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Awesome Ashley
Raymore, MO
0wakemefromthisdream0
Ringgold, GA
My name is Shawn and I am 19 years old and I go to College. Cincinnati state! I am majoring in the Graphics Imaging Technology. I work at Kroger, I am in the grocery department. I am in love with my girl Leann....we have been together for almost 2 years. I drive a 2002 Ford Escort.......woo!
I graduated from Butler Tech and Talawanda highschool.
RIP Jesse
Dude,
I don't understand why you did it, how you can just throw away your life. When so many people cared about you...
I think your a jerk for how you gave up an didn't even explain to people what was wrong. Suicide man, come on. Thats lame. Now I have to go to your visitation...
Well...where ever your at now, I hope you like the result.
Hey everyone
I definitely haven't written on here in awhile....things in my life are somewhat in overdrive. So....I haven't had time. Lets see, I got my license, I had two girlfriends this summer, both of them broke up with me. Not afraid to admit. I was dumped twice. First time ever too...so it kinda sucked.
I don't know...girlfriends are somewhat overrated. But yea...school....it's alright. Definitely could have gone with a little more summer tho. I think that is why Megan and I didn't workout, we definitely we better during the summer. lol
Oh well....single life won't let me go.
Here is a poem I wrote.
I call it:
AWAKENING
I sat dreaming, on a beautiful September day,
Congratulating myself, on my health and wealth.
Suddenly twisting in agony, I opened my eyes,
And saw destruction and death, drop from the skies.
Fearfully, I looked to other shores,
And saw confusion and fear, etched on a multi-colored canvas of tears.
They look to me, to be strong.
Have my own enjoyed peace and safety, for too long?
I heard tearful voices raised, in song.
With wonder, I turned my gaze closer to home.
I breathed a sigh, I needn''t have worried.
They''d dressed me with pride, in my favorite colors, hung jewels in
places neglected before.
In their faces behind the pain, compassion, anger and determination reign.
I turned my attention back, to far away places,
To show them, I still stood strong.
It was a humbling sight to see,
Those I''d worried so much about,
Were lending their strength to me.
Questions/Answers
Ya know what...a guy is for the most part direct, right? I mean come on...when we want something, guys usually go for it. Thats what the jerks do anyways.
Here is how I do things. I tell the girl that it is always going to be her decision...she is is the one who makes the moves. Cuz I don't want to feel like a jerk and move to fast, and make her feel uncomfortable. There always needs to be more communication. I can tell I am out of the swing of things. I got caught up in the moment. She could have slapped my hand away, or told me or something. Jeez. I don't get ya know shy...and she shouldn't feel afraid or shy when it comes to telling me these things.
If you truly like someone...don't be afraid to ask questions...and the other person should be afraid to give and honest answer. Truth. That is what it should be about. Grrr....I don't know.
I really like Mary a lot...and yea...I haven't been a relationship in like a year...but come on you don't forget the basics. But, it is different with every person. I guess I need to learn that now...then later. I really don't want to screw things up.
Well....lets just hope the next time I see her, she won't feel uncomfortable...I hope I don't either. I think thats another thing I am afraid of. I don't want, now that she has said something...to ya know...make me afraid to touch her. Cuz....honestly, I don't know how to act now. I mean...I'll act fine. But, it's going to be ackward, now that she has said something. I mean....I think it will. I don't want it to. But come on. Who are we kidding here. We all know how this works. When someone tells you to stop something....we all know that it's hard to start up again. Kinda makes it like...should I do this, or will they not like it. It may not be that way for everyone. But I want to be respectful. I don't want people to call me a jerk because I pissed the girl off. I am a nice guy, I don't want to be known like other guys in the past as a jerk. It's not something to be impressed with or anything else for that matter. I have been raised to be respectful, and I am going to keep it that way.
Alright....thats enough ranting.
Summer
Things are going soo good right now...I can't get over how awesome it is. I am getting my license, it's been a long time coming. Also I have a girlfriend. Which is even greater. I really like Mary a lot.
I wanna write so much more...but I can't. Don't know how to put it into words. All I can say is I am good...and I love life right now.
peace.
School/Friends
Well...school is out today. Saying goodbye to people that I won't be seeing for the rest of my life. Times come and good. It sucks how we take things for granted. But I know we can't tell the future...but I wish we could change things.
I don't know...the speculation that things won't change is...I don't good. Wishful thinking.
Pondering:
As he sits and ponders life
The whirl winds circle him
Making dust go in his eyes
Never wanting to leave
Not knowing that he didn't have a choice
The spirits ripping away the soul
He is finished
A new chapter starting
What will his life be now?
Awesome Ashley
Well, i finally got a job so i have been working a lot
and i graduated like 3 weeks ago so i am just mostly
working like all the time.
posted Jun 01
Awesome Ashley
I know i like i have not been on here in a year either,
and yea the site has change lol, so what have you been
up to?
posted May 26
Awesome Ashley
not much either. I have not been on here in like
forever lol.
posted May 22
Awesome Ashley
Hey, what's going on?
posted May 20
Awesome Ashley
HEY!! What\'s up?
posted Jul 01
Awesome Ashley
That sux, sorry it took so long to reply back......i am
kinda slow, lmao!
posted Mar 31
Awesome Ashley
ahhh, are you okay?
posted Mar 27
Awesome Ashley
A film? What kind?
posted Mar 21