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CLINTHANDLEY
Age: 21
Location: United States
Joined On: Feb 25, 2007
clint
is in a metal band...
isn't normal... but who is?..
is 15 in eighth grade...
goes out with kristen hartley, and loves her very much...so what...
puts his music before everything else... except kristen...
couldn't care less if you hated him...
doesn't care what you think of him...
so fuck you...
randomly starts singing...
loves anime...
loves sad songs...
plays guitar at least 3 hrs a day...
loves to drink everything beer/ whiskey/ vodka/ anything w/ alchohol or caffien...
loves to kiss...
writes love songs...
writes poetry...
writes quotes...
loves to quote "the crow"...
loves sad stories...
wants kids...
wants to get married...
wants a family...
my email is: aloneinlife7@yahoo.com
heres a link to see a vid of me just dicking around on guitar....
Saturday
Saturday March 3, 2007 seven of my friends were involved in a car accident.
The car flipped after turning a corner.
They woke up on the ground.
The car was completely totaled.
The police said they should have died.
I was in utter dismay.
This close call opened my eyes to how easily your life can be taken away from you.
I bawlled my eyes out.
No joke.
It was extremely shocking that something like that could happen just out of nowhere.
I have had four of my friends die withing the last year i dont want a fifth.
I was really freaking out that night.
It was insane.
Last Year
What happened to last year...
When nobody cared about anything...
But I guess your fear...
Of rejection got to you, and now your being...
The something that you sweared...
You wouldn't or couldn't have ever been...
What happened to you...
What happened to everything, why would you have to change...
And right now I don't have a care about...
Who you think I was becasue honestly I have been...
A better man than you people could ever be...
You just couldn't see...
I guess since last year you had to...
Just try to forget who...
You were when everything was cool...
And nobody actually knew...
What they wanted to be....
They were just having fun while we...
Could, and i miss the way it used to be...
Everyones accusing...
Me of not worthy...
Unable to be trusted...
They are just mad and they only...
See what I had done in the past...
Eventhough they weren't all that honest...
Back in the day...
In my case I'm still the same...
But peices of me have changed...
I am no longer the one who cheats...
I'm just the one who always gets blamed...
When my relationships get sour for everything...
I just because of who I used to be...
And they can't help but think...
That I haven't changed anything...
What happened to last year...
When nobody cared about anything...
But I guess your fear...
Of rejection got to you, and now your being...
The something that you sweared...
You wouldn't or couldn't have ever been...
What happened to you...
What happened to everything, why would you have to change...
And right now I don't have a care about...
Who you think I was becasue honestly I have been...
A better man than you people could ever be...
You just couldn't see...
Now that you are pissed off the wrong person isn't me...
Go Die
Well I dare you to speak to me again...
You might wind up dead...
I'm a crazy mother fucker...
There's something wrong in my head...
I want to see you die in from of them...
Just to see their fucked up discusted faces...
What the fuck are you thinking...
I don't give a fuck who you are...
All I know is you are going...
To die today, but don't worry...
I'll tell your family...
Bleed mother fucker...
Bleed mother fucker...
Get the fuck away or...
I might be forced...
To cut you into little heart...
Shaped peices, fucker...
Go die...
Go die...
Go die...
Go die...
Go die...
Go die...
I don't like you. You can go die. Send me pictures, so I can laugh at them as you bleed to death.
Well I dare you to speak to me again...
You might wind up dead...
I'm a crazy mother fucker...
There's something wrong in my head...
I want to see you die in from of them...
Just to see their fucked up discusted faces...
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Cars
I think its time to leave because this infatuation with guns has come...
To be a complete and utter obsession...
I think this might be the end but, who am I to say that what I have done...
Can be undone, and the reason is you are my gun...
This may seem utterly rediculous, and you start shun...
Me for trying to explain my reasons that I don't want...
To be like this anymore, and why I have begun...
To destroy all that we had...
If I am wrong at least I won't end up dead...
I have done what I can...
But I don't think its enough to say its the end...
If I pass out from the drugs...
Please don't wake me up...
And please let me dream of...
What could of been between us...
I am flashing back to that sun...
Less day that i thought I had won...
I can see us...
Embraced in the street as I was...
Wishing it would never end...
Now I think its time to send...
That memory out of my head...
Because I am bleeding from the inside and...
I'm killing my lonliness...
I'm losing my head...
I think its time to leave because this infatuation with guns has come...
To be a complete and utter obsession...
I think this might be the end but, who am I to say that what i have done...
Can be undone, and the reason is you are my gun...
This may seem utterly rediculous, and you start shun...
Me fort rying to explain my reasons that I don't want...
To be like this anymore, and why I have begun...
To forget everything we had...
And I am going mad...
With the thought of us hand in hand...
And the thought of myself as a man...
Letting my love go as if it wasn't...
Ever there, when the truth is that...
I wanted to have you forever...
I wanted to hold you and never...
Let go of this dream, and I would whisper...
Ever so softly I love you, I want you, I need you...
But now I bleed from my dead eyes...
Because I can't beleive my...
Life is falling from this five...
Story building, And into the street...
The cars don't slow down in time...
Epic
The battle waiges on
In my mind as my faith is lost
There may be just one chance left
It's too bad it involves death
And burn the light as I die
As I fall please do not cry
Because I will be battling my demons
In the depths of my version
Of hell which is this room
And the memories will accept their eventual doom
It is a battle of good and evil
And as I slit a demon's throught I will
Realize that I was wrong when I said
That to be good is as good as dead
Because this demonic bloodshed
Is probably what has lead
Me to this conclusion
I believe that this may just be an illusion
And now the demons will burn
In the pergatorial inferno
Now bleed through the eyes
And think of the demons who died
Defending what you made them belive was right
Kneel infront of the victor as he ends your life
I must now burn your copse
So that it can be seen from the heavens
And Satan will envy the flames
For they can be seen from the darkest
Parts of pergatory, The good get the glory
Now that the battle is just a memory
The battle waiges on
In my mind as my faith is lost
There may be just one chance left
It's too bad it involves death
And burn the light as I die
As I fall please do not cry
Because I will be battling my demons
In the depths of my version
Of hell which is this room
And the memories will accept their eventual doom
And as we rush through the heavens
We notice that our brothers
May also have fallen
The light shines from below
The body burns bright as though
A life still resides
But there is nothing inside
This corpse as it burns
I suddenly realize
