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Age: 20
Location: Arrowbear Lake, CA
Joined On: Dec 15, 2005
xKEVINxSBC
Centennial, CO
moelikespokemon
Lakewood Village, TX
Sexy Dude
San Dimas, CA
xXx_iHAD2letITgo_xXx
Bloomington, UT
i'm sick of high school
vegetarian
love art
broken hearted
frustrated
betrayed
shy
film
brainwashed.
youre being brainwashed, and you have no fucking idea. how could you? the one brainwashing you is the one telling you to beware. you'd never expect him. not even when you're thinking like him, talking like him, writing like him. a conspiracy or ignorance, i dont really know.
so what is true slavery? ignorance or enlightenment? we all think we know it all. and that is how we are most ignorant. we're full of bullshit and we're too happy about being full to care that it's BULLSHIT.
mass enlightenment is really just ignorance all over again. we know what we're programmed to know. we think we know better when we read one of the two million printed copied books about steering clear of mass production. clearly we've learned nothing. and we really are trapped. there's nothing that we can do.
insanity is the only escape, however is hardly seems like a welcome rescue when you find yourself mumbling conversations that you're holding with, well, yourself. protesting out loud, everyone stares at you... being ridiculed is freedom. breaking free, is torture.
there is no such thing as insanity, but rather just altered views of reality. you mock the free because they ARE free. they think their own thoughts, they don't believe in government-issued logic. logic is relative. there is no standard, there is no concrete anything. life is what you want it to be. reality is what you decide it is.
maybe it makes you insane to operate this way.
so you have a choice to make:
insanity or slavery?
The Bear [[true story]]
once upon a time i was sitting out in the backyard and i was writing and listening to music... because i do that on occasion. and i stay out for hours... and i philosophize. (if thats a word) because that's what we intellectual writers do :]
anyway one day, (meaning yesterday) i was sitting out and i heard a noise right next to me... and it just kept rustling... so i turned down The Beatles (which was what i was listening to... tats my sitting outside music) and there was a fucking BEAR next to me. a giant brown bear, not even 5 feet away. i could have reached over and pet it, if i wanted to
so i calmly turned back to my paper and pretend it was all cool that there was a giant bear standing right next to me. and i remembered this one tim ei was watching Oprah (k shut up) and this lady on it had been mauled by a bear and her ear had been ripped off... and so i was trying to imagine what being killed by a bear would feel like and i almost started crying because thats sucha shitty way to die... not to mention embarrassing. who dies in their back yard by way of bear??
and i remembered all of those cheesy 90's kids movies where they go on these epic jouneys in unkown forests and then narrowly escape death by a grizzly bear... aonly i wasnt gong to narrowly escape.
but then after like a million years, it walked away
anticlimatic, i know. but still. so then i ate a bowl of cereal.
k the end.
ffk gjfbgv
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
haha
i like my life,
that isnt sarcasm. i like it.
it's random and it's always changing and people come in and go out, and i act a fool. :] but its fun
and i love the people that i know.
i know good people
and no matter what my biological family does or says to me
i dont really care anymore
because being a bum is fun
honestly.
and even if my blood family isnt really my family, anymore that isnt to say i dont have a family
my friends are my family. <33
hahahahahaha
oh god. i disgust myself. i dont even know what the deal is, with me anymore. i just know i feel lonely... and i worry that i sometimes try overcompensating by being tremendously desperate seeming. but im not necesarily desperate for a RELATIONSHIP. im like just desperate for anything. a friend, a family member, anything...
how did i become so needy?
i just throw myself at everyone.
no matter how weird they are
it's a pathetic sight.
ew.
you make me sick.
i try not to hate anyone.
i hate hate.
so i did everything in my power to make things right.
i did everything i could to level the playing field
no enemies
nothing
i dont like hating people
and i dont like being hated
i try justifying hate by saying it's another form of love
it's not
and im done
fuck you.
i hate you. and youre the only person i could ever hate.
im disgusted by your existence
why are you so immature?
and fucking stupid?
why are you so angry?
and why do you think im like this hellbent bitch?
i never did anything
oh well, i cant really say i care anymore
have a nice life, asshole
CAITLYNxchaos.
um so that was the wrong comment! sorry my computer
spazzes out and i dont even know what that link isss,
or who it is! anyway! i'm commenting because i
checked out your style of music and i think you'd
really like this band called FOUR ON THE FLOORBOARDS
they're kickass and they're from new york. checkk em
and head on over to
http://www.purevolume.com/fouronthefloorboards! thankss
posted Jul 02
CAITLYNxchaos.
http://www.purevolume.com/listeners/mcdoogledork
posted Jul 02
^^0ses
hey was up i am moses i was bored so i stop bye to say
hi. =]
posted Aug 27
*Elmo*
UR SOO PERDY. UNLIKE UGLY ME!
posted Aug 24
rach925
hey ur a vegetarian??? so am i =p
posted Aug 18
Sahil M
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posted Aug 02
kathy
hey so hows it been lately?
posted Jul 16
Hurley.Star
ello love!! thanks for the add! hows your weekend.
posted Jul 08