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AWAT17
Age: 17
Location: a little town in texas.
Joined On: Apr 12, 2006
Occupation: teenager.
Website: www.myspace.com/hothotamanda
hahahha OH WOW.
i finally figured out my way back onto this site. man so much has changed since my last blog. i broke up with that freshman.. cheated on him too many times. i made some pretty bad choices this past year. partied alot. had alot of sex. its whatever though. i got smarter about it. cause dont get me wrong i love to party, but now i know how to be smart about it i guess. and im also no longer throwing myself into bed with guys. hopefully my actions will hold up my words, but thank you hpv for opening my eyes. i got a treatment for it. things will be better. it scarred me shitless though. i found out who really means something to me, i now know who i can count on, and who i can really call a friend. and i fell in love. his name is nathan. its been almost five months. hes 18 and graduated from a different school. hes awesome.. weve got our problems.. like how hes still got a wall up on me that he peaks over occasionally. he told me im different. goddamn hes such a good kisser. annnnddd.. hahaha. ;] i got back into running after some physical therapy. i tried out for captain. i didnt make it. im not so upset about it anymore. the other girls are better for the job. things are working out for me for the most part again. im about to be a senior. im in california right now. i miss my boyfriend. and i miss my friends. but im okay. im strong again. im hoping for a safer year.
i forgot about this site..
oh well.
i cant run right now..
again.
bruce and i are done.
i just give up pretty much.
im dating a freshman.
im a huge slut.
i party a little noww.
what else is new.
i hate myself.
i have a tendency to forget about this site...
maynn long time no blog.
quick update.
this cross country season went freaking amazing.
i improved so much.
friday was our district meet and i ran my best time ever.
i almost broke thirteen minutes for two miles.
14:01.
dayummmuttt.
oh well.
i ran my freaking ass off.
im no longer a middle girl anymore though.
ive been coming in the top quarter of my races.
friday i was 35th outta over 100..
my lowestplace has been 71st out of over 250 girls.
yeah.
weve got a new coach and i absolutley admire him.
hes pushed us to new limits and wont let us sette.
the JVG team has placed third [district], second, and first at some meets.
this season was just.great.
anyways.
i have a new boyfriend.
hes a freshamn, and he drives me fucking crazy with some of the things he does,
but he is so sweet, its hard to let go of him..
speaking of hard to let go.
bruce and i are becoming friends again.
him and i went to go get donuts thursday morning.
he paid.i drove..
even though im not supposed to be driving.
i got my car taken away the whole summer and the first six weeks of school.
i had it back for a week before i got caight giving a friend a ride home.
hahaa.
it sucks buuutt..
i knew better.
im a junior in highschool now.
finally an upper classman.
i have only gotten high like.
twice this school year
at the very end of summer, or the very begining of the school year.
ive turned it down three times so far.
all in the past two weeks, by the way.
im proud of myself.
i havent like..full on quit, i just dont feel the need to do it.
like, those three times, ive wanted to, but i just wouldnt right now.
i dont want to fuck anything up.
haha.
ive only gotten barly barly tipsy twice.
this year is a mega improvement from last so far..
at least the end of last year.
homecoming was a little depressing:/
theres somethings that can never compare to last year.
oh.our football team sucks ass this year.
we won homecoming.thats about it.
barly.
well.
im out for another month or so.
hahaa.
peace.
:amanda.
summer is almost over
thank god.
cause i cant wait to get this year started.
long time no blog.
i went to a party the other night.
drank a little
didnt get drunk
i had no intention of doing that.
anyways.
i saw josh.
yeah.
he was there.
of all parties.
he was there.
i called him that night.
we talked for like
an hour.
he was sorry.
he told me he liked me.
my gawd i could fall in love.
of all guys ive been with
of the two ive loved
he is the one i want to be with
i dont want to say im in love with him..
but i dont know.
im starting to wonder how many times a person could be in love.
russell probably wasnt real.
i was young
stupid
and it just seemed so cool..
bruce..
i think that was real.
he was so amazing.
it was just breaking up and learning to deal with it
that was the hard part.
oh.
i dont care about him anymore.
we can be friends..
other than that.
oh well.
i have a crush on matt.
he graduated this past year.
we hung out the other day for awhile.
i skipped work.
he picked me up
went to his house
watched a movie
pillow fought.
tickled
kissed
fooled around.
and something about hooking up with him
changed everything
and made me feel like a shitty person.
were not dating
he doesnt even like me
he doesn really even know me.
but he said he was sure
i thought id be okay..
there was just something way different of the way he was.
the way hed touch me..
and he asked if i was okay
again and again.
i just dont want him to regret
his first time.
yeah.
:/
so.
im officialy done with hooking up.
im done with this bullshit.
i am going to be dating the person
they are going to mean something more to me
they are going to passionate about it
and wait for me untill the time is right.
i am not going to FUCK anymore.
anyways.
cross country is going amazing.
i ran with some of the top girls the other day.
it was effing HARRRRD, but worth it.
i was so proud of myself.
so was coach and mal.
i have a crush on chris form the team.
:/ no bueno.
speaking of bueno.
im working at sonic now.
hahahaa.
peace.
so i hate it when.
you get an old disposable camera developed,
not really knowing what youre going to find..
and when you open that envelope up,
the first thing you see is the one you loved..
and the next picture is of the two of you..
he was kissing my cheek.
its such a cute picture.
last night i got really upset about him again.
i just wish i could make it stop.
anyways.
im reading harry potter:]
its good.
my first day of work is today.
well, new work.
SONIC BITCHESSS.
im stoked:]
peace.
:amanda.
rach*l
omg. that\'s freakin amazingggg. i love it.
posted Jul 01
karpenter's kids
haha---you\'re right: and you probably get paid more
than I do! haha But if you were to politely ask me how
I do it, and do this on top of already getting paid for
sitting at a desk, you could even MORE! lol PS: Yeah,
about the porn girl...it was so totally God....I mean,
there\'s no way that it would\'ve happened if he
hadn\'t have already been working in her heart.
posted Jun 27
karpenter's kids
thanks for adding us!
posted Jun 26
rach*l
dude. that picture is amazinggg. dude. we\'re hanging
out as soon as you get home.
posted Jun 26
rach*l
yes ma\'am it does. :[ and if you find a solution to
the problem, let me know! :]
posted Jun 25
karpenter's kids
Ah, lucky...I so wish I had a license by now. haha
posted Jun 22
karpenter's kids
we;re only 29 minutes apart? haha...you\'d better be
careful...I might decide to pay you a visit someday,
cutie! :D
posted Jun 22
rach*l
we\'re watching that movie tomorrow!
posted Feb 27