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Death and Love belong together
Posted January 14 | Leave a Comment
Death sang a song to me this night I held his hand with all my might but even He let go my love is too great for even Him to hold I fell in love with His face because I knew He'd come to this place and not let me down like the rest of you who play with my heart He is the only beauty who is certain where others are not He stays the same even when I forget to believe in God I love Him more than you You'll never change this truth CHAPTER TWO No! He fell in love with some else! she must have… read more
Why Can't our Bodies Die...
Posted January 14 | Leave a Comment
WHY CAN'T OUR BODIES DIE WHEN OUR HEARTS DO? I've dreamt all these years of you finding me here having both arrived I realize ...I have nothing to offer you waiting forever to be free from all that contained me but this wretched cage I could not break ...I had no time to become interesting I fought so hard to give up they said it meant love to put away rebellion and stop playing the felon ...behave myself, let go of everything they hid me away made me their slave and I conceded as the wa… read more
Walls with Jagged Edges
Posted January 10 | Leave a Comment
i'm sure there's something wonderful inside but angry, lost, and lonely too and you're making me stand on the outside that's why it hurts to be with you you say no one returns your love but you've never given any to return you say you feel empty, so you keep giving up and that has only fed the hurt you take the phone off the hook hide so deep within giving no one a chance to love you you don't know who you are cause you've never tried and when you don't want to look, you won't find truth fe… read more
Simplicity
Posted January 4 | Leave a Comment
look at me through worldly eyes and you will see a child who laughs and plays, no knowledge of brokenness or guile no experience or intellect has fully been instilled you judge because my innocence has not been entirely killed but lovely there is something more than you will ever know because i am so secretive i'll never let it show i only play a child so you may know how to learn i only use simplicity so you still feel secure i will play with you for now just as a child does i will appear… read more
Choice
Posted December 26 | Leave a Comment
you don't make me need you anymore by attempting to make me insecure i'm loosening my grip, I'm noticing when people like you come around I have this tendancy and you will never be my choice because you have too frail a voice your name will never be mentioned cause I don't believe you have pure intentions you say you have something to give me but I only hear harsh words and feelings of inferiority what good can I learn from your words and looks that I couldn't gather from a book? and you w… read more
psychoanalysis
Posted December 25 | Leave a Comment
she's a bad girl she is the devil's got a hold of her don't get too close you might feel murder so i changed my ways never my heart just so you'd smile and think you were smart she's a good girl she is strong in chastity too bad you use me as an amenity so i'll turn a table to show you my kind so you take the time to remember you're blind kid, your songs are sad but damn well at least they're making you feel cause for a while i sincerely thought you weren't even real fake in your smile… read more
Rambling
Posted December 25 | Leave a Comment
i'm perfect just the way i am small, young...misunderstood i've told myself i didn't care about what you'd say, if it wasn't good but if i didn't care would that make me careless? because that's not what i am obviously, because you're hurting me and it's hard because you lie to me and i believe you every time! i'm sensitive and pure and loving because of this you criticize you are making me doubtful i'm changing NO i'm changing but not for the good my heart is rearranging brother, i snapp… read more
unspoken
Posted December 5 | Leave a Comment
February 5, 2007 an unspeakable power, I contained but this unspeakable power, I could not constrain an unspeakable knowledge, I owned but this unspeakable knowledge, I could not relay to understand... but not be understood to love passionately... but not be loved at all an unspeakable curse, I was blessed with but this unspeakable curse, not seen as a gift an unspeakable wonder, with which I could ponder an unspeakable wonder, where the view is swift to bless others with courage... bu… read more
it doesn't belong to you!
Posted November 21 | Leave a Comment
Oh you sing sweet words they tell me so, they tell me so but i cannot hear you thought you should know, thought you should know I'm not easy or shallow stop your thoughts, stop your thoughts my heart, soul, and voice cannot be bought, cannot be bought who are you to think that i'm the same? that i'm not free? you do have the right to dream but not to take it out on me let me go, let me know you're not trying to own me too you must go, you must know it doesn't belong to you they've come to m… read more
dancing with your shoes on
Posted November 15 | Leave a Comment
I don't like to dance with my shoes on they were meant for the ground, not for flight I don't like to hide my feelings hiding was meant for those too weak to be hurt I don't like to walk to the bus stop walking was meant for those who are afraid afraid of what lies ahead afraid to push past limits afraid to experience freedom afraid to learn afraid to love afraid to be I don't like to sit down and wait sitting is meant for those who won't stand up for what they believe in I don't like pe… read more
You Wanted to Know
Posted November 5 | Leave a Comment
It's not that i wasn't strong enough It's not that i couldn't keep it together You just wanted to know that I was fine being weak You just wanted to know that I was fine being free it's not that i let emotions take over it's not that i couldn't understand You just wanted to know that i cared more than most You just wanted to know that i required nothing back from you You just wanted to know that you were enough You just wanted to know that I wanted you alone You just wanted to know that Y… read more
For the Church
Posted October 27 | Leave a Comment
they will try to take us they will try to change us to be like them and we will fall along with it all cause that's the way it always ends can we change our nature and gain its favor to be who we were meant to be? can we deceive deceivers can we believe believers and open our eyes to see? are we meant for more or just to war against even ourselves? will we run in circles and dwell in the most rural places of hell? its time to be honest and some may be astonished because i am so bold but how… read more
old dirt vs. sand of gold
Posted October 9 | Leave a Comment
God I was angry, you ripped my heart right out I kicked and screamed, felt everything bleed and I feel stupid now You pruned my vines, gave me new sight taught me new life and showed me who was right and I feel small now You replaced the old dirt, with a sand of gold why was I so impatient? why so independent? you gave me something more valuable to hold why was I so concerned with a shallow love doomed to fail, leaving tears in a trail your peace should have been enough you are right Love… read more
known to this place
Posted October 4 | Leave a Comment
you're disappointed i'm just surprised that i never took the time to realize the power i held within my heart the strength i found inside my head i'm doing it i'm beginning again can you see me now? i've forgotten your face you're not known to this place anymore...my heart is no longer your home somehow i've let go i'm so proud... can you hear me now? not afraid, i'm not small i am strong after all to live...without you i'm doing it, i'm going you'll spend your life knowing i never needed… read more
i don't believe you
Posted September 25 | Leave a Comment
they say a song can't change the world so many have tried before they say a feeling cannot change minds we're all made of stone and nothing more they say the world is hopeless but that would make it lifeless who are they to decide our fate? how can they be so self-righteous? oh, i don't believe you i won't take what you say it only takes one time to prove something wrong you say songs are cute and feelings are weak your logic says give up my heart says go on oh, i don't believe you i don't… read more
