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asdfmarie;;
United States
Miss T!bby
United Kingdom
=( Mortal Treason and Zao Fan =)
Loveland, CO
drimmerboy05
United States
{5.3 and a half!} I am blonde
----------->>[[ but bright ]]
I am athletic
( running is my drug ) I am a Christian
----------->> || let my life prove it ||
&& I am owned by Luke Mathis :]
xX therefore I am NOT single Xx
What happens when someone embraces such values?
they live out the logic of their faith in countless ways.
Perhaps most commonly may women feel an abiding,
low grade anxiety about their appearance.
It might manifest as subtly as spending an unnecessary
extra couple of minutes in front of the mirror trying
to fix what is unacceptable...or stewing internally in regrets and "if onlys."
Mental or actual tinkering with appearance can
chew up amazing amounts of time and engery.
Or perhaps upon walking into the fellowship hall after church,
a woman is instantly aware of what every other woman is wearing,
and has sized up how she compares.
Her very gaze at other people is conditioned to a
status hierarchy defined by images of beauty,
and thus to the attendant jealousy, self-loathing,
competitiveness, inferiority/superiority comparisons, and the like.
Perhaps she obsessively pursues alterations in her appearance:
hair, color, weight loss, new clothing, makeup, cosmetic operations.
Perhap she slides into an "eating disorder."
Perhaps she plunges into despair and gives up,
gaining 100 pounds, becoming unkempt, "uglifying" herself.
"i'm a failure" simply registers a different manifestation
of devotion to the lie.
All such preoccupations rob her of the joy
and freedom of faith in Christ the Lord,
and sap energies that might be
spent in loving concern for others.
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-David Powlison
For the Unbelievers
.:SIN:.
It's the chain around your neck that spirals down to our feet.
It keeps you from repentance and stares blankly into your eyes.
It's the taunt of your past and leads you to know what you have become.
Each chain link displays a time when you failed and stained your story.
Any show of emotion tightens the chain,
leaving you regrets,
that supposedly expired long ago.
The more you ponder on your doings,
the chain will melt and tattoo your skin.
Ignorance adds more links to the chain.
The next thing you know is you are short of breath.
Attempting to brake the chain results in cuts
so deep the blood is intimidated to flow.
The healing process is slow,
leaving scars.
Left in this position,
one that cannot be denied,
leaves you hopeless,
thinking there is no way out.
the impossible has been achieved
wow. I have a boyfriend. It's so akward, but yet so inviting. He always puts a smile on my face. I must say God works in mysterious ways. =]]
ps. Luke ♥
the pressure. i hate it.
seeing the ways people go about their day makes me feel pressured to become what I have always wanted. no matter what the cost. Even if it consists of harming myself. not by sharp objects. But sharp pain of absence of nutrients that feed the mind with positive thoughts. I am giving up. all I have had in the past. to return to what I was here to do. GOOD BYE [[me]]
this one is a winner. according to poetry.com
the last school i went to we had to create somesort of art that reflects RISK. so here it is. it's [[ untitled ]]
There comes a point in time
Where all doubt controls our mind
Where choices to make arent in our hands
But in the hands fear and fate.
The integrity of life
Guides the motion to survival
Sacrifice or security places a gamble for all
And the benefits boggle the doubt
That is roared by intimidation of fame.
Thre's a boundary that we we all dare to cross
Of confidence to move mountains and
Strength to save lives
The line keeps the adrenaline flowing
Like the blodd rushing heavily through veins
There's a valley we all fall into
Of hopelessness that questions our ability
And creates a sense of failure through our heads.
It's the thought of accomplishment
That lifts us high above the risks.
Biggie* [[venting]]
I guess you could say I am in a state of mind where everything has no purpose and happy endings dont exist. Its a view that transforms the meaning of life and reiterates how superficial we have become. there's more than the examination of the outside appearance, the first impression you could say. The truth is the keyhole && the lies are the keys. Take a shot of unlocking it. Its impossible. You squint hard to try to understand what lies in front of you and what is in my hand. What i see now is my image incomplete. My body distorted and my predestination is hanging on a limb. I have lost my touch of excellence and my keen sight of beauty. All i see is dark circles and drops of blood on the sidelines. It's like a virus that has no cure. Only time and support can give the slightest piece of encouragement to continue. Its sounds tragic. Maybe one bit depressing. But it's a developement process of the mind. To strengthen our paths of deception. I hope I dont stay like this forever, living in the darkside that is. Always hiding under a fake smile. One that taunts hope of becoming what I've always dreamt of. I attempt to show affection, maybe love is what you could call it but because of this "disease" hatred is exposed and denial is submitted. Scolding is my favorite past time and harsh criticism is my hobbie. Not on others, but my self. Always feeling as if myself is not enough, not good enough to shine. Or if i should just be banished from society as a symbol of protection. Because of the perspective I am living in, you will ignore my view. Its just a matter of time til you will be in my shoes. When that day comes I will laugh in your face. Say the world is coming to an end, and place a brutal smerk on my face.
Alexis Cammiliar
thanks
posted Mar 29
sensitiveXDandroid
cool,cool. yeah im pretty tierd. u wanna IM me? my sn
is xcorecutiexxx.
posted Mar 24
Alexis Cammiliar
Luv the new pix (as usual)...
posted Mar 24
Xidis777
well, im finally on spring break, but im really sick.
so i guess that sucks! lol (cough!)
posted Mar 24
sensitiveXDandroid
Heyy! we havnt talked in FOREVER! how u been?
posted Mar 21
Alexis Cammiliar
Hey...thanks for te comments...ya...I was gunna wear a
green dress with black lacing around the waist area,
but it ended up bein too small for me...(I like to
eat...*LOL* jk) so I wore that dress...ya...I had fun
at my birthday party...a couple of kids wanted to come
but couldn\'t...I found that out recently...so ya...i
did figure out who my true friends are. But at least
now I know who they are....and they\'re the ones I
thought of as true friends all along...well, g2g
now...l8r... ~Allison~
posted Mar 21
Alexis Cammiliar
ok...so what happened on my birthday is that I went to
prom first and danced till a lil after 11:00 that
night, when it ended. Then, I had a sleepover with two
of my friends. Then, the next morning, one of my other
friends came over and we talked, laughed, ate
choccolate with fruit, had a shaving creme fight, ate
cake and ice cream, and filled balloons with shaving
creme and blew them up the rest of the way and the
person that popped their balloon and got the messiest
won. But the only thing is, there were about 30 ppl
invited and only 3 showed up...but at least I know who
my BEST friends are now...o...and I learned that all my
life I thought I couldn\'t dance to fast songs, but on
friday night, I found out that I CAN dance! How cool
is that? *LOL*
posted Mar 20
Xidis777
its been awhile, whats up?
posted Mar 18