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myself and I, we've got some straightening out to do.

So after much much much thought and I guess soul searching, you could say, I've come to the realization, that I need to change certain things. I'm sick of not feeling content with my life, feeling like I'm not really achieving anything. I'm sick of feeling like people take me for granted.
The one reason the ying yang plays such an important part in my life is because I feel that if your life is balanced, then you can be happy. Somehow though, maybe in the past few months, or right around the time when this semester started, things started to get out of wack. That balance I once had in my life was slowly beginning to become unrecognizable. In an effort to put things back in order, I'm going to try, as hard as I can, to stick by these new guidelines.
I hate being so tired all the time, so I'm going to try to stop sleeping during the day so I'll be tired earlier at night and get a better sleep. My insomnia hasn't come back in a long time, so I'm pretty sure I won't have trouble sleeping. It's just that I don't get tired enough to where it forces me to go to bed earlier. I did it yesterday, and whoo was that tough. I was falling asleep by nine, but I accidentally fell asleep for like 20 minutes, but I was still tired and I went to bed at 11:30. I also read that people are tired on Mondays because they sleep late on the weekends and it kinda throws your body off, so I'm going to try to start waking up earlier on the weekends, maybe like around 8. Cause there's no way I'm getting up at 7 on a Saturday or Sunday.
The other thing was that since I had such an early class and for the life of me couldn't seem to get my lazy butt out of bed at 6:30, I stopped eating breakfast. Most of the time I would forget money so I could buy something at school, so I'd end up hungry until I got home around 12 or 1. So hopefully the sleeping earlier thing will help me get up earlier so I can actually eat a good breakfast. The other thing that ties into this, is my whole gaining weight thing. I've been trying for I don't know how long, and it's nothing to do with appearance, I just hate that it's unhealthy. And yes, I'm extrememly health conscious. I don't know how it got this way, but I'm always thinking about what I'm going to eat and how it's not all that good for me and stuff. I read you should increase the amount of calories you eat by 300. So lately, I've been counting calories, it's a drag, but it really does help to know how much I'm eating. If I'm going to gain weight though, I need to excercise, which means it's back to working out. Not that I mind, I just stopped doing it....again. haha
The last thing, is that I seriously had to reprioritize. I've been slacking it off in school and even though my midterm grades were good, I know that the work I did was last minute, and I hate when that ends up happening. So, I'm going to try as hard as humanly possible, to do my homework in a reasonable amount of time. I hate doing essays the day before they're due even though I can still pull off an A. I think I just need more focuse. I really really really want to try for a 4.0 this semester and I'm only worried about math and my biology lab, but I'm pretty sure I can get A's for both. Hopefully. haha I'm also going to try to not to put so much emphasis on guys and stuff cause that seems to be what keeps getting me in trouble.... But if a nice guy does come along and what not, then I guess I'll just have to make time, won't I?
Now I just gotta go register for the fall :] I have my schedule all ready and I'm pretty happy with it. I'll be at school till 3 but at least I'll go in a little later and maybe this will help the whole sleep and breakfast thing. So there you have it. I just felt it was time to actually do something because I feel like I have no purpose, so this at least gives me something to work for.

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