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Goodbye Waves and Driveways

Oh dear... So im stitting in the basement thinking about the next week and how my life will be drastically changed. Have you ever just sat and thought about the past year of your life and all the decisions you made and if you made the right one? its one of thoes nights. Today Im done highschool and leaving for costa rica for 2 months and who knows how that will turn out and how drastically it will change my world...but that means another 2 months till i see my parents and after three and a half long months of living in a different country than seeing them for 2 days and leaving for Costa Rica...that takes a toll on all your emotions. Not only and i now done with high school, and leaving my parents the day i say good bye spruce grove and hello Costa rica also means good bye spruce Grove for good? Well not good good but 6 months is a long time to be away...dont get me Its not like im going to hate living with my mom and dad in cali...I know that i dont really want to be there... And when i say Good bye to high school i also say hello to college for 4 years a lot of debt and a peice of paper saying well here you are four years of hard work, 25 page essays, sleepless nights, and lots of coffee got you to a place where now you get to go work as a youth pastor in a church who knows where...for who knows how long and maybe in 10 years you will have saved enough money to pay off the debt. When I look back at my life i wonder which choices i could have made that would change me sitting here right now typing this. So not only now i say good bye to spruce gorve hellp to california, good bye to high school and hello to college, i also leave behind the past 9 years of my life, 9 years of friendship, laughter, tears, drama, and family. Talk about emotional... Im leaving my friends and comfort to go to a place where i know exactly...5 peolpe enough to count on one hand to make new memories and a new everything....As i fight back all the emotions i know one thing is for sure...none of this would be happing if it wasnt God's will and that is the one thing that keeps comming back to me. He Keeps reminding me that like Jeremiah 29:11 says...For i know the plans i have for you Delcares the LORD, plans to help you, not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. The plans of hope that God is giving me is the hope to return one day to Good ol' spruce grove...the plans for the futre though a little unclear is to do his work... I have to keep reminding my self that God is in control and he is a lot bigger than me and is taking care of me... and at that it puts my mind to ease...enough to let me sleep that is... at least for a few hours....

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