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DEARXABIGAIL
Age: 18
Location: piller, oh
Joined On: Dec 13, 2006
Occupation: lifeguard
hello!!
school t-shirts and hoodiesare my standard wear
oh yeah.. and i met a WONDERFUL boy who loves me almost as much as i do him... JOHN ANDREW PROTS..
along with him i got a new best friend.. his names CHASE FOLLETT... and hes pritty much amazing to me. we call him my secomd boyfriend or the perminate third wheel. but im glad hes always there and love him to death.. just a different kind of love than the one with my boyfriend..more like a big brother, but a month younger. hehe
I WANT TO EXPLORE THE WOLRD
i have glasses and had them a moth when i lost them... i should really look harder for them. while ive been on here for a year or more now i've made and lost contact with many people. i hate when people add me but never talk. i find it annoying.. so SAY SOMETHING....
like the prURdy lil flower called Sundance... she always has something to say.. you all could learn a lot from her! lol
im attracted to:
john andrew
and thats enough
the ring
who ever knew a ring could be a scarry thing? i guess it shouldnt be, but as i sit here in class and think about him telling me he loved me infrot of all the office ladies, i realize that while i liked it, for the first time it seemed strange commming from his lips. i dont think i even said it back bc i was in such shock.. hes noramly not so.... open around adaults. bc of his own familys old fashionedness i guess. but i liked it.
last night he started in on a convo of rings and houses and families. its crazy! im only 17, 18 in a month, but when im with him i fell 25 and SO ready for a life together.. thats all that counts right? we know college comes first, and marrage after. but i think hes thinging bout geting me a ring.. so perfect yet soooo scarry. the thing is im ready to be engaged.. i just dont think the ppl around us are ready for us to be engaged. Sundance gave some awsome words there... that the rings only a symbol and that marrage can come latter even if i have my ring now...
yeah.. i love him...
when
when you realize that the man your with is quite posibly the last man you'll ever be with..... its scarry.. and to think i'll never have anonther filng, with either sex.........is odd... there a lota ppl left unkissed.... and here a am talking of marrage after college and kids and love, and i do love him. i do want to be with him...but is it bad to want just one last night to do whatever and him never know, or atleast not care....he makes me very happy in more ways than one.... but all those thoughts scare me in more ways than one...
i'll take this opertunity to say a big "fuck you" to my ex. you abusive ass hole, you but all these thoughts in my head... the ones that scare me and secondgess my heart.... your lucky i cant stand to see your face... or id look you inthe eye and de-nut you..thats if i didnt breakdown first ....and if he were to ever actualy ask me if he created all these fears, id lie, beacuse him knowing the truth would hurt all over again.
i think im guna go home and curl up and just think, and try not to let all these thoughts get the better of me.
lalala...
ive found that is a bad idea to listen to wow i can get sexual too on a friday... or any day.. it gets stuck in my head.....
called her on the phone and she tuched herself...
HAHAHHA...
im senior. and i love it...
im getting out of her. off to college.. off to a place where EVERYONES a thespian and im normal. some one actualy said..but that palce is full of FREAKS! .. i just told them we prefer the name thesipans. :) my love of my life thinks im the weiredest mix of counrty upper middle class thespian freak hes ever met. hes very normal and down to earth.. i tink we balance eachother...i had steak last night...
ok im done rambling...
sitting in class
soo im sitting in class waiting for it to end.. we have 20 more min to work on our project (*wich is DONE*)
things to do toniight:
bonfire at emilys
party at terighs
spidie 3
dance rehursal for ash
track meet
humm dont think i'll get to do em all but i should make an apperence at atleast two... i'lll prolly got to the track and then to spidie 3 and then to one or the to partys... i feel bad for missing ash's thingy .. but ohwell
todays the first day ive actualy goten dressed in FOREVER.. lmao.. i just hope hes not TOO use to seeing me w no makeup n such.. i got my eyes really cool today.. silver n grey n black :D ...
mhum..
lalala i want it to be the weekend RIGHT now. over the last two weeks ive seen john andrew like.. 15 min every cupple o days.. not even... n it sucked.. so yester day we me up at like noon n just drove around... say in a parking lot for like 2 hrs n just talked... well not just talked... hehe. he has such a damn complex about his weight.. hes put himslef on a diet.. n ger.. hes not fat, hes bit n muscualr.. but NOT fat.. but he finaly tool me home at 9.. then we got in a water fight n he left at like 9 30 ish.. so i wana c him NOW.. i miss him like mad consantly... i know. i know the relationships still young....but when im w him i cant hold on tight nof.. hehe
ok im done BY BRRIAN! (*bc you'll prolly b the only 1 to read this!!*)
AHH
ok.. so im sitting here... and ive never done one o these... BUT
IM EFFING BORED!! lmao.... so yeah.... im reallling in a good moood bc i just wana leave for daytona.. really bad.. im totaly bikeing to bryan (*the town next to us ..like..15 min by car*) on friday... im soo xcited... tho its going to kill me.. i really injoyed the woam weather n then the stupid snow had to come n ruin it......grwarrr..hehe i must be a tiger or something..GRRRWWAARRRRRRRR.....hehhee...ok.. hum.. what else.......................idk... OH i have a supper cool friend on here named brian.. but hes not on when i am ne more..how sad....i want a muffin....oo OOO OOOOOO the cheese muffins like the danish thingy you use to get a Mc-D's ,,,, mmm mc d's (*rape*) ...... humm what to tell bout me.... i like boy.. his name is jay.. hes SUPPER cool.. but hes never have a gf.. ........ humm..
i like eggs. eggs eggs eggs........eggs bacon and cheese....mmmmcheese.................
ok i have soo much more i could put but class isalmost done...
LOVES to NE one READING this!!!!
thanks. you too
posted Feb 15
419josh
HEY! hows montpelier?
posted Feb 15
thank you thank you! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU TOO!
:o)
posted Feb 14
haha you\'re such a rebel. lol. i\'m doing really good
thank you. i\'m just making dinner for myself and a few
friends. drinks afterwards...yumm :)
posted Feb 07
aw boo that sucks, i hate when its super cold. it\'s
like 60 degrees here but im still freezing. anyways,
what are you up to today..anything fun?
posted Feb 07
haha okay i\'ll be working on my tan while you get
here. so hope your day goes really well. it\'s a cold
day and i don\'t wanna get out of bed, i forgot to go
to my 10am class...lame! lol
posted Feb 07
btw i just read what you wrote in your billboard and
mentioning me....can you say sweetest ever?! you\'re so
nice and i just love talking to you :)
posted Feb 05
oh man that superbowl was the biggest stinker in the
history of all superbowls. like wow. i felt like i was
watching an award show what with the red carpet and
celebrities and of course ryan seacrest. can you
lame.com?! and then the patriots had to go and lose the
game. bah i\'m mad now, lets go live on the beach so i
can drown my anger in hot surfer guys and sunshine.
please and thank you :)
posted Feb 05