my story and sorrow.
Posted November 21, 2007
theres was this nice boy that knew this girl that he thought was nice. that boy fell in love with her... she was an amazing, sweet, smart, caring, and beautiful girl. they knew eachother since they were kids. they had been the best of friends and grew to be more than that. as of age that boy planned to propose to her. there had been so many complications, but the boy was once told that if it was meant to be, then everything would work out. he thought it was meant to be so he thought he would wait it out and give them both time to settle their differences, mature, and learn theres more to life and that they would have to go through many obstacles for love....
another boy found that girl... and that boy fell in love with the same girl. the girl was so confused, she didn't know who she really loved and she had trouble finding it in her heart to decide who was her true love. the nice boy that was first in love with her was also befuddled and needed to ponder. when that boy was having trouble himself, that girl told him, "why is it that the good guys always get screwed over?" and that boy said "well then i must be a great guy because thats all ive gotten is being screwed over" and that girl told him she would never treat him like that. but she didnt realize that she was the one screwing him over, that she was the one he was so torn over.
Soon the other boy that was currently with her had to move. and he asked her to wait for him. and she finally searched her heart and discovered that he was the one she wanted to be with. So she promised to wait for him. They promised eachother they would be together forever and no matter what and then that boy even went to the lengths of buying her an extremely expensive promise ring. he agreed to visit her at least once a month or as much as possible until he would be able to return 7 months later... she cried her heart out for several days until there was nothing left to cry.... and the boy that had been there all along, the one that got screwed over, was by her side the whole time. he was the one who comforted her, he was the one who stayed up all night to listen to her cry.. he realized that she really did love the other guy. and so he decided to give her up. he loved her so much and he really thought he was going to be able to spend the rest of his life with her. he realized that if he was ever going to be happy, he just wanted her to be happy. he loved her more than anything and would trade the universe for her and he did the mature and true thing, he let her go. he just wanted her to be happy even if it meant that he would be hurt. it killed him and he still coped with it.
he realized their love was all lies and that theirs wasnt true.. the girl and the other boy were true.. and now he envies more than anything for that. he still wants to believe that he loves this girl even if it wasnt meant to be.... even if it was meant to be for her and someone else, he still loves her. and he will always love her no matter what. she was his first love, his only love, always and forever. letting go is the most painful thing. and when you are being torn apart and your world has already fallen, its the worst feeling in the world.
The end.
(the story stops here because my life hasnt moved on... it cant move on without first letting go of the past..........)
after reading all of that, wanna guess where i fall in the story???????
yeah im that guy that got screwed over and now im really upset, angry, jealous, envious, sad, and just feeling like an idiot. and im trying to let go of this girl... this amazing girl......
he loves her... and she loves him... i can see that.. im not stupid... and their love is true..
theyre in love with eachother and its a really beautiful thing.
me and her.... well lets just say there was only one of us in love... and i guess u cant call it love if there was only one person in it can u? well i just hope the best for them.. and i really hope one day i can find someone else that willl love me as much i will love her. as for right now, im still in the state of reckless emotions.
