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Colorful
Posted January 25 | Leave a Comment
Im a very colorful person and very opened minded but how come guys dont respect that of me. Oh i wear too much black. or that Im to emotional. OR that im just not there type anymore. I want a guy that likes the same music as me. Dress like me kinda. Dosent care what other people think of US. when we are togther. I'm not saying that i want t an emo bf but im just saying im tired of these FAkes that i date and i want the real thing. I want the heart to be real and what he feels towards me. I… read more
ripped apart part2
Posted June 27 | Leave a Comment
Stella wakes up to find Damien snugged up to her back with his arm around her waist. She gently lifts his arm and ease herself off the bed but Damien reaches out and pulls stella back in. "And where do you think your'e going?" Damien says with a chuckle. "Why what did you have planned?" Without saying a word, Damien answers her question. He pulls her closer and kisses her. Stella closes her eyes as he deepens the kiss and brings her closer to him so her body was pressed up againts eacho… read more
i hate myspace
Posted May 4 | Leave a Comment
today i was walking around the block and somone on myspace decided to hack into my thing and play around with it...no one knows my password.. man i feel bad but i threaten them...im bored and itres. night people. read more
F&^*Y&^ its hot...
Posted April 26 | Leave a Comment
as i was walking home today its was so nasty, i was like freakin hottt and i felt like actually taking off my clothes and allll, but i didnt so when i got home i4got my house key and then so i hoped the febnce and then got in the house then i notice that i did not lock the door and so there was actually no point of hopping the fence from there....today was hard and i feel retareded and even blonder./...... but then when you look back at it u laugh and say to urself i wish i had a camera haaha… read more
okay..funish
Posted April 25 | Leave a Comment
soooo!!!!>>>> today i went out and applied for so many places..heres a list....or the start of them hehehehe!!!>>>> 1. Zumizes 2. Wetseal 3. Citi wear 4. bath and body works 5. victoria secrets 6. pac sun 7. the rave 8. shop for less 9. hot topic 10. the theaters there 11. icing 12. and some where els he he he anyways well i hope i get one of them cause i have never had a job in my life and im scared to death even thoe im 18 years old......hehehehhe>>>>> read more
OKAY.......
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
the emptyness that i bare in my heart, it covers my eyes so i wont fall apart, i want to see the world as much as i can, for ijm empty without him. Scared off the feeling that i have towards him, i will leave them be instead. Crept into the bed that i lay, i cover my face holing it shut so i cant breath. I want to be seen by him again, but the make up covers me making me look dead. dead to his heart im no longer there, he sleeps there hoping that im leaving far away from here. the clouds w… read more
DeAD TO THE WORLD
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
i look through out his eyes where there was no life. i saw nothing to over come for he was already dead to the world. When he spoke in that voice, it escape through me ears then i just wanted to cry. His eyes peirced through mine as he leaped out and pushed me aside. there i wait for him to come back, then i notice he was with her instead. My world fell apart and the cracks sink in, for now i hate him always till the very end. He said that he loved me and that he thought i was great, the… read more
waiting
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
here i wait thinking of you. sharing the tears that i felt, toeards my heart. i had a choice to choose from this or that, but i took the risk and here i am glad. freaking out to the heart i wait for him to the beginig start. I'm almost there and not scared he waits at the end, waiting to hold me close to his heart. im not dead to him like the rest, i promised i make it through and im here at last. i dont cover my eyes no more, for he holds my hands close to his chest. i dont bare the fright th… read more
lonley with dispare
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
here i wait to the end here i wait hoping its not to late. do i choose to be hurt and then used all the time. the life that i claim it sinks in and then i want to believe, for the i hate it when u think im just a peace of meat. i have feelings thtat i bare, i have a good heart that im no longer scared, i have the eyes of an angel that they will place u in a heaven like no other, just respect me and then all is better. i await this day where im not heart broken, i await this day where the… read more
WAITING FOREVER
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
here i wait. thinking of him. here i cry, holding myself to sleep. here i wait. knowing he hates me. here i wait. hopeing he would forgive me. here i wait crying myself to sleep. here i wait, knowing he forgotten me already. here i wait. for my whole life surrounded him, here i wait forgetting that i lost my only true friend. here i wait, trying not to cry. here i wait in my little cornner in my dark room. i want to be locked up for the things that i have said. i want to wash my hands and the… read more
escape
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
the atempt of trying to escape his grip, pulls me down further from his lips.he holds me there making me cry, then he looks at me knowing im no longer alive. hidden in shadows and holding on so tight, knowing that everything is going to be alright. the depths of my pain is so gone and away, i place something new the love i just grew. the touch he puts on my loving soft face, the kisses that he pplace on my loving face. the hands that he held open knowing im always welcomed. the over joy that i… read more
5♥
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
here i lay wide open and loved, where he stands waiting for me to come. he holds out his hand and looks at me, he smiles so wide that i now believe, the miracles that he brings the joy and the love that he gives. that he loves me as thoe im his..my meriful father in heave i pray to u, to keep me safe and live my life true. read more
left alone in the dark
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
left alone in the dark scared of might become of us. Left alone to cry away the sadness and the hurt, left alone knowing that im dead from you. I thought i could love you once again but no matter how much i try im dead in the grave. I say my goodbyes and ur not there, to hold me close and tell me not to be scared. My breath becomes less and then i fall, dead and black and scared that i wont go. The blade would touch my soft skin and then u held me and told me once again. Dont do it i love you… read more
Farwell
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
I thought my heart will never heal when you just tore it apart. I never thought u said those words to me that u loved me not much as her. You would look at me and see me cry, you didnt care becasue u were never there. You said that you promised that you would protect me, where were you then outside of my heart. The feelin gof looseing the greatest friend ever hurts so much, im so scared i wish u where her to hold me close.You left me and then i was just not there anymore u never notice how i f… read more
My life
Posted April 24 | Leave a Comment
-MY Life- Tears stream down my face trying to wipe the sadness and the hurt away, so much pain that I have gone through is all just the same. I love him with all my heart; I would sacrifice things to just spend time with him. He makes me real happy and joyful each and everyday. Every other day is different and the same, the dark might slip upon your unhappy face, as it is hidden from the world. I sometimes seem to be scared of what people might think of just me. My hair cover… read more
