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ELQUENTEMO
Age: 17
Location: Prescott Valley, Az.
Joined On: Jan 12, 2006
Occupation: student
memories of what used to be
I wonder if he remembers me
Or if I'm just a memory
I wonder if he thinks of us
Or if he finds it useless
I wonder how things would be
If he had never left me
I wonder how he is
And if I'm still a love of his
I think about him everyday
And wonder if he's okay
I think about how happy we were
And the memories make the tears stir
I think about the plans we made
While we were laying in the shade
I think about all we said
And the lives we lead
To not know
Where to go
To not know where to find
A place where he may hide
To not be able to see his face
Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when he's near
Is my greatest fear
There's so much in my head
That I wish I'd said
There's so many missed kisses
For my unanswered wishes
There's only so many ways
For me to make it through the days
There's so little light
In my heart tonight
What would I say
If given a day
What would happen
If I could have him
What joy it would bring
To hear him sing
What would I feel
If he were here for real
I miss him each day
That he is away
I miss him looking out for me
The way it used to be
I miss his love
That protected me like a glove
I miss him
So much it's made my heart dim
I wonder if he still cares
That's a question that tears
I wonder what he's like
If he'd tell me to take a hike
I wonder if he fears
That I don't hold him near
But most of all
I wonder if he still loves me
Or if I'm just a memory
Of what used to be
falling apart
I've given away my heart,
So it could be torn into pieces.
He left me with the feelings of betrayal and being forgotten.
I'm so in love, yet so alone, with two years thrown away.
Feeling his absense hurts the most.
My constant urge to call is almost taking over, while on the other side, my cycle of feelings starts with rage.
Slowly going into sadness, rage again, desperation, devastation, and finally denial.
Every morning I open my eyes to emptiness.
Seeing a long black hallway with nothing in between.
This so-called love has taken over my life leaving me distracted.
Days pass by and now my emotions are going crazy.
Leaving me no choice but to vomit.
To empty my pesimistic thoughts.
To stop thinking my life is over.
To stop my tears everynight from falling.
To stop feeling like my heart has shattered into fifty pieces.
The hardest part of moving on is the jealousy on top of all my misery.
But soon enough I'll go to bed realizing I survived this struggle.
I need to escape my depression to continue breathing.
And regain my strength to love again.
lover's nightmare
I love you and I'm here to stay,
that is what you always stay,
Kiss me and I can barely breath,
Sending bolts into my knees,
Distance draws us far apart,
Passion still bleeding in my heart,
Love divine and oh so true,
Hoping that you feel it too,
I dreamt about you twice last night,
Standing there and holding you tight,
Keeping you hands on my waist,
I still remember how you taste,
I love you I need you that's what you say,
The snow starts falling and the sky turns grey,
I laugh and kiss you and say how could I leave,
The only place I want you is right next to me,
Then suddenly you gone and I start to cry,
Waking up with tears in my eyes,
Rolling over to kiss you face,
But your not there and my heart starts to race,
Right now I need you more then most,
To hear you breath, to kiss your nose,
Just to lay there watching you dream,
But your not hear I just want to scream,
I sit there now not able to sleep,
My hands are shaking and I start to weep,
I can still see you there, snow falling in your face,
Watching the sky turn from blue to grey,
I think about it for awhile longer,
Wishing I could be much stronger,
That beautiful dream turned into a nightmare,
Most of it was fuzzy but you face was so clear,
And suddenly it hits me,
Like a car going sixty,
I sit there and smile for the longest time,
Dreams aren't real and I know your mine,
airheaddz
ntn really
posted Jan 11
airheaddz
hay
posted Jan 09
airheaddz
u hav cool music
posted Dec 06
Joshua3:5
Hey, just stopping by to drop you this link for Black
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posted Apr 27