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CHRISTIE_AM
Age: 17
Location: Houston, TX
Joined On: Dec 12, 2005
redfadestoblack
United States
oakridge #13
United States
James plays in the band A LIFE OF SCIENCE
Phoenix, AZ
spencerlane fan page
Allison Park, PA
life is such a sin
the rainbow of "please sign heres" shuffles in and out of encased compartments. It's called the "lets-pretend-we're-grownups" waltz. the "it-really-doesnt-matter-because-youre-just-a-name-and-a-face-and-a-paycheck-a-way-to-pay-for-my-latest-addiction" trot. the "i-couldnt-care less about you honestly i couldnt" shake.its like a preliminary guide to living and working and NOT CARAING in this cold dimension we call our LIVES ! how is this even living? walking and drinking mindless words we all love to speak. these ancient symbols and shapes meaning something far beyond what we like to think. these exact letters these shapes we register as words have killed thousands, and saved millions. they invoke happiness or sorrow. they could kill you or not really kill you. it could be the hope ibn someones life, but no one even thinks or CARES. not that it matters. i guess its always someone elses job to care. to wonder and care about the world. but what if every single person thought that ? everyone thinking its someone elses resonsibility. they dont want to have to be bothered with things like CARING ABOUT THE WORLD ! if everyone is thinking everything is someone else's problem, than it becomes everyones problem.
add some more sin
and suddenly im high on just a normal feeling. a normal sensation. are we that shut off from the world with our isolating instant gratification rituals ? that we really cant fell anything REALLY
THE SHIT KEEPS FLYING
hah well,
this horrible stuff happened with that boy over the summer. well. it didnt take place over the summer. but i found out about it over the summer. and well. i forgave him. i love him too much to let some ditzy girl spoil my happiness. sometimes when i think about it, it really hurts. but thats okay. there are too many times where it's the farthest thought from my mind and all i can think about is how much a freaking love him. and he adores me too. thats the best part. is that he loves me back. maybe he even loves me more. im not sure. but yesterday i got to see him for the first time in almost an entire month. i was so happy. i cried when he left. it was only for simply 10 minutes but it felt as if i hadnt been in his arms more than merely a second. why cant each minute feel like an eternity with him ? why does time have to go by, so quickly ? just being able to talk on the phone has kept us together for these summer months. just hearing his voice makes me smile. just thinking about him makes me happy. i miss him so much. i love him with every little last bit of me. but it breaks my heart knowing that one day, one day we're not going to love each other as much. that kills me. that day will come. but why dwell on something stupid like that? why not be happy right now ? i've cried so many times for him. each type of emotion spilling out in that water. i'm so silly. i dont know what is going to happen when we're both going to seperate schools next year. i hope so badly he is transfered to wunsche. i miss him terribly. he makes the world feel okay. like its not so much of a scary place. he makes me feel like im actually able to do something with my life. he makes so much sense in this chaotic word. hes the only thing that makes sense in my world. why would i ever let that go ? i'd be foolish. i love him more than i've ever loved anything else in this world.
and he drives me insane with desire.
NOW FEATURING
im still trying to figure out exactly how he makes me feel. he makes my skin burn for him and my body tingle and i go weak when he holds me. and im completely his. i want to hold onto him so tight and never let go. i just want him closer and closer until its impossible to hold him tighter.
never before
have a felt a stronger desire to just...
i dont know how to explain it.
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its crazy how much i just wanna.djfsdfjskldjf
i dont know. dont listen to me.
sdafsdjhfkjshdf. I WISH I COULD JUST EXPLAIN IT BUT I CANT!!! JASLFHASUDOIDFGV98
him7love
wtf is king kong doing in your pants??! i thought
claaaadia lived there fucking whore renting out my
space =( LOVEYA!!!!=P ahhh creeeepy
messagesss peeennnss ok im hyper reaaaaaaaaaaallly
hyper
posted Mar 19
vacilonapunk
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posted Feb 17
spencerlane fan page
Hey spencerlane fan! We wanted to let you know that we
are creating a page just for you all. More details
coming soon!Love,
posted Oct 04
NEVEL LEVEL SEVEN
tnx for the add and ttyl
posted Sep 10