PureVolume

heck ya.

Posted April 1, 2008

im no punkk-rock-attitude filled girl. i dont have the emo sidebangs and i dont buy skater clothes. i dont skate. i dont have too much self confidence. but i like myself. i like that im not very confident. i dont like that im shy. but i accept that im shy. i dont like that im weird, abnormal, and that i dont flatter myself at all. but i accept it. im not gonna change. i accept that im never not going to be shy. im never gonna be a quick witted thinker. im never gonna have a sense of style, ill just copy every one else. but copying doesn't get me very far; i accept that. i hate it when people say if you shop at Hollister/AE/Aero, you are a prep. i shop there because i like the clothes there. id shop other places if i liked their clothes. there are other places i like some clothes every now and then. i accept people think im a prep because i act happy and shop and these places. i get great grades. i do my homework. i actually (gasp) try in school. i dont enjoy working. but i dont slack. people call me a geek. a nerd. a square. i dont really care. i accept that i may be a geek. i accept that i may have some preppiness in me. my friends think im depressing and emo because of my music. i like sad songs. they express, what is to me, stronger emotion than just a song to sing on the dance floor. i like slow songs. therefore, my friends think im depressing because i like songs with touching lyrics and voices. i accept that my friends call me this. emo. (i never cut myself. i hardly follow the 'emo' 'trend'. other than music.) i write poetry and songs. my friends think this both emo and geek-ish. haha. i dont care. i accept that they think this, but i know they're wrong. i listen to broadway. yes. i like broadway musicals, and i act and sing them. broadway and alternative don't really mix. but there you have it. people assume because i do theatre i like theatre music period. they're wrong. i don't think im better than anyone else. i think im a mess. i accept that im not going to be anyone else. this is who i am and nothing can change that. i live each day. i plan ahead but end up doing something completely different. im still trying to find out what love is. i might add more. i accept that im forgetful, too.