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will you ever change?

will u ever change for many is just another song by the brilliant minds of typecast. but for me, it means a different thing. there's this one person whom ive already known for three years now. he used to be a drunkard, a drug user, an out-of-school youth, in short a major LOSER! but yeah he changed, he no longer does drug nor booze but thing is for me he just got worse. at the start of the marriage, he was okay. taking care of me and all. but at the middle of things it sort of turned to be a nightmare, there were curses, slaps and even punches left and right. words spoken that i have never thought id ever get to hear in my whole life. but yes i kept the marriage alive. but why? it's because of every girl who's inlove would tell you, "hey im INLOVE". at the later part of 2006, we had a third family member. at the dawn of my journey to motherhood i thought that the pain, the lies and the hurting and everything would stop. i was wrong, it grew deeper. as the days passed by i was nearly insane already. i had to work, had to take care of the baby inside my womb and carry the hurt that i have in my heart. i felt no support from my better half. when i gave birth, i still wanted to keep my optimism maybe because i wanted a tight family for my kid. but you know i was wrong... a person like him will never ever change, it's been 36 months in counting but still there are no traces of him getting a job and feeling my struggle, or him taking care of us or even protecting me and our son. so yeah the sun has gone and the weather has changed, hoping that he would see how much i love him but well i guess i was never worth it.

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