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here we go again
Posted July 16 | Leave a Comment
So, Alot has happened since I was last on here. Reading my last post was weird. Reminding me of that stupid boy. He stopped talking to me, and acknowledging my existance. BUt I don't care anyways. He was too good to be true. Madison has set me up with Josh now. Two years younger than me, I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around that. But I do like him, he's really cool and funny. I hung out with him and Adam last night and it was fun. I'd like to hang out again soon I think. Maybe I'll g… read more
all that i know is i'm breathing.
Posted June 8 | Leave a Comment
Life is confusing. I hate how I have insecurity problems. I can't give in. I don't want to. I didn't do anything that would make him think I wouldn't want him. He will either text me, or not. And if he does then he is amazing as I thought he was, and if he doesn't then he likes me in a way that isn't enough and I don't need. I just wish I could make one relationship actually work for once. It's crappy. This feeling is deja vu that it makes me sick. I need to stay strong. read more
bliss
Posted May 25 | Leave a Comment
So, Brandon is the cutest guy I've ever met. When he texted me at 2am and I could've died from happyness. And he says he means it. I don't understand how anyone can say anything bad about him. He is adorable. I wish I saw him so much more :D Maybe once soccer and school are over I will. I'm still scared of everything though. Casper, I'm pretty sure, has broken my trust in everything. I'm not going to give up trying though. read more
oh man.
Posted May 10 | Leave a Comment
I just read my last post. Hehe, I'm so over that stupid boy. He's dumb and I've decided to stop being dumb about him. I don't like the way he treated, the more I look back the more I'm getting confused about why I'd ever want him around me. I must have been desperate for a little attention. It's okay because it's all over now. Friday night I had a great time, hanging out with a cute, funny guy who is nice to me. He doesn't do dumb shit that Casper would. Oh yeah and he would show up there when… read more
let it burn
Posted March 22 | Leave a Comment
I'm going to do something about this boy. I WILL talk to him. He either likes me or doesn't like me and he needs to get it straight and stop confusing me. I'm done being in the background waiting for something to happen and waiting, waiting, waiting. Something's gotta change for better or for worse. I need more or I'm done. I can't handle it anymore. and I've said this before. read more
friday the 13th is my favorite day
Posted March 13 | Leave a Comment
I liked when he kissed me on the cheek( after raping me in the ass:D). People could have seen us, and Channa was standing right there. He has this silly way of making me smile too much for the rest of the day. Ahhh, this boy. What am I gonna do with myself now? read more
i spend all of my time trying to figure out me and you.
Posted February 21 | Leave a Comment
:D I like that song. but then I really think about it, I kind of hate what's going on in my mind... Today's the 21st, it's been 2 months since the best 12 hours of my life so far. haha. I think it's lame I remember but I still can't forget. It took 2 months of shit to make things better and now I'm still scared he'll end up breaking me again. I know it will happen yet I still fall deeper into his grasp. I want to see him now, I'm an addict. but I haven't talked to him today, I don't remember i… read more
touchy feely? or silly autie?
Posted February 4 | Leave a Comment
Maybe it's just mebut I feel like this week has been full of weird feeling going on. Starting at the super bowl party when I got bit on the foot by Elia and Casper was feeling my rock hard calves and my foot. lol And Jopet keeps talking about my "donk" and then apologizing by hugging me and patting my back. And then Madison telling Casper about my (nonexistant) donk and him grabbing it XD. And Jared today hugging me and putting his arm around me, laying his head on my stomach, etc. and then Ca… read more
making a list
Posted February 1 | Leave a Comment
I need to make a list. of things that can't cause pain, constants in life, and such. because I think nothing does and nothing is, I need to figure it out. So here goes: Not Ever Painful: um. I can't think of any. And I though of a lot of things. the happiest things end up bad. I guess that leaves me with apathy. That's it. No feelings, no pain. Life's Constants: Yourself, inconsistancy, time passing by The End. Point proven. what was my point? I don't think I have one... read more
bummmms
Posted January 27 | Leave a Comment
Oh crap. I think I might possibly be accidentally flirting with Kody over AIM. oops.... I have a problem with that. I usually ignore him but sometimes I don't... and now he hurt his knee and I feel super sympathetic. He's such a bro. haha such a funny word. Mark told me it when I told him back in May-ish about Kody bothering me and Patrick told him he was a bro and I was like "what's that?"(typical innocentlive-under-a-rock me style) and he told me and I was like oh that's the perfect explanat… read more
An actual blog post AH!
Posted January 23 | Leave a Comment
So I'm thinkin' the world is falling apart. And maybe the Mayans are right about the world ending by 2012. Sure fees like every thing is crashing down. So this was final exam week. I, by some miraculous mistake, got a C on my honors pre calc final. I'm pretty sure I didn't do so well on the AP psych exam, but whatev. School isn't fun to write about. Spring musical stuff is starting, I'm producer. yayyy. Soccer is starting again, the captain choices were okay. Can't say I'm not a little bummed… read more
No one will see this.
Posted January 21 | Leave a Comment
I have no friends on PureVolume, as far as I know. But I don't care. I'm not that great of a friend anyways. I made this because I like purevolume and to find good music. and just for fun. whatever, love you. -me read more
