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BRANDNEWFREAK
Age: 8
Location: just out of reach
Joined On: May 28, 2007
Occupation: professional lipsyncher
thealmostlastmelon
California
I am who I am and that's who I'll always be. If you don't like it, that's ok because you were going to make a desicion on me whether you got to know me or not. People are going to deicde who I am without even asking me so I might as well be who I am while they are doing it. I tell it like it is. I don't hide. I am not scared of confrontation, just scared of the outcome. I don't mind you saying you hate me just don't go starting crap about me because of it. I don't believe in lying to get your way. I am very blunt. I hope I don't offend you but if I do then let me know why. We'll deal with it then.
its over
this high was running off of from him is now over. sadly. because i know. he'll never even like me. nothing. i know where i stand. nowhere. is a lonely place to be. again.
*happyface*
so we hung out today. again. and i was right. its not about us being 'together'. its about being around him. i just feel so happy. im so not lonely. im so content. just something about him. but i totally had a DUH! moment around him today. and it isnt until now that im even really embarrassed about it. i barely even thought about it. thats how comfortable i am around him. maybe he likes me back. somehow i doubt it but its ok. like i said its about being around him not being 'with' him.
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there used to be a time when i believed in love. i dont know if i do anymore. but i believe in me. and i believe in you. there isnt really anything else. im happy around you. im content. i dont need to hold on tight. i dont need you to tell me you love me. i dont even know if you do. but you and i. were just us. as ive said in an earlier blog. im fine just being around you. i dont think we'll ever be together. but together is overrated. right?
me minus you
you know. i like the me i am without you. because im me. im not suffocating. strangled by 'help'. so im glad you finally left. although you keep trying to sneak back in. i sware though. ill never let you back in. you call me cold. you call me mean. but believe me. im better off without you. and youre better off without me. i promise. so if you cant handle me minus you. then change. because right now. the only way i like me. is me minus you.
him again
so we hung out tonight and i cant help but really like him. im just so comfortable around him. and its not that hes really funny. or really charming. or really anything. he just makes me feel so comfortable. and now i dont know what to do. and i mean its not like hes EVERYTHING to me. but hes important. i really love being around him. the way we act together. it was odd to touch his hand though. i didnt even realize it at first. it felt normal. right. an amazing feeling. not giddy. or stupid. just right. like we fit together. we just do. i dont think he'll ever notice me. but i think its ok if he doesnt. because i just like being around him. everything is just right.
angie rose*
thanks i try haha
posted 2 week ago