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EMOSKATERLOVER
mishbrookie
United States
emerica is for emos
Smithfield, VA
beforeitwascool
Park, VA
axel550
Garden City, VA
Well pretty much I'm just your typical emo kid. Even thought I don't see where I'm all that emo, but my freinds think I am. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I'm with the best girl ever, Her names Sammi. I have a myspace. http://www.myspace.com/emoskaterlover I have a tagworld. http://www.tagworld.com/emoskaterlover I love to play DDR. I love to talk to my g/f. And that's pretty much about me. Oh yeah Sammi and I have been dating for ten months. Another interesting fact is Sammi and I got together on 06-06-06.
It's just a thought that might happen.
And I need help.
But no one is there to help.
I have so many thoughts going through my mind right now.
So many options, so little time.
How am I suppose to handle everything.
Yea prom is gonna be one fun night, for everyone but me.
Yea prom is gonna be a night no one will soon forget.
Mainly because if my plans go through like they should, then no one will forget it.
It would be 19 days before my 18th birthday.
And 31 before my one year anniversary.
I know it would hurt her, but it would be better for everyone else.
My parents don't care.
So why should I?
They just tell everyone I'm troubled and I fake it.
These scars never go away.
They will always be my memories.
They will never leave me.
I love her to death, but I can't go on anymore.
I know I promised her I wouldn't do anything but I can't handle it.
May 5th will be remembered forever for different reasons.
So oh well I hope everyone has a nice prom.
And to Sammi, I love you but I can't handle everything anymore.
You were my only safety, and now I have nothing to stop me.
I don't mean to hurt you again, but I can't keep going on hurting everyone.
I have no reason to live.
I love you and I want to be with you, but your mom would never allow it.
And I don't want you to get into any more trouble.
I'm sorry and I love you so much.
Just what I needed
Tips on Writing Your Suicide Note
Your suicide note will be the last thing people have to remember you by.
Your relatives, friends, police officers, and others, will read it. In some cases, suicide notes, or parts of them, even get to the media. You might think that suicide notes would be the most carefully crafted documents, however in many cases, they are written carelessly and hastily.
The following tips are provided for people who want to leave a real impression.
Note: if you are not actually committing suicide because you want to die but are just looking to get attention, do not bother reading this. Your note will mean nothing once the doctors are done treating the scratches on your wrists or pumping the 2000mg of Advil out of your stomach. There are better ways of getting attention anyway. I suggest you try one of the many services for people who are only crying for help.
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Tip #1
Start Early.
Getting an early start is important. If you can, start a few days before your suicide. Make sure you're in a clear state of mind. You do not want to try to write your note while waiting for the pills you took to kick in, or have to rush through it before you bleed to death. Giving yourself enough time to write your note will help eliminate the most common mistakes.
Tip #2
Don't try to say everything.
There are probably a lot of things you have on your mind, and you need to take some time and sort them out. Decide what is most important to say and leave out things that don't matter. Decide now what you want your readers to come away with after reading your note. Eliminate those things that distract from that point.
Tip #3
Handwrite your note if you can.
A handwritten note is a lot more personal. However, if you are worried your letter will not be understood, or you are physically not able to write it by hand don't worry about it. The important thing is that you get your message across.
Tip #4
Be natural.
Write the way you would speak. A good suicide note is personal, not formal. Don't get out the thesaurus and look for the biggest words you can find. Be yourself.
Tip #5
Avoid clich's
Filling your note with phrases like "Goodbye cruel world" and "no one understands me" will make your note feel less like your thoughts and more like a form letter. Too many clich's and it can look like you are just going through the motions or that you are leaving a note because you feel that you should, but without having anything to say. If you want to say something but it sounds too clich, try to re-word it a little.
Tip #6
In general, use first person.
It creates a sense of intimacy and makes it easier for a reader to see things from your point of view, if you want to use a different viewpoint, be sure that you stick to it throughout your whole note.
Tip #7
Don't use your note like a will.
You might want your best friend to get your stereo but your suicide note is not the place to express that. If you want to leave certain things to certain people you should setup a will ahead of time. Just because you write it down does not make it legal, and it can be easily dismissed by the claim that you were not of sound mind when you wrote it.
Taking the time to set up a will will also help keep you from giving away your stuff in the months/weeks/days before the suicide. That's one of the most obvious indications that you are thinking about killing yourself and will likly get you "saved", or at least make the process more difficult.
Tip #8
Be Honest.
Your note will be one of the last things you give the world to judge you by. If you include things that others can disprove, it can discount the entire note. Besides, there is not much reason for lying at this point, is there?
Tip #9
Don't reveal your methods.
This is most important when taking poisons and pills. Telling everyone what you took just makes it easier for them to give you the treatments needed to revive you. Alternately, you do not want someone to find the note that details which bridge you're jumping off of before you get that chance to jump. They might be able to stop you. People will find out how you did it once the autopsy reports come in anyway.
Tip #10
Don't say anything you might regret.
There is always a chance that you will be found and "rescued". Suicide notes are not the place to rip into people, give away other's secrets, or confess crimes. The last thing you want is to end up in a hospital bed, facing the people who read something you would never have told them while alive.
Tip #11
Don't try to persuade the reader.
You do not want to spend your time trying to convince the reader that you are right. In most cases nothing you can say will change they way they feel. Your purpose is to express your point of view. It doesn't matter if the reader shares your point of view or not, only that they understand it.
Tip #12
Proofread your note.
Re-read your note at least twice. It's easy to make a simple mistake that distracts from the overall feel of the note. When reading over your note, there are a lot of things to look for. It's better to read it several times, looking for something different each time then to try to remember it all while reading it over once.
Make sure the point you wanted to get across when you started writing is clear. Don't be afraid to made edits, but be sure to read your note over again when you do.
Tip #13
Make your note easy to find
Take some time to consider where to leave your note. If you can't leave it near you, be sure to leave it in an obvious location. Even if you want someone in particular to read your note first, avoid sending it to someone by mail. There are too many things that could go wrong and once you send it, it's gone. Your note could get lost in the mail, or worse, it could reach someone before you can go though with it.
Tip #14
Check your note for flow.
Your note should progress rather then being a loose connection of thoughts and feelings. People reading your note should see that it is going somewhere. If you're having a hard time, start with a sentence or two that sum up the point of the letter, and then end with a summary of the same topic. Every paragraph in between should support that point.
Tip #15
Make sure it's not too long.
There is a reason it's called a suicide note and not a novel. Try to keep it around two or three pages at the most. Avoid the temptation to mention or leave a little note to everyone you know. Not only does that get dull fast but you're certain to leave someone out.
This dream called life
What's it like in this dream called life? [x2]
You and me.
It seems the question.
You'll leave out family to be free?
It can't be that easy.
What's it like killing time in this dream called life?
What's it like every night in this dream called life?
So much to say, today.
Today, not the last, my endeavors change the past.
So much happened way to early.
She was girly.
One month has passed.
Afraid of coming clean, sensations but a dream, or so it seems.
What's it like killing time in this dream called life?
What's it like every night in this dream called life?
It's cold tonight.
Do you feel alone?
Are you okay?
Are you...okay?
What's it like killing time in this dream called life?
What's it like every night in this dream called life?
About me...so people will stop asking.
I'm 17 going to be 18 on the 24th of next month.
I'm colorblind.
I don't drink.
I don't smoke.
I don't party.
I hardly hang out with friends.
I have never done drugs.
I love to skateboard and play guitar.
I write songs/poems/plays in my spare time.
I currently work at McDonalds.
I'm almost a vegetarian except for I still eat chicken.
I don't open up to people.
I always say I'm fine no matter what's going on.
I'm bisexual.
I'm currently taken by the best girl ever.
I have only had two boyfriends and one girlfriend before her.
I support gay marriage.
I'm against abortion.
I'm shy till you get to know me, then I won't shut up.
I can be the nicest person you ever meet, just don't make me mad or dis my friends or people I care about.
My family hasn't really been there for me. My parents are only together till Andrew (currently 16) turns 18. They have thrown around divorce since I was 8. It would be best for the family if they did.
I have three piercings. Both ears guaged to a 0, and my right cartlidge guaged to a 6 (or a 4...I'm not sure.).
My friends are my life. They help me through everything.
I can best be described as the kid who always sat in the back of the class and no one ever really got to know.
I'm the shy quiet kid in all of my classes.
My favorite subject is Math.
I'm a DDR fanatic. I can play game for hours and still want to keep going.
I only drink water or ocassionally a little mountain dew or coke here and there.
I'm nothing special really.
My life consists of going to school, work, talking to my parents, then getting online (use to get on only to talk to one person..they know who they are), taking a shower, then off to bed.
My routine hardly changes.
I'm a clean freak. I have to have everything organized.
I can't stand when people touch my stuff.
I hate two faced people.
I love Teenaged Mutant Ninja Turtles, Hello Kitty, Reese's Cups, Skateboarding, Playing my guitar, Just driving around downtown, Bowling, Playing pool (we have a pool table in our basement), Playing airhocker (we have one in our basement as well), Snowboarding, Tubing, Racing go karts, Four-wheeling, Acting ghetto (even though I'm probally the whitest person you will ever meet in your life), Giving hugs, Recieving hugs, Making new friends, and Staying up really late.
I'm the exact same online as I am in real life.
I have really low self-esteem and confidence.
I think I'm worthless.
I ocassionally attend church.
My ipod is my best friend.
I like to go to Walmart just to play with the toys.
When I grow up I want to be anything but who I am now.
Growing up I always wanted to be a power ranger.
Now I just want to be someone else.
I don't like the way I look.
They only thing I like about myself is my personality.
Growing up I remember never caring what anyone thought about me. It's funny how things change in such a short amount of time. I only want everyone to like me now.
I try to be everyone's best friend.
I'm often their counsler.
I listen to their problems and never let mine out.
I change way too much to try and impress people.
I only want to be accepted for who I am. But in today's society that can't happen.
I'm not your typical teenager.
I hardly talk back to my parents (unless they really make me mad.).
I don't want to party or have parties (I would rather be around people who actually remember what happened or what they did that night instead of ones who are drunk and only remember waking up in someone else's bed.).
I drive a 2007 Yellow Chevy Aveo.
I pay for it, and I pay the insurance for it.
My parents hardly give me money, if they do then it's a loan (and yes they do put intrest on it.).
I have learned to raise myself at age 9.
I haven't had much of a childhood.
I started working at age 13 as a waitress.
And ever since then I've been working.
I work mainly so I don't have to hear my parents fight.
I go to a psychatrist but she really doesn't help much. (All she did was label me suicidal and told me to have a nice day and I will see you next week.).
I'm not good at saving money.
I still listen to boy and girl bands.
I'm allergic to oranges. Just the smell of them makes me sick to my stomach.
I wear glasses all the time when I'm at home, but as soon as I leave the house I put in my contacts.
My little brothers are my life. You fuck with them, you deal with me.
I have a couple of pets. I have two dogs, Ginger and Baby, Two cats, Muffy and Emo (also comes to Littlebutt), A hamster, Butterscotch (or Wolphy Jr., he was the same color as his dad.), And a goldfish named Bubbles.
I hardly do homework, and sometimes my grades reflect that.
I still shop out of the kids sextion for t-shirts.
I was pure hell all through middle school. I was alsways suspended. (Mainly because that was when my parents started really fighting like everyday.) I calmed down in 8th grade and since then never been suspended.
I have moved around way more then any person should ever. This is the first year I have actually been able to complete a year at a school.
I'm afraid to graduate. I don't have the know-how to make it out on my own yet.
I still play pokemon on my gameboy when I'm bored. And I still watch the videos.
I've always grown up around boys and played with the boys. I use to always play tackle football every Saturday with them without pads. And that's why I'm probally the way I am. Where I grew up there were no girls.
I played soccer, basketball, t-ball, softball, football, swim team, volleyball, and tennis. I was president of the Chess club in both 9th and 10th grade.
I'm a nerd.
I played quads for marching band. I started playing in 4th grade and stayed with it all the way up to this year. I just kind of gave up.
I have only been in love once. And I regret hurting that person.
This is all I could think of to put about me. I'm not that interesting of a person. But hopefully this helps.
So close to Graduation I can taste it
So there's only like two more months till Graduation. I plan on spending the months after that with my beautiful girl-friend Sammi. I plan on taking her to Cedar Point for the first time and hanging out with her family. Hopefully this summer I will have enough money to buy her the ring and propose to her like I plan on doing. I want a long engagement to make sure it's what we both want. I don't want to jump into it like most people do. I also plan on asking her dad for his permision to marry her. I can't wait till it finally happens.
pieri1987
HEY LISTEN TO MY BAND I\'M THE MANAGER
posted May 15
Xtake_my_key_and_throw_it_outX
Sure am. aren\'t they still together?
posted Apr 29