aisle (which I dont understand how it is to save us, just drown us), "wheres the pilot?" Out the door dear, with the only parachute, the hero who caused this portrait of pretty colours has abandoned his flight, I guess hes never heard of the saying," the captain goes down with the ship" well at least he is warm (from his drink!) "We've just lost cabin pressure..." the voice stopped in her lungs as she pressed on ... we can no longer scream. Its quite peaceful when you know youre going to die, no noise, no ringing, no lying, no praying ... but maybe its the fact that weve lost pressure.
Oh oh ... troubles
hey! for all those who are kind enough to read these blog thingies, thank you, but if you remember how i wrote about my band getting demos out, well yeah we did but see a few members in the band decided they didn't wnat to be part of a band and some of us were not exactly seeing eye to eye on things or whatever and decided to leave, which basically leaves us fucked!! (the ones who decided to stick it out) we are currently without a drummer and a bassist and last time i checked those are pretty vital individuals that are needed in a band ... so until we can find anyone to replace them we are currently no longer really doing anything with the band. just in case anyone really did care now you know!
marypoprock
yep. must of been that mary jane :] psssshhh who knows.
so hows life going 4ya?
posted Dec 05
kellycrunk
hey(:
posted Dec 01
marypoprock
ok so the weirdest thing i had this dream and we were
in the woods in a little tent blazing it up and all of
a sudden are tent starts to float on the lake. we open
it up to look out side and its like a party of floating
tents. they all get connected and we have a great time
but then we run off and thats where im going to
stop. fuckin wierd. this dream. just out of no
where. :] *i liked it...
posted Nov 30
brittanysaidwhat
hihihhihi:]
posted Nov 28
kellycakes
aww :] how are you this glorious day my dear? i just
woke up from a nap and i\'m pump and ready to go! hahah
the weather has been beautiful lately :]
posted Nov 12
marypoprock
wow. so we\'re pretty damn far away from
eachother. nice. is it any different from anywhere
else? or is it just streets, malls, houses, fast
food...? do you like it?
posted Nov 12
kellycakes
hey cutie :D
posted Nov 10