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Important info to read if you want to read my lyrics!!!
Posted December 31 | Leave a Comment
Okay, so you might have noticed that the lyrics don't seem to be listed on the list of blogs. That's cuz purevolume only lists the five most recent blogs. But if you click on any of them, all of them show up. My lyrics are at the end of the lists. I suggest, since they are listed chronologically from the end, is the start at the last page on the bottom and work your way up, even though that may get a bit annoying. Also, since there's only oh so much room for each page to list the blogs, it get… read more
Fucked it Up For Good
Posted January 29 | Leave a Comment
I'm guessing on the date, but.... Okay, so for a short while, if you've noticed, my gf added me back as a friend both here and on myspace. But as you can see now, she's off... Anyways, here's how I totally fucked it up this time. So she sent me a message on Myspace one day on Jan. 22 and so we've been talking like one or two messages a day since then, until one day about a week after, my dad caught me with a message from her, and so he asked me if we were still talking. I hate lying, no matte… read more
Official Breakup.... *cry*
Posted January 8 | Leave a Comment
...if you have been reading my past blogs, you might have known about the complications my gf and i have been having. anyways, i haven't been able to contact her since the last time i said i could. anyways, as you can see, she is off of my friends list, and if you've noticed, she's off of my myspace friends and my MSN list as well. i have officially decided that it's over, even tho i can't tell her in anyway, although the date i will keep in my mind is still going to be when she broke up with… read more
20 Fucking Years...
Posted December 23 | Leave a Comment
It's December 23rd, 2006, two days before Christmas, my parents' 20th anniversary... not only that, it's a disaster. I'm holding my third glass of wine as I write this blog at 1929 hours, wanting to drink myself away. It's really hard without the one you love; I've been talking about her all along. Well, first I'll tell you our current relationship: we're still together, just holding an open relationship. But even still, it's hard because my dad called her dad, telling her that he doesn't lik… read more
Life Stolen, Dreams Shattered...
Posted December 15 | Leave a Comment
HORRIBLE day today... first i wake up to find out there's no school, which you may think is good, but i have to make it up at the end of the year, and i have so much stuff that is pushed back until the new year or after winter break... anyways, so i'm home, and my mom leaves for work, so i decide to sneak in the backyard and have a smoke since my parents dont [didn't] know i smoked and so when i come back in, my mom is there because she came back because she forgot that my sis might have schoo… read more
'Til Death Do Us Part... And Now We Part
Posted December 4 | Leave a Comment
December 4th, 2006 1513 GMT I received an e-mail. First I see that it's from the one I love, and I am already excited, but I read the subject line, and it says "sry babe but i have to" and I know what it's about. The previous weekend, my dad has been making a big fuss out of her calling me and shit like that; I know he really hated her and he didn't think I really loved her; he wanted to break us up. Even before this, we've been off and on because of our distance and because of my dad. This t… read more
DEATH
Posted September 24 | Leave a Comment
Well, for a short time, i stopped cutting myself because my gf didn't want me to, and the one day i start again because she said she didn't care anymore, my dad somehow finds out. i was really sad a few days before on friday the 22nd because my school had a 90 minute assembly that reflected the columbing high school shooting. they showed various videos and in them, i witnessed about 27 deaths and 19 injuries, and it was really depressing. later that day, my health class also showed a video tha… read more
Aki Matsuri: Japanese Fall Festival
Posted September 9 | Leave a Comment
Sunday Sep. 9, 2006 1000-1800 Okay, this Saturday is the first day of the annual Aki Matsuri, the Japanese Fall Festival that everyone's been soooo looking forward to! Haha I stayed there practically the whole day! In fact, I arrived half an hour before the whole thing was ready! I got to see the people setting up their booths and rushing to prepare as the visitors started entering the building, awaiting their fun. Well, I was searching for my school's booth (which I later found out that this… read more
Losing a Friend when Gaining a Girlfriend....
Posted September 3 | Leave a Comment
Recently, i changed my music preferences, and it seems like my whole personality has changed since then. i've been depressed before i changed, and i think that's actually wut triggered my reaction. i turned to metal and death metal, etc. and so after that, it seems i've gotten to be more evil and satanic; not only that but being more open with it too. as in starting to cut myself, learning to do screamo and death metal voices, and NOT HIDING IT!!! anyways so my dad saw my wrist all scarred and… read more
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted August 26 | Leave a Comment
E I TOTALLY MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! Okayz, so I just got back from a 8 day 7 night cruise to alaska, and i met this hot emo (or emic) chick, Elizabeth (only i call her E) and she took my first kiss. Yeah i'm totally falling for her, but idk, i'm still planning on ........ *read last blog* so idk....... she lives in vancouver like two and a half hours away from me, and my dad, being the overprotective asshole that he is.............. he's trying to pull me away from her..... T_T oh well, fuck him… read more
My life is a misery......
Posted August 17 | Leave a Comment
0021 hours, I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight..... I go on a roadtrip back to Seattle tomorrow to go on a seven day cruise to Alaska...... but I lose two friends in doing so...... actually, I'll lose them regardless...... and I'm going to lose it all after the cruise. I may not post another blog again, as I won't be able to get online during the cruise, and afterwards, I'm planning to off myself... I can't take this life anymore! I can't stand Allie, I can't stand my parents, I can't st… read more
LYRICS: Untitled
Posted January 20 | Leave a Comment
Dedicated to Shelby and James Title: [Untitled] Artist: Adaku CD: N/A Track: N/A V1: To find the love I wanted I fucked up And left but A pile of nothing for my use To try and make things better Instead I needed yours To find the one I needed You are that one But you slipped away so Ill just move on To what I want Chorus: The only thing that will mend this heart But something more Than just a kiss But a love that will last forever To be right there at your door To more than friends But I wo… read more
LYRICS: Troubled and Hurt
Posted January 19 | Leave a Comment
Title: Troubled and Hurt Artist: Adaku CD: N/A Track: N/A V1: Falling asleep but I Dont wanna close my eyes I wanna see that ugly face of mine Still, I'm tossing and turning I cant make up my mind Should I stick together Should I leave it all behind This one last time to shine Biting my nails Wiping the blood off of my lips And taste the venom of my audience Staring and mocking at the masochist Ripping and tearing apart all sadists Cuz youre the next one on my list! Chorus: Troubled and hurt… read more
LYRICS: Strangers
Posted January 18 | Leave a Comment
Title: Strangers Artist: Adaku CD: N/A Track: N/A V1: They dont seem to see me They dont seem to notice when I wave They dont seem to know me They dont seem to understand me I seem to walk these streets alone (echo) I try to change the future Tremble as I stumble I try to make a difference I try to make a difference ~~~ Breaking sounds Loud and clear But they dont seem to ever hear Deaf and dumb I walk through Hell Tripping on each word Pitiful enough to care Someone fucking save me! Chorus1… read more
LYRICS: I Will Get You Back (Forever for a Lifetime)
Posted January 17 | Leave a Comment
Title:I Will Get You Back (Forever for a Lifetime) Artist:Adaku CD: N/A Track: N/A V1: I've failed, I'm sorry Please try to, forgive me But I can't leave you And you can't see me But when I'm right in front of your eyes We're torn apart Come so close to Fade away Just die away ~~~~~ I have conquered my fears I've even crossed the line But I can't find you Because I hide from you Hide from the unknown Come so close to Fade away Just die away Pre-chorus: Time for the breath of life Time for th… read more
