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not enough time.

i've had many heartbreaks, most accomplished by the same person over and over again. every time, i manage to find a rebound guy, but the distraction lasts only a futile moment, when i need it to last longer. i consider myself a strong person when it comes to emotions, mostly because i refuse to let myself fall to pieces over petty situations. when i get mad, watch out for about 10 minutes. after that, i'm perfectly restored to my normal self. it just doesn't take much to push my buttons. my source of ventilation is a piece of notebook paper and a fine-point sharpie. i can go from one extreme to the next whenever i'm feeling something intense. the things i've seen and experienced so far in my life are what make me who i am today, and what made me choose to be a great person no matter what. a divorce when i was 7, a drunken cowboy for a father who finally sobered up and accepted God into his life, a mother who supports 5 people on a bank salary, a brother in jail for drugs, a womanizing cousin who picks on 4-year-olds for no reason, a dickhead for a step-dad who calls my father a dead-beat, and several deaths of close family members over the past 6 months. it doesn't seem like much, but people perceive situations differently because we are not all the same. i believe that God presents me with challenges in life because he wants me to be strong. overall, i'm a happy person. for some reason, i love school----i enjoy it and view it as an escape from the hell that is my home. my attention span justifies my personality...i am easily distracted, but quickly pulled back on the right track. i like to tell corny jokes, mainly because my friends humor me by laughing at them and telling me to "keep 'em coming". music = life, secondary to God. i love everything from 60's classic rock to southern metal, with the exception of rap. there's only so much of it that i can tolerate. just like any human being who is born of sin, i make mistakes, but i believe that God is the only person who can judge me for them. i AM a virgin, and intend to stay that way until i get married. in my opinion, having sex too early complicates things, so what's the use in ruining your life before it really begins? "i'm on the brink of something beautiful and i wanna sing about it but i don't know where to begin"----quite possibly one of the most accurate and meaningful ways to express how i sometimes have trouble speaking my mind, even though i eventually say what i need to say. i practically base my life off of song lyrics. i have an ear to listen, and tongue to speak, and a heart to feel. i was put on this earth to utilize those things in order to help people. life happens in the blink of an eye, and there is not enough time for most planned things to take place nowadays. i watch movies about fairytale love, and wonder why i can't be blessed with the devotion of a great, Godly man who will kiss my forehead and hold my hand until our palms are sweaty. i'm a hopeless romantic, and sometimes feel that romance is hopeless. i'm a stargazer (literally), and nature holds my attention more than most conversations i hold with people. by now, you've probably found that i'm an ensightful person with a compassionate opinion, so talk to me. i promise i won't bite.

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