I'm giving up.
Posted October 9, 2007
I'm Giving Up.
Im giving up.
Hey, what a surprise, right?
I've decided it doesnt matter anymore.
I dont care what people think.
I dont care what people say.
Im giving up.
All these years,
through good and bad,
I've been suffering.
Immune to emotion for sometime,
happy and crazy the next.
Now you all can see,
Im giving up.
I dont care anymore.
Thats been said a thousand times.
But this time,
I mean it.
I am going to do what I want to do,
not what you want me to do.
Say what you say,
think what you think.
Im giving up.
Now, when I say I'm giving up,
that doesnt mean Ill hide,
go away forever.
Dont thin this is the last of me.
When I say Im giving up,
I am no longer hiding.
I am giving up hiding.
So now you all can see who I really am.
Depressed,
angry as I may be,
I am immune to you.
To you and all your little people.
Confused,
bewildered as you may be,
it doesnt matter anymore than it ever did.
You know, I used to follow you.
Wish I were like you.
Wish I could be you.
Now I know,
my wishes arent exact.
Im giving up wishing.
I dont have a reason to be writing this.
I gave up emotion a long time ago.
Words dont make sense sometimes,
until you scribble them down.
That is why I am writing this.
I am giving up thinking.
I am not going to think about it anymore.
I am going to be free.
Do what I want,
Say what I want,
Go where I want.
I am immune to you.
You affect me no longer.
Your affliction took me over once,
but now it is gone,
I no longer long.
I am giving up you.
Dont get me wrong.
I will still stay with you.
But then again, maybe I wont.
Keep your friends close,
but keep your enemies closer.
Ever hear of that before?
No matter how hard I try,
I can not escape.
You hold me forever in your mind.
The future set,
until next year.
Where we can start over,
Again.
Next year.
The future.
I am giving up hope.
I will not plan my life any further.
Go only where I go,
Do only what I do.
I will not plan ahead very far.
Only to the next hour or so.
I am giving up my set future.
This is a lot to take in at once,
I suppose.
I have taken in more at a time,
more in one day,
more in one year.
I am still giving up.
Immune to emotion.
I do not care.
No longer hiding much.
No more following.
Time for me to break away.
To end this now.
I am giving up at last.
