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EMILY HELENA
Hey everyone!!! My name is Emily and I am 15 years old. I go to River Ridge High School...I have lived in Florida for about 5 months now but it feels like SO much longer. I love it! Before I moved to Florida I lived in Massachusetts...a shout out to all my friends back home... I LOVE YOU! I probably couldn't tell you what kind of music I like because I like every kind of music imagienable except rap and hip hop...but I really like Sarah McLachlan, Ragina Spektor, The Postal Service, and (thank you Sam) Hellogoodbye. And I have a couple new best friends including the greatest girl in the world, I LOVE YOU SAM!! So that's me pretty much me!!!
The lamp is burning low upon my table top
the snow is softly falling
The air is still within the silence of my room
I hear your voice softly calling
If I could only have you near to breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love on this winter night with you
The smoke is rising in the shadows overhead
my glass is almost empty
I read again between the lines upon the page the words of love you sent me
If I could know within my heart that you were lonely too
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love upon this winter night with you
The fire is dying now, my lamp is growing dim
the shades of night are lifting
The morning light steals across my windowpane
where webs of snow are drifting
If I could only have you near to breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love and to be once again with with you
To be once again with with you
Just some things to think about
I just realized how fast your life can change...how quickly things you thought would always be the same can just up and vanish and your life can be turned upside down so quickly. You can hurt and be hurt so easily and not realize what you did till it was already done. You can tell people you're fine and put on an act to make people think that you're okay when really you feel empty inside like you're missing a piece of your heart. Like something was taken from you because you let your guard down for a second. I feel stupid, and empty, and dumb all because I let myself be sucked into a giant lie and I want it all back, everything that was taken from me.
But then I also think about the fact that you can feel this way and still be strong. Strong because you know that your life will go on and that what you felt for one person doesn't make you stupid...just a little blind. It's all a part of life and life goes on and people change and people grow in strength and knowledge and they discover that it's not the end of the world because one person you thought you knew and trusted isn't who you thought they were. You become aware of the people in your life that truely care about you and begin to see that you gained more then you lost. And then you begin to realize that God might have just been testing you and that you pased the test. And then you feel impowered. And you realize that life is good and God is fair and that you have been so blessed in life and just because one bad thing happens doesn't mean that life should stop. And it is wonderful.
Yeah
Soooo....today's kind of a sad day.. Actually it's really sucky. Everyone is leaving today:( Marc, Scott, and Katee, and yesterday Kenny, Ashlie, and Ben left, and Grandpa's leaving tomorrow. But then Jenn's coming. That will be really cool. But I'm not ready to have no one around. This vacation is going by way to fast but slowly at the same time. Grrr...I need to hang out with people!!!
Hey guys!
Ok well this is completely new to me and I'm really bad at writing stuff like this sooooo...HEY! This is my new Purevolume...I just discovered this site and so I decided to make one...It's pretty cool. This is one lame blog so I'm going to end it before I bore anyone even more...I'll post another one when interesting stuff happens. Loves you all!!!!!
