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ROCKGIRL77♥
Age: 15
Location: fucking ottawa baby!
Joined On: Sep 25, 2006
Occupation: Uh the imaginary one that i have! damn i get paid 1 million a hour?
Website: www.myspace.com/basketballro...
dont reallly get on this much anymore, but yahoo: claire_bball_07
AIM: basketballrox340
myspace: www.myspace.com/basketballrox340
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msn: emo_love_cc@live.com
so add me, comment evrythin lol
i like meetin new ppl soo fuckin add me on w/e u want idc
♥ claire (cc)
talk to them, they always respond!
woww....
i havent been on in forveerrrrrr!!!! uhm...yeah? i missed u all??? i think? lol yeahhhhh not much has changed here... im still me,,, the random girl you fell in love with.... yeahhhhhh got my cell back!! internets gone,,,, dads letting me on here :D call me! ♥ claire
grandapa we all miss u down on earth..... (my grampa died 6 yrs ago :[ )
todays the day
the anniversery
i didnt wanna leave for school
i miss you granpa
i wrote this for u, so when ur looking down on my from Heaven i want u to read this:
Grandpa, even when your dead ill love you forever,i miss how it was when you were around, everything's just so fucked up now. Joseph Rafiel V., a kick ass grandpa. 6 years ago you left the earth and went up to meet God, i know your the one who's looking down on me, watching over me, you give me the strength in the day, January 28th 2002 you left the earth, grampa i really didnt get the chance to know you as much as i wanted to, Folgers coffee suddenly looks like something i shouldnt chug in the morning before school, its something that has your spirit in it. You may not be here in your body, but your here. in spirit. living through all of us in the family. 6 years ago i didnt know how much of an impact death had on a family. i may have only been a child but i live by these words now: "Theres a time to be serious and the rest of your life, have fun, because little doll, life is short, make the most of it." You called Little Doll, now all im called is emo, and dad calls me Peanut, its not the same today. No today life, and time move slower grampa. Today im naturally sad, bad energy is flowing through me. why? because something or someone is missing in my life. its sad. its sad how you have to leave us so soon. my family has NEVER been the same. tonight dad's gonna drink. hell, he already drinks himself to sleep. thats the only reason he can sleep at night. me? dad'll offer me a few. i might take up the offer honestly. why? because this year it hit me hard. i wanna be called Little Doll today. not claire. today call me Little Doll, i may cry a little. but these are good tears running down my cheeck. granpa u understood me. you were patiant witht me. when i was little all i wanted to do was be like you. and i still do. honestly. i do. im not afraid to say it to the world!!!! today i wanna dress up like a 3 year old in my purple dress with the white flowers, and i would go down to the railroad where you worked, stand on the train and have someone take a picture of me like that. today i wanna be the the girl that stands on the train and look down with her hands on her cheecks going 'WOW!!! GRANDPA LOOK HOW HIGH I AM!!!'. grandpa i love you and miss you, we all do. Love, Little Doll
dou rember?
Do you remember when?
Remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground.
The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties.
Mom and Dad were your heros when they got rid of the monster under your bed or in your closet.
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were who ran the fastest.
War was a card game.
The only drug you knew of was couqh medicine.
Wearing skirts didn't make you a slut.
The only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike.
The only thing that hurt was skinned knees.
The only things that can get broken were your toys.
LIFE was simple and care free, but what i remember the most was wanting to grow up. To be like mom and dad.
okay so recent shit//new bf :)
okay so we alll know im going to indiana beach and lake geneva
so next friday i leave and get home on like sunday?? yeh somethin like that
my friend coreena went to the hospital she was dehideradted and somethin with her blood sugar put her in there idunnno how long
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so cody is PISSED at me cuz of Chris hes my boyfriend
cody dosnet like him AT ALL
honestly cody can go fuck himself, hes jelouse cuz i dumped his ass
he dosent like him alot cuz he lives in texas, im in illinios
and well cody just cant get over the fact i met someone new.
someone i love, and someone who accually loves me back, or loves me for me.
i dumped ur ass cuz ur a motherfucking flirt and i hate that about you and even though your still my best friend, i hate you cuz of this. you cant accept the fact i found love
and and of course you have to think u have to act like my dad to me.
you dont.
i dont get to fucking see my dad cuz he works all the time
you saw the poem about how i miss my dad
you thought it was a load of shit and that im being a fucking baby
fuck you.
you ruined my fun
you said i cheated on you?
nu-uh im not a cheater
i think you are
you're the one who cheated
and right now i cant stand you
now, now im with an honest guy
i dont give a fuck that hes bi
and you shouldnt ether
so you, go and crawl into your fucking hole
i dont give a shit about you anymore
fuck off.
no cody nothings fine
i hate you, but your still my bud
what the hell is wrong with me!??!
and chris, i love him
and he loves me for me
and dosent give a fuck why cops dont like me
or where i live
or who i hang-out with
i love him, for him.
i dont care bout the long distence shit
and cody you shoulnt ether
i wish i never kissed you somedays cody
and thats all i have to say
a poem to my dad... "Daddy i miss you...'
dad i miss you
why do you have to work so much?
sure i get to see you for 5 minutes in the morning
id rather give up some of my things to see you more
you work consently it drives me insane
cody has to step up and act like a dad to me
but daddy, lemme tell ya somethin
cody isnt a really good person to act like a dad to me
sometimes i wish he wouldnt be such a crazy influenece on my life
hes done everything, from arrested, smoking, drugs, drinking
and you expect me to go without someone like you in my life
he's just like me
i miss you in my life
you and mom are together. sometimes i wonder how...
its insane around here it gets crazy somedays
i wake up go to school, you sleep in, i get home to see a note on the table
i gave up my basketball finals to go on vacation
i gave up volleyball to MAYBE see you on the weekends
when i need someone to talk to cuz the cops stare at me its you, you went through it too
i cant go to mom
we dont get allong at all
sometimes it drives me insane
you wonder how i just dont run away somewhere
well daddy, to be honest i almost have, 4 times
3 times i was at codys, 1 time i made it a few towns over
i didnt last very long the last time
how do i do it?
i honestly have know fucking clue
can someone tell me how i make it through 9 periods?
tell me. go ahead tell me.
daddy i love you.
believe it or not, i love you
retrograde_orange
DUDE!! your going to indiana beach on my birthday!!!
posted Apr 17