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.:HEATHERHEROINE13:.
It don't matter where you've been
Just focus on where you're going
Most people you think are friends
Ain't there when the tough gets going
Remember to keep your friends
Be wise with those you've chosen
'Cause only your closest friends
Are there when the going gets tough
.:I DGAF about yours or anyones drama:.
.:Dont bring your bullshit round me:.
.:All I need in life is family && friends [[which the people i claim as friends are family]]:.
.:Whats mine is theirs && whats theirs is mine:.
.:I'll do anything for them && if you fuck with them you fuck with me:.
.:Im chill, laid back, drama free [[inlike most girls these days]]:.
.:I Love to party && go out && have fun [[drugs too]]:.
.:But I aint stupid about it [[still no regrets or fuck ups]]:.
.:Im also quite CRAZY && random [[a problem i dont mind having]]:.
.:Music=My life:.
.:I am who I am && wont change that for anyone:.
.:So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you♥♥:.
.:I Love Tomas with all my heart && nothing nor anyone is ever going to tear us apart Not even these next few months[[can't see him because of my dad, but we aint broken up]]:.
.:I Love You Baby:.
.:If you want to chat IM me, Email me,Or Call me if you have the numbers:.
.:AIM:.
rxcdinosawrr
.:MSN:.
angel3191@msn.com
.:Myspace:.
hxcgangster1368
GHJFH
WHY DO PARENTS HAVE TO SUCK SO MUCH
Keeping me from seeing the man i love
Its so hard 5 months w/o seeing him
I can't do this
It hurts, its hard, && fucking makes me crazy insane-o && makes me fight back tears
All we see to do is fiight, &&
well on top of that Tommy DIDNT get the chance to get to know me better
&& he doesnt trust me [[as well]]
its hard to go out with my boys or out to party
B/c he doesnt trust me or them
&& well im not going to fucking stay home
im still going out
cause i know i wont fuck up && i trust my boys
but it pisses tommy off && hes a dick towards me
&& then we fight
&& we fucking hate it
but it still happens
I love him to fucking death hes my fucking world && thats why i put up with it
I hate being controlled, being told who i can and cant hang outg with, what i can && cant do
I dont deal with controlling guys
Im not going to change who I am or what i do for anyone
I miight chill out but no!! I am who I am && im not going to change
&& tommy is kind of controlling
maybe its cause he donest know my friend s&& doesnt know me all that well
but im still with him [[wont change that]] && i deal with it
im trying to show him i can go out && have fun doing ehatever && that nothing bad is going to happen
im not going to fuck up
its all way to fucking hard to deal with........
so you guys were riight but i can change this,
I love tommy && im going to do anything to make sure we stay together
&& try to keep him happy at the same time!!!
it'd all be easier if we actually could hang out
but its not like that, this is a challenge && im up for it
ahhhhh
IDK what im going to do yet
I love you Tommy baby
pyschotic mind
This weird crazy
psycho mind
of mine
Crying all the time
And I cant find
Myself
Im blind
I cant unwind
Cant stay inside
Too much clutter
To divide
No room
For seclusion
To have alone time
Too afraid
To be within
My own life
Cant go outside
with bugs that bite
Run to my car
To hide
And drive
Till these feelings
Start to subside
With no noise
And no lights
But Im afraid
Of the dark
The only sound
Is the beating
Of my heart
As it rapidly pounds
And my breath
Hyperventilating
From concentrating
On everything
Being frightening
Including my family
I feel so confused
And abused
By my own attitude
Is there a way
To somehow dilute
The internal dispute
Its just this life
Without a high
Except for a
Manic bi-polar night
I cant cope
When my own
family cries
Its just not right
To feel this fright
Is it fright?
Is it day?
Is it night
Whats the difference
Between wrong
And right
To take flight
But Im still
Polite
despite
My negative light
Going out tonight
To find refuge
At a friends
But thats the end
For I tend
To bend
Cant remember when
I had a friend
Who understands
My messed up head
Maybe better off dead
But I have to survive
Staying alive
I try and I try
By and by
On this up and down
Chaotic ride
Truth without lies
I still have pride
And nothing to hide
Except for my eyes
As they cry
Im psychotic inside
I wrote this while I was fucked up
crazy how you think things && what you think
Im really not that chaotic of crazy [[reality]]
but in my own world i guess this is one way of seeing things
crazy huh
Summer
Its amazing how ones life can change
either over a period of time or all most instantly
1 minute im growing up in Indiana in the ghetto
never knowing if I was going to have food on the table that night
&& doing drugs moving from place to place
the next im here in AZ in a nice house && with food on my table.
at the begining of the school year I made quite a lot of friends, different ones from what I was used to hanging out with XXX [[staright edge]] kids
we had fun, but it was all to weird && different for me
Even my 1st BF here wasn't like what I was used to dating
but if i moved here for a fresh start why not try new things
I tried to become someone different to fit in with everyone here && please my rents
through out the school year I found i was unhappy && bored w/ my friends
Then i started meeting new friends, more like me
it started w/ bradley[[big friend]] && then tyler && dalton &&cece && ryan && steve && Katies and sarah && cheri and allan and so on
I tried a few more BF's but still no luck
Ah I started to become me again....
I started not giving a fuck what People thought of me or how dressed
I did my own thing when i wanted
I started working at sonic [[which I loved]]
My old self was coming back..... : ]
&& now I am me
Having a blast, not giving a fuck, doing my thing
I also met Tommy Belarde [[BF who seems to fit me]]
I actually think things miight work out between us really
he miight be a keeper
But life has changed alot for me
but I've realized one important thing
no matter where life takes you, NEVER forget who you are
&& DONT change for anyone but yourself
My summer so far is going great
spending lots of time with all my friends
having a blast not giving a fuck doing my thing
in 7 months im offically no longer a kid so im enjoying the last summer of my adolescent years
come january im moving out into the world
im going to make memories that'l last a life time && then some
FUC* YOU GUYS
FUCK ALL OF YOU and you know who you are
Im sick of your lies your bull shit doing shit behind my back.....
im sick of you guys taking everything out on me
for blaming me for your damn problems
Im sick of you always bringing drama into my life
I dont need it
Im sick of you pretending to care about me when you dont give a fuck
Im sick of you not being able to say shit to my face
IF YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME TELL ME BITCH
or keep your fucking mouth shut
just because your life sucks doesn't mean you have to take it out on me && my friends
&& make our lifes miserable to
FUCK OFF YOU WHINY LIL BITCHES
im done with all of you!!!
Have a nice fucking life I know I will without you guys in it
ISS
So i got ISS
DEF BOLOGNA!!!!!
But its all good because Keri && Tony are in it too
&&anyone who got swept for being late to class!!!!
But Oh My Goodness what fun times!!!
Name: Heather Bain
Year in school: 11th
Position: Doggy Style, Missionary, 69,
Ahhh us Silly Girls
It was talking about baseball lol!!!!
I love Keri && I
we're uh-maz-eeng-ly great
We wrote each other crazy notes && sung songs lol
&& get yelledd at for talking && I got moved a zigazamillion times!!!!
Great Times && im sure we'll have more tomorrow
Ahhh but today still sucked && i still hate having ISS BS
But its the weekend as of tomorrow!!!
hooRAY!!!!
Peace Ninjaz
_angelofhell
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posted Aug 06
_angelofhell
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posted Aug 06
djwork
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posted Jul 25
x-xNIGHTtimeDREAMERx-x
oh u no it\'s great with all these partees and stuff,
summers been a blast i just wish it wouldn\'t end :\'(
hbu ???
posted Jul 16
x-xNIGHTtimeDREAMERx-x
don\'t worry i will :P
posted Jul 15
xdearxjenniferx17x
would yah recommend that place to eat? lol that is very
true. an who says money can\'t buy happiness? hahaha it
sure is hott! i just can\'t wait until it starts
raining...an yah can tan at not cost. well talk to yah
later.
posted Jul 02
Sean[deceased_disease]
thats kool
posted Jun 26
xdearxjenniferx17x
i am doing somewhat ok..summer is great but it could be
ten times better. work suxs like always..but i need the
money so i don\'t want to quit..other that...
posted Jun 26