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BLUEEYEDBABYGIRL15
the pain i feel
i cant stand to live in this place i call home, i hate not being able to have a life, one to call my own, i do everything you say but it isnt good enough, you hit me, scream and yell, i run to the bathroom and lock the door, thats the place i call my safe haven, i go to the mirror and look, my make up is running, i have black running down my cheeks, i hate feeling this way day in and day out, i run the water in the tub, its steaming hot, i open the cabinet and take out a razor, i say to myself this is the only way to get out of here, i write a letter tellin my boy i love him to death but hes better off without me, and one to my family telling them they drove me to this, i take off my clothes and get in the tub, i cut myself and i dont feel a thing, i see the blood but dont feel the pain, i cut again and again and again, i slip into unconciensness, isee a dark light, i know im dead and your better off without me
Today is not a good day for me, one of my best friends and i got into a fight, i dont think we are friends anymore, idk y we fought but i have a feeling y, anyways tonite i go to yg, hopefully its fun, i need something to take my mind off of doin that (look above). anyways hope everyone is doing fine
love ya'll
life so far
so far everythings okay i guess, last friday i got to see my girls chloe and colleen, had sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun, acted like we were drunk, told stories we wouldnt say in front of guys! soooo awesome! wednesday tried to do a human video which didnt quiet work out right cuz i guess we all were a lil drunk that night, had a great time with gerald! hes soooooooooo awesome and im soooooooooooo happy with him!
>>sugarsweetrose
she does? why u think that......actually come to think
of it she mite have sed so just that.....oh well idk
lol hes awesome (most of the time) ;) lol
posted Oct 19
>>sugarsweetrose
haha yeah wed. was so fun, im so glad ur happy with
gerald! :-D
posted Oct 18
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posted Oct 05
>>sugarsweetrose
hey grrl! luv your new pix! i would get new pix of my
own but i look so stupid on a pix and colleen rarely
lets me use her webcam, mines broke. we\'ll ttul! luv u
grrl! ~Chlo-Stick~
posted Sep 01