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JANUARY; Well, The colts are going to the SUPERBOWL.. I hope they win. Some more photos will be put up in the future. If any of you want to chat, drop me a line
WHAT THE HELL
Today is a new day
yet the same ol crap keeps rollin.
What am I doing, what am I hear for.
Does anyone even notice
that I am in the room?
I guess I know the answer,
though I do not want to see.
I have no hope, I have no choice.
I dont remember when I fell,
what the HELL.
LOOKING AT MYSELF-- Poem
My bare feet walk on the grass:
Stepping on stones, I hope the pain will pass.
Creeping up to my bed,
I stare at me while I sleep.
I reach down and touch my forehead,
it feels so cold, I begin to weep.
Passing by a mirror,
I stop and look at me.
I stare in fear,
wondering who it is looking back at me.
I notice the mirror image leave
and my soul has lost its sleeve.
The sound of a gunshot fills my ears,
I pull my hands up to cover the noise.
I see the blood bleed from my heart,
dripping to the ground with an echo.
I fall to the ground and clutch my heart
but is has been chained from the start.
I cry out to me as I try to take my life.
Not getting through, I now see me die.
I reach for my hand but it slips by.
I watch myself hit the floor,
my eyes begin to close.
Where i'm going, nobody knows.
I watch my soul get ripped from my heart,
the barbed wired around it is now my home.
I try to break free,
the wire digs into me.
So confined, cannot get out.
This pain is too much to bare.
I watch the preacher say a prayer
as he raises his hands to the sky.
He says "Lord as you take this child"
I turn and look at the ground,
I see a coffin under a shady tree.
I move closer to see, I begin to cry
when I see it is me.
So empty is my spirit
as I watch it fly in confusion.
Not knowing whether to up or down.
Crying it falls to the ground.
I run to help me face my fear,
by the time I reach me, I disappear.
Now I see me in the grave,
the dirt begins to fill the hole.
I try to get out but I am not that strong.
The light I saw has now turned black.
I have watched myself die,
I am never coming back.
Uneventful
I have led an uneventful life but, it is mine to live. I started this page today, give me time to put some crapola on it.
susan2020
HELLO I AM SUSAN IN SEARCH OF A MAN WHO UNDERSTANDS
THE MEANING OF LOVE AS TRUST AND FAITH IN EACH OTHER
RATHER THAN ONE WHO SEES LOVE AS ONLY A WAY OF FUN BUT
A MATURE MAN WITH NICE VISSION OF WHAT THE WORLD IS ALL
ABOUT AND AFTER READING YOUR PROFILE I TOOK INTEREST IN
YOU SO REPLY TO ME WITH THIS EMAIL
susan12_wahid@yahoo.com ..SO THAT I WILL SEND YOU MY
PICTURE AND TELL YOU ALL ABOUT ME .
posted May 18
susan2020
HELLO I AM SUSAN IN SEARCH OF A MAN WHO UNDERSTANDS
THE MEANING OF LOVE AS TRUST AND FAITH IN EACH OTHER
RATHER THAN ONE WHO SEES LOVE AS ONLY A WAY OF FUN BUT
A MATURE MAN WITH NICE VISSION OF WHAT THE WORLD IS ALL
ABOUT AND AFTER READING YOUR PROFILE I TOOK INTEREST IN
YOU SO REPLY TO ME WITH THIS EMAIL
susan12_wahid@yahoo.com ..SO THAT I WILL SEND YOU MY
PICTURE AND TELL YOU ALL ABOUT ME .
posted May 18