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GET WITH THE EMO
Age: 20
Location: atx
Joined On: Nov 26, 2004
Occupation: hoochiemomma
hellahello.
I'd like to someday love this many people.
Not scared, just stupid.
Innocence.
Immaturity.
Sweet sweet ignorance.
Spit them out in my face like I am just a little child.
I know how to say them, spell them, and what they mean.
Am I just supposed to give up everything for you, some guy I just reunited with a week ago.
I don't think so boy.
Kiss and tell, I live by it.
You were fun, great fun. Good, experienced careful.
I didn't want to go any furthur, and you wanted to go all the way.
No was the most mature thing I could possibly say.
Giving in would be childish, I left you now to wonder, what if?
You'll never know. Live and die with it on your tounge.
I don't give it up for guys like you.
Low lifes, looking for fun in all the wrong places.
Next time, just so you know, it's in my eyes. Not my pants.
If your going to feel around, feel for my heart, not my tits.
I know it is confusing for boys like you.
That is why I'm helping you out.
Just this once.
You wont get past me again.
My guard is up.
You've been warned.
Confession.
I just picture this, every time.
You on one side, and me on the other.
We both will be silent, because we already know our sins.
Everyone else, though, will never suspect us of them.
We'll disapear underneith their noses, they'll only remember us like a week old papercut.
It hurts, but only when you notice it's there still.
So here is my last sin to confess outloud.
I still pretend it never happened.
How to say I'm sorry.
Today, this beautiful morning, I am supposed to crawl on my knees for your forgiveness. It will kill me in every way possible. I'll stumble over a, e, i, o, u's like nobodies business. Anyone can say they are sorry and not mean it. But I have to mean it this time.I'll bite my tounge until it bleeds and when I'm done completely with stabbing you with the truth, I'll walk home on this beautiful morning. Back to the lie I call my life. All I can say, I shouldn't say. It will kill us both. On our graves it will say, "It would be better to have never loved at all." That is the truth. I wanted you so no one else could have you. And now she has you. All of you. A claim I could never boast. Some blaim rests on you. Love and hate should never be combined. If you do mix the two, you'll find me and you together, while the rest of the world lies in chaos. Come on, would it really be so bad?
Your getting the truth in the pretty package that is me. You'll go to heaven and I'll be left to live out this lie. That is worse than any fate I could ever imagine.
I got lost.
Somewhere between now and then.
There is something in the air these days that leads me to believe I'm not lost. I'm hopeful. I'm optimistic for the future. I'm just waiting. For him, for you. For everything and everyone to fall in place. Suppose I'd let it all before. I kept things from easing their way in. And now I have nothing to show for all the hard work we did. Well, I do have a broken heart. No one knows though. I don't show it. Not to him, and not to Brad. Hell no, I'd never let the one who broke it know he broke it. Suppose we'd ever fell in love. Where would I be? Happier, together? I don't know, but I do know I'm giving this new boy a chance, a chance to seep in, a chance to change, and a chance to break. Whatever happens, happens and I'm willing to break for a chance at living. It should be worth it. Wish me luck.
Oh
The breaths were only a clock counting down the hours. You'll wake only thinking of him. He'll wake only thinking of her. You'll wash up, like the ocean in the morning.
Oh to stay up late and be with you.
Oh to have a heart.
Oh to watch the sun come up over the city lights.
Oh to you. The only one to take without giving.
I really only want a relationship that kills me to stay and kills me to be without. I want anger and fights. I want fists pounding on doors and tables. I want tears filled with meaning, not filled with dreams. It's such a waste or dreaming.
I don't want you to miss me. I want you to despise the little stupid things I do, like whine, bitch, tap my fingers to the beat of the music on the radio, and pick at my lips when I want to kiss you.
Don't, for heavens sake, miss me.
I wrote this down with intention not to read it over so if the mistakes are written in bold and caps pay no attention, and now whats left of me is given to a lady who tells me when to breath, when to stand and when to sit, when to smile, and when to leave.
etatx
hey i live in austin!! so were practically neighbors!!
posted Feb 23
Gabbie.Barker
Heyyy, I found you on my list, so I thought I\'d drop
bye and say heyy. Have a wonderful day gorgeous.
posted Jan 03
emokidstyxz
Hey there! How have you been? I\'m doing good I\'m here
at school! I\'m enjoying it! Just trying to stay busy
and it\'s working! Quite well actually!
posted Oct 06
epowell
mmm thats ok... so how are you?? last nite i went and
saw pete murray and the stone masons dan kelly and
the alpha males motor vehicle sundown, at the royal
melbourne show: live at night .. thing-o... dunno if
you know them but they\'re awesome bands from
melbourne... very cool :D but yes HOW ARE YOU??
posted Sep 22
hazel_w_death
Hey how is it going, sorry I havent responed in a while
I have been pretty busy. But anyways just wanted to
catch up on things.ttyl
posted Sep 22
epowell
heey i like your music taste.. and i was gonna say more
but my sister is kicking me off so, talk to you
later.. much love, xxxox lizzy
posted Sep 20
psychspy
hey, the week\'s been pretty busy, hope everything\'s
been going well for you. i went to a
e show recently, and i got to hang out with the
band after the show. they\'re really cool guys with
some really cool music, you should check them out.
http://www.purevolume.com/spencerlane
posted Sep 09