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BROKEN HEART AND SHATTERED DREAMS
Age: 18
Location: somewhere in Oregon
Joined On: Apr 19, 2006
Occupation: loser
Website: www.if.you.accually.go.to.th...
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neverlostbass
The reason i live is to die for a cause, Oregon
DANCIN_AT_THE_DISCO
your pants
so i guess that means i should be dead... why arent i? hmmm oh well....ya so anyways....
Well lets see...((I)) like helping people who need help, talking to people who need to be talked to, trying to fix the hearts of broken hearted people... letting them know that i know how it feels to loose someone VERY special. it hurts... not like any other pain. its wierd though...idk ...its a good thing that *i dont love him anymore* But I do ((love)) my wonderful boyfriend. :)
I guess i should say more about myself.ha ha... im 5inches tall!!! jk im 5 ft. AND 5 inches tall...im 109 pounds right now...if im having a good day im 112, but on a bad day im 107. i have light brown hair and blue eyes... um ya idk....thats about it...i guess you can see that from the pics...haha... oh! i like playing in the snow in the summer....yes that is possible, you just go in the back of the ice arena. haha. i also like to go to parks and sit there and swing, so i can think. i love music...obviously...i like to write songs, and draw...and...other stuff. i also like to sing, and play guitar...
if ((you)) want to know more then ask.
i hope theres something here that might help you to see..i dont know...what a stupid FUCK i am...HA i like the word fuck!
-i leave money in my pocket when i wash my jeans and get happy when i find it and think its my moms so i take it.
-i slack off in school and then get pissed at myself for getting bad grades, but i never learn from myself.
-i love you for who you are, not who you wish you were.
-i would rather be told the truth and get hurt than to be lied to.
-i am afraid of the ghost midgets in my closet.
-i think feet are disgusting, and so is the word fetus.
-i love enchiladas, and i love them even more when i make and eat them with my best friend at 2 in the morning.
-my step grandma is mexican but cant speek spanish.
-i call Jeremy my "cousin", even though we apparently arent. who knew?
-my sister is still married but her and her husband have bf and gf's.
-if you call me anorexic, scene, goth, bulimic, drugie, or a fake, i will most likely be forced to kick your ass.
-i get sick if i dont eat sugar, but i also get sick if i eat too much, and my doctor says theres nothing wrong with me.
-i hate preps, not because they are popular and shit but because they all think that they are better than everyone else.
-i love to be a smart ass.
-i love to make people smile, and laugh.
-people who can scream (as in musically) are just plain awesome.
-i believe that life is too short to be serious.
-sometimes i cant spell worth shit.
-being around stupid people for too long makes me stupid.
-i like the song "sexy back". so sue me.
-i still have my cat's blanket on my bed so he can lay with me at night... even though he's no longer "here".
-i think of llife as everybody's born with a terminal illness.
-i dont like change, most of the time.
-i hit my bruises and say "it hurts when i do this" but i do it to see if all of a sudden it wont hurt anymore.
-i have always wondered if when i was like 5, i got hit in the head and went into a coma, and my whole life is just a dream.
-i still like/watch cartoons, like scooby doo, teenage mutant ninja turtles, spongebob, and the fairly oddparents.
-i tell my friends little brother and sister to ask me to come play with them at the mcdonalds playplace, just so i can play too.
-i am a part of PETA (people for the ethical treatment of animals) and still eat meat on occasion.
-no matter how much you ask me not to tell you what your food has in it, i will.
-i used to pretend that my juice was blood, or alcohol, and once someone actually believed me that it was blood. And many times people believe that its wine.
-i still have dreams about playing soccer, i guess its because i still love it, and wish i still played.
-i tell people that i hate hard practices in swimming, but i really love them because they make me feel good afterwards.
-i didnt think that "emo's" could play sports until i became "emo" and played a sport.
-i used to think Aladdin was hot, even though he was just a drawing.
-when i say that i dont care about what people think about me, i mean it.
-i hate when people ask me for advice or to be honest, and then get mad at me for what i say.
-i tell people to act their age, when half the time, i dont.
-i hate when people tell me to do something, and i say that i cant because of certain reasons, and then they force me to do it. Then get mad at me for doing what they said to do. ((stupid bitches i dont want to cuss you out.))
-i feel guilty for my actions even when i shouldnt.
-i hate people who do drugs. i despise them... drugs are stupid and ruin lives. its a very selfish thing to do. it hurts people around you, even ones you love. so i guess if you do them, you have no heart. plain as that.
-i'm a pessimist
-dont hate me just to hate me, hate me because you cant love me
-i only did this because i was extremely bored, and had to get my mind off of something.
This Is The Video That Made Me Become A Vegetarian.
Meet Your Meat
Please watch this, and pass it on to your friends and other people. Thank you, it means a lot. :)
Dont watch this if you have a weak stomach.
For more videos and ways to help stop this cruelty, go to
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Random
Random parts of songs....
i'll be there when your heart stops beating
i'll be there when your last breath's taken away
in the dark when there's no one listening
in the times when we both get carried away
Without it all,
I'm choking on nothing,
It's clear in my head,
that I'm screaming for something,
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.
Last call at the hospital
You slept through it all
And these four walls warn you
That your surgery, it might not be the key
To fix the memory of you and me
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you.
Do or die
You'll never make me
Because I won't
You'll never take my heart
And though they try
They'll never break me
They want it all
They wanna break this heart
Now I know that I cant make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your...
And I know there's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change...
So many bright lights that cast a shadow
But can I speak
Well, is it hard understanding?
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I cant speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey, if you stay, I'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say could stop me going home
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
ITS ALL LIES
you know what i really like? when people LIE to me! oh ya its the best feeling in the world, to find out one day that everything was a LIE! wow! i just had that great feeling today! it was sooo good! i dont understand why LIES are considered "bad", its really acually good! wow, i have been LIED to so much lately that i can really say this is the best part of my life so far! i hope someday you all can see how happy i am to be LIED to, i hope this never ends and nobody will just come out and tell me the truth! if you have ever LIED to me please do NOT tell me the truth! because i will get mad! because all i want to hear are LIES, and never the truth! LIES will never hurt you, or anybody else so just make your whole life a LIE! LIES will never consume the world, like everyone says! and it will deffinately not be contributed by all your LIES. i just wish that i could have LIED to you just as much you LIED to me becuase then you would be happy too!
..........by the way...that was all a LIE...incase your too stupid to figure it out!
FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU ALL!!!!!!!! GO TO FUCKING HELL!!!!...WHICH YOU ARE GOING TO DO ANYWAY, BECAUSE OF ALL YOUR FUCKING LIES!
if you havent LIED to me, like a big LIE, then dont worry about it! but if you have then this all applies too you! or if your a big LIAR and just happened to be attracted to this headline because you attracted to LIES, and everything to do with LIES!
BEST NIGHT/MORNING
last night/morning was the best night i have had in a LONGGGGG time! it was so much fun!
i went and hung out with two of my friends at 2 and it was really hot out so we went and bought a bunch of junk food and had a little picnic at the park. after that we came to my house and did some shit... and then we went to Taylors house to spend the night, while her parents were gone for the night and the next day. we made burgers and fries for dinner and then we did some more shit... then we waited till it got dark (around 10) and went outside with her older brother and played um...um...fuck! what was it called? OH! fugitive! (or something) we played it around her whole huge neighborhood for about an hour. that was REALLY fun!!!!! then we went to this park by her house and layed in the grass watching shooting stars, and we saw a UFO!!!! it was wierd! then at about 11:30 we walked to safeway cuz they are open till 1am and we got lunchables and energy drinks. the store was almost completely empty. anyways...then we got back to her house at about 12:30 and ate our crap. then me, taylor, candice, and ricky played an interesting game of monopoly until about 3 or so... not sure. then we all played video games (007 night fire, mariokart, and mario party) then some how her older brothers armpit hair came up and...it was really weird...then it was about 6:15 (taylor and ricky had about 30 min of tie breakers) and it was light outside. we were a little tired and taylor had to babysit at 2pm so we decided to get some sleep...so we got in bed and taylor wouldnt stop laughing... so after about 15 min of me and candice telling her to stfu she finally shut up. i was so happy that i could finally go to sleep...but then i starded laughing uncontrollably... and then we all fell asleep...talor fell asleep flipping me off, so that was really funny... but of coarse i cant sleep when its light outside, or sleep past 9... so i woke up about 9:30 and couldnt go back to sleep... i only got 3 hours of sleep, and the less sleep the more hyper...so i waited... and waited for them to all wake up, they finally did at about 11 cuz the phone rang. then we got up and tried to make french toast...(DID NOT WORK) then we made mickey mouse pankakes and ate them...i had the deformed old grandpa looking one.... then about 5 min later my mom came and picked me up so the fun was over :(... then i got sick and grumpy and very hot cuz it was like 1 million degrees here...and we dont have an air conditioner!...and ya...bleh.
but now tomorrow me and taylor are going to the mall, so hopefully that will be fun... wait... with taylor, things are always fun! :) then shes gonna spend the night! OH YA!
so this summer keeps getting better!
I made some bad decisions, and im sorry to all of you
Im sorry this is so damn long, but i had to get it all out. it would be really nice if you read this and let me know what you think, if its that im retarded or if your here for me, or whatever. well here it goes. i hope your ready.
so lately ive been so cuaght up in other peoples problems, which isnt bad, its just that i didnt stop to think about my own. yesterday i had the time to think about it. i was like "wow this really sucks." so i decided to make some "bad" decisions. i wont say what they were, but if you really want to know then ask, and i will tell. in early march i lost someone that i really cared about, some of you know what im talking about. He made me promise to not do something "bad", (wich i ended up doing last night). he acted like he really cared. well last weekend i pretty much found out that it was all just a lie. He ended up telling me about what he did. it was the same thing he told me not to do. he acted like it was all fun and games, and it didnt even matter. so i wanted to play his stupid little games. It is kinda like a cop arresting someone for rape, and the cop being all serious about it, and giving the person shit. but then goes out and rapes someone and laughs about it like its all a joke, and getting away with it. Its not fair that he can do that. i dont even think that he remembers the promise. it makes me so mad. also lately ive been having big problems with my family, we are all just falling apart. favorite/only grandpa about to die of alcohal piosonig because alcaholism runs in my family, brother that ill probably never see again, sisters that are making stupid decisions, parents that wont stop fighting, none of them can even begin to understand me, nor really give a fuck. this last tri i did the best ive done for a LONG time. i got really good grades - 2 As, 1 B, and 2 Cs. all they could say is you better do better next year. i dont know what i wanna do with my life. Oh and the fact that i cant fix those probems nor anybody elses, no matter how hard i try and how much i want to. that kills me, i mean i care about other people more than myself, so if i could fix anyones probems it would be one of theirs, not mine. my life is so confusing right now, and it feels like im in a roller coaster that i want to get off, but cant and im watching my whole life being lived from a different point of view. i hate it so much. we all have problems and i know mine might not be that bad, especially after hearing that one of my friends friend died yesterday. i cant say how sorry i am enough. i told you to be strong, but i cried for you and for him. i tell you to be strong even though im so weak. now i feel like that kid that made a stupid promise. theres so much more to this, like being emotionally and physically hurt by people, but i cant write anymore, my hand hurts. so anyways to let you all know incase your worried about me, ill get over it. i always do. ill be fine, ill work up my strength for the next time this happens. It also helps to know that you guys care, if you do, let me know. and some thanks to my two new friends that i met on here (robert and casey), thanks for talking to me, im so sorry for all thats been going wrong. if i had it my way everything would be perfect for you two.you guys are so nice, and really incredibly good looking. ;) and a very special thanks to my bestest friend Taylor! without her i would be nothing, i probably wouldnt even be here anymore. thanks for all your support, thanks for being here for me. please know i will ALWAYS return the favor! -to all of you. I love you all. i promise you all ill try not to make anymore "bad" decisions.
for all of you who accually read all this, thank you... it lets me know that you all care about me...either that or your just really bored and have nothing else to do. thanks for letting me spill my broken heart and guts out all over your nice shoes! again im sorry that this is so long, i just had to get it all out before i exploded! im also sorry if i wasted your time. well im gonna go now cuz the computer screne keeps moving. either that or im just really tierd...or going insane... nah im just tierd...i hope. :)
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX times 1 million
i love you all, and thanks again!
Cindy
BOREDOM KILLING ME!!!! PLEASE SAVE ME!!!!
ya so im so bored right now and.... i dont know what to say but that i am bored! i have nothing to do!!! No one to talk to!!!! Nothing Good to eat!!!! nothing good to watch!!! nothing good to listen to!!!! nothing to breath but nasty poluted air!!! No games to play!!! Nothing to playon my guitar!!!! Nobody to hug!!! Nothing to draw!!!! Nothing to stare at!!!!! No one to laugh at!!!! wow i just realized that I pretty much have nothing at all!!! My eyes burn from these tears... you think youd learn over these years... good things dont last forever...so what the hell am i supposed to do?..ya see? thats how bored i ammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!! ya soooooooooooooo i guess ill just talk to myself now!!!!...wait ....maybe not...thats too wierd! SO im doing absolutely nothing this summer and it really sucks major ass! anyways save me from boredom...TALK TO ME NOW!!!!....please?
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posted May 22
neverlostbass
Just enjoying my vaca. i won\'t be grtting back home
untill 12 tonight
posted Apr 02
__caseyxboom
well my mom died. but other than that i guess im ok. im
glad yr doin good.
posted Mar 01
__caseyxboom
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