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Age: 17
Location: Ridgedale, MO
Joined On: Sep 11, 2008
MaRcE
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David
United States
♥Bonita♥
United States
my name is shelby. i am straightedge. i have two little brothers. both step brothers. i live with my mom and step dad. i love music. it is my passion. i am in love with a fictional character lol. i love anything with vampires in it. i write a lot of poetry. i am definitely a rocker girl. i am a bisexual. i love paint-ball even though i've only played once. i love target practice. my fav hand gun is a P-89. they are the shit. i hate drama and i won't put up with it if you try to start any with me. i hate people who are fake. they piss me off. i am a very real person. i will tell you straight up if you say or do something to piss me off or if i just don't like you you'll know it. my best friend's name is brea. she is the coolest person ever. i am a really nice person until you start crap with me then i'm a total bitch. i like talking to people and meeting new people. i love all forms off rock. i've had my heart broken many times so i have learned to be strong and one day when i meet the one then maybe i can fall in love again. and i am not one to easily fall in and out of love even though i am a hopeless romantic. i believe the phrase "i love you" is used too lightly and i won't say it to someone unless i mean it. people toss it around like it doesn't mean anything. my dad and mom are some of my best friends. my father wasn't much of a father until about two years ago but i have always been a daddy's girl. i am really close to both my mom and dad. i believe that you can't base a persons personality off how they dress. you have to actually get to know them. i like all kinds of music except country. i can't stand it! i mainly listen to all types of rock though. i love dane cook. he is friggin' hilarious!!!! i also love jeff dunham. peanut and walter are my favorites. i am kinda a nerd. i love school and i make good grades. i've known where i want to attend college and what i want to go for since i was in eighth grade. college of the ozarks. music-major and musical education-minor. music all the way baby. thats my life. i am a christian. i'm constantly trying to better myself in all aspects of my life. i enjoy being spoiled even though it is weird to me because i don't like people outside of my family spending money on me. i'm also not about the material items a guy can give me in a relationship. your relationship need to be about your love and respect for each other not about what he can get you. thats just shallow. and if he doesn't want to be in the relationship don't guilt trip him into staying with because that will just make things worse in the future. if its meant to be it will happen. thats about it
"Fianally Figuring It Out "may be falling apart.
okay so this past weekend was absolutely amazing and i am really starting to fall for jeff. but now ty wants me back. like he kissed me yesterday knowing that i am dating someone and he is doing everything he can to get me back and its really messing with my head and i'm not sure how to deal with it. okay so this past weekend was prom at both my school and jeff's school and i went to both. it was a lot of fun and we got lots of pics that i will hopefully have posted soon. well during a slow song (trouble by coldplay, which is one of jeff's favorite bands)he and i were slow dancing and he leaned in and whispered in my ear "shelby? will you be my girlfriend?" i said yes of course and he and i talk on the phone every night for at least an hour and a half. and i hate talking on the phone. he's a truely amazing guy and i will get to see him tomorrow night. hes coming out to my house to have a movie night with me and my parents. and like my parents love him. and my gma who lives with us thinks that he is sexy which is just odd...anyway. ty has been texting me non-stop for the past couple of days and hes really wants me to take him back and he knows that i still love him and ugh...i just don't know what to do. they are both really amazing, really great guys, and they both make me really happy. i'm so torn right now. my parents don't want me to take ty back. they told me i couldn't have my car if i did. but i really can't help how i feel. this is all starting to bring me down. i don't want to hurt jeff but i am afraid that it may be enevitable...and that scares me. i'm gonna have to hurt someone and i really don't want to do it. and at the moment...ty is the one suffering. i just can't hurt jeff nor do i want to. i really care about him and i won't hurt him...anyone have any advice?
i feel so amazing
lol okay so i had the most amazing weekend. like no joke. okay so the day after ty and i broke up my friend tyler (i know weird right) called me and he was like hey sweetie what are you doing this weekend and i was like well i have a show choir thing all day friday and saturday (which is why i was not online friday) why? and he goes well i want to set you up with my friend jeff. kinda like a double/blind date thing. so i told him and would talk to my parents about it and call him back. so i did and they said i could go. so they picked me up from the tri lakes center after my show choir thing was over and we go in the car and we all started talking and we picked up ashley (tylers girlfriend) and went to chili's for dinner. i let him order for me and he ordered us both guiltless blackbean burgers (we are all vegetarians) and it was really good. i still have half of it. well anyway after dinner we went to the movies to see what time the movie we wanted to see was playing and it didn't start until nine fifty five. so we went over to lovings (teen hangout place just across the street) and sat down in the cafe and started talking and really getting to know each other. this guy is so amazing like no joke. i really like him. like before the end of the night we were already finishing each others sentences. thats how well we hit it off. then we went to the movies and we were texting back and forth on my phone and talking and we eventually started holding hands and i laid my head on his shoulder and he kept kissing my forehead so i typed a message on my phone that said that he was giving me butterflies and he goes butterflies don't even begin to explain the way i feel right now. i was like aw! well then somehow the subject of kissing came up and he was like i've never been kissed and i was like really and he goes yeah i'm kind of embarrassed now but its okay. i was like well i have actually wanted to kiss you for a while now and he goes i would love it if you kissed me honey so i put my phone away and i kissed him. and my friend tyler saw and he like hit ashley on the arm and pointed at us and went yes really quitely. like i didn't see any of it but he showed us what he did and i laughed. i had so much fun. he is such an amazing guy. and like tyler and jeff took me home after the movie and my mom was like i want to meet him when he gets here so we got to my house at like 12 30 and they ended up staying at my house for an hour and a half talking to my mom and i and both of my parents really like him. he and i are going to his prom together on saturday. which is the same day as mine and i already have a date (ty) and he dumped me but we were still going together. but jeff's prom starts an hour after mine so i am gonna go to mine for an hour and then he is going to come pick me up. and we are going to go to his. after prom we are going to a straightedge after party that my friend tyler is throwing so i am uber excited. anyway i g2g.
heartbroken
so i'm pretty sure my boyfriend ty is breaking up with me...i am praying that he doesn't because it will seriously kill me...i love him so much. more than i have ever loved anyone. he is so amazing and perfect and he treats me so great...hes just....ugh perfect...i don't know what to do. hes been acting weird all day. two of my friends and one of my teachers have told me that i just need to give him time right now. i texted him during my 6th hour and i was like baby...is everything okay? something seems kinda...off. whats wrong and he texted back "sorta." so i said whats wrong and he goes its complicated and i said what is it i'm like freaking out and he said its just...idk. so all i sent him back was ... and he goes ...i'm sorry so i said i think we need to talk after class and i went up to him when the bell rang and i said so whats going on and he said i don't know. i started crying and i hate crying and i never cry in front of people and i said i don't understand...i really don't understand and he just stood there looking at me and i just looked back at him crying and said i'm just going to go to class and i cried all hour...then after school i went up to him and we just stood there and he didn't say anything and so i said are you breaking up with me and he didn't respond and i said should i take that as a yes and he goes well i don't know how to say it i go its really easy you just say shelby i don't want to be with you anymore and he didn't say anything so i asked why and he goes we don't ever see each other outside of school and like we talk after school but we just have a school relationship i go ty all you have to do is talk to my mom and plan something its not that hard and after next week all my choir s*** is going to be over and i won't have anything going on. he didn't say anything and i just handed him his hoodie and walked away. then i went up to my best friend who is also his best friend and she took my phone and is texting him now. so idk what is going to happen. i need help!
forsaken. (a poem i wrote that i want to turn into a song somehow)
you say "i love you" i say it back you say "i love you more" i say "you don't" but then we kiss and start to make out as we lie the in bed i have no doubts i wanted to be with you forever but you just want to be with me now you took my innocense and it was God i let down i gave you my gift and you took it for granted everything i had you just took advantage did you ever really love me did you ever really care did you ever want to be with me were you ever really there when you took my virginity did you ever really see all the pain i had buried all the pain inside of me to tell you the truth it wasn't all that great it actually really hurt as you broke that membrane and now here i lie thinking of that night when you made me fall in love when you held me so tight but everytime i think about it it makes me want to cry knowing that i let so many down and all i want to do it die now you're gone so maybe i can heal but my heart is just so broken that pain is all it feels now it bleeds that's all, it bleeds and its all your damn fault but like i'll ever let you see all you ever caused was pain you played your game like you always do you cheated on me and used me so how can i forgive you you're not worth the tears i've cried or the love that's in my heart you shattered me and completely tore me apart you never deserved me or the pleasure of taking my virginity why did i fall for all your lies all its made me do it cry for hell hath no fury in which i have not partaken but it is by you that i was forsaken
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