does God hate me
Posted December 30, 2006
does God hate me? i want to know this right now. i dont understand why Bear and Sparky had to die. Sparky got put down last night at 8:30 and i will never be the same again. i will never be able to go to my other home and hear that bark as i walk into the door, or to just tell him that i love him. it all seems a horible dream. but i dont, cant wake up. Never again will he follow me around the house looking for Jeremy or Stacy. After all those stupid parties that he had gone through, all the nights that he almost bit Papa John, because he took his spot next to mom. Almost no one of our friends came and said goodbye to him, Fuzzy did, she didnt even know him that much, and she still came and took Stacy back home to Sparky. Leann, Samarah, Steve nor Megan came and said goodbye. They said they were such good friends with us, then why didnt they come and say goodby???????? Yeah, that sounds like such a good friendship to me. Dont you think that they would at least come be with the family? Nope, didnt do anything to help. Mom, Papa John, Jeremy, and I were telling each other stories of Sparky and looking back on the good past, not the bad. Worst of all, Papa John painted a dog statue of Sparky right outside the house, when I left today, all i did was sit there and cry and talk next to the statue. I was telling him that he caused a lot of pain for him and us, for such a quick leaving! I thought of all the good times that we had.and i just want him to know that I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH AND IT WILL NEVER CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MATTER WHAT. mom was saying that this was the first time in 18 years that she never had a dog in the house. and i feel for her so much. I LOVE YOU MOM, SPARKY, BEAR AND MOST OF ALL CAESAR!!!!!!!! i love you guys so freakin much.
