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BLONDEGUITARSPAZZ
Age: 16
Location: life!
Joined On: Apr 08, 2007
Occupation: student
Website: www.myspace.com/photogenticb...
hey they names anDRea!! I LIVE FOR MUSIC... i love writing and drawing.... i love to be around friends and having a great time... i love playing guitar both acoustic and electric. i love being my self whether threw outter appearance or threw the way i speak. and people, BE YOU! dont let other people tell you who you are suppose to be ... be yoursellf....RAWR!..lol.. ummm i would say im pretty random.. if you ever need someone to talk to i will always be here to listen and try my best to help you in any way possible no matter the miles between us...! :) FACEBOOK: avaughan_28@yahoo.com or MYSPACE: www.myspace.com/photogenticblond
familiar feeling
the pain is here again.
theres no saying when it will leave
im sorry if i am not goood enough
i just cant stop making mistakes
a broken heart is what i deserve
but i guess you know that already
i was foolish thinknig i had a chance
then again
i am foolish for thinking there is someone out there who wants me
i cannot keep believing you
for then i am only asking to get hurt
i dont understand but probally never will
so its ok i guess
ill take my life with me and we will waste away
in a world where no one cares
is this what it is...
Could it be he's another lost love? Was I wrong again? He seemed so familiar. Like I knew him for ages. There were freaky similarities. It felt like destiny was attacking my dreams.
But no the truth was right in front of me. It's so clear I cant believe I didn't see. He isn't what I need my heart got lost and stole the best of me.
Those butterflies were only a disease and those smiles were only mistakes. The feelings were all made-up. The tears were only fake.
So what if we are somewhat alike. So what if we compare. The lives we lead are so different but you obviously don't care.
Your face is so beautiful, and your smile so sincere. You lie to me for sure when you say that there's nothing we can't do. Looks can be deceiving, so why should I keep believing, I have other things to do.
Being your hold and being your flirt is something I easily avert. I simply am a girl, a failure to some but there is one thing I consider done.
It's no longer fear. I am no longer to blame. You cannot break me. My heart belongs to me.
If you really wanted me, I'm sure it would have shown.
[[poem]] one for the rest
leaving is believing right?
you seem to think.
theres nothing cynical about it
you lied then left
like many times before
you come back and cry
wanting to start all over
well goodbye to that
i feel betrayed and used
the hurt and the tears
replace the warm feelings.
nothings changed
not one thing
you keep saying it will be fine
we will all get threw this together
i laugh
not because i dont care
but becasue i know it wont
i used to tell my self to have hope
but that was all a lie i convinced myself would work
that hope i held onto
only created weak feelings
nothing can change what has happened
we cannot relive those times
those years, those moments, those tears are gone
maybe the only option left
is to say our final goodbyes?
[poem]] not much else to say
idk what to do ne more..
i feel horrible about myself...
i feel horrible there are so many problems at home
i feel at fault tho i know im not..
i feel betrayed by loved ones..
[[ i feel like shit]]
i dont want her to leave my life..
but i cant take the fights anymore
i cant deal with the lies
the games
the manipulating
i cant take the nights they both are gone
i fear something will happen to either of em
i love them both [the same]
i just want everything to be okay..
guess thats alot easier said than done.
sorry i cant be perfect
poem for a friend i lost to a car wreck
i lost one of my childhood friends to drinking and driving. tho it was hard for me to handle, i know it was even more difficult for his parents. this is a poem i write for his parents speaking for him.
Our Tears Dont Mean Farewell
Dont you worry about me
It sure was hard to say goodbye
But everything here is so calm
Im not in any pain nor am I afraid
Now Im here to stay
And I know you and dad are sad
And miss you all so deeply
But Jesus called my name
And I answered Jesus call
Jesus and I have had a talk
He told me not to worry
He said it would not be long
Then you and dad will hold me
And to my dear sister I cannot wait
Until we can play again like we were 8
I hope you know Im in a better place now
O please dont cry any more
But understand my leaving
I didnt want to hurt you at all
But my Father here in Heaven
He had my bed prepared
And now I will lie at rest at night
And dream of you holding me tight
Never let your heart forget
The never-ending love we share
For in the end this love will take us
To a place we will all call home
You and Dad, you did your best
Now lets leave Jesus to the rest.
tx_guitar
Why are Australia and Africa dangerous? Is that what
your parents are telling you?
posted Mar 29
HarmfulxCore
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posted Mar 13
tx_guitar
Traveling is fun. I hope to do more of it as soon as
I'm done with school. Where would you like to see most?
posted Mar 11
tx_guitar
I was. I hope to go back this summer. There was a lake
near there that was just amazing. Do you go camping
much?
posted Mar 11
tx_guitar
Thanks. That was from a camping trip a couple of
summers ago. It is out in the Appalachian mountains.
posted Mar 11
tx_guitar
Hey, how are you?
posted Mar 09
tx_guitar
Sure. How are you?
posted Mar 07
afirocker5986
i\'ve been fantastic! Well, yeah I\'ve been really busy
with school that\'s why I\'ve been having trouble
writing you back. I\'ve been so busy...anyway have a
fantastic day! ttyl
posted Feb 05