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leaving all that i know...

i will be 18 in two weeks...i will finally be able to leave and make my self happy...i cant stand to be around my stepmom and i can finally get out!!! the only thing that kills me is that i'll be leaving my dad and my brother...i love them and i dont want them to think that its them...my brother knows its not, but my dad doesnt...i will kill him and that is my biggest fear....

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If we were all to share our selves with the world there would be nothing left.

The wrong we do and the rights would be out for all to see and who is to know how someone would react if they knew all

So how can honesty help?

Share the necessities and nothing more if you dont feel safe.

Tell the ones who care the most all that you can so you can find wich of them is being true to you

Be careful of what you share though because its hard to tell what or how some people will react to what you have done in your past.

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*To the ones who care the most*

How does this always happen?

How do i find something that i feel is so right, but ends up being so wrong?

I feel safe and easy for a few weeks and then they take 5 jumps in front of me?

Then i run away to something that has mad me feel safe and special and has never taken more than 2 steps in front of me.

I want a future with the one who stays with me, not in the place that i am no where near close too!

I want to be held and loved and know i will be welcome at all times, and be able to stay for as long as possible!

There is only one person that has made me feel all the things that i want to feel, and he knows who he is.

The only thing wrong is that the situation is EXTREMLY complicated!!!!

I wish it was easier, but i can't control what stands in our way.

I just want to be with "Some'n Special!!!!"

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WHY

Why is it that when u put ur self out there u always end up coming back hurt? why is it that every time i fall for someone it seems like its so fare out of reach? will it ever be with in my reach? will i ever be able to take that chance and be loved in return? Why is this the hardest thing to put in to place?

ASMITH


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Things happen, but we can't control it. We want to try and change the wrong we've done, but we can't. I want to get rid of the things i feel and the way i feel them. I fear falling, but i want to so badly. i want to change who and what i am, but i can't. i want to be who they all want me to be, but i'm not. some say,"be who you are, not who they want you to be," but it's not always that easy.It tares me up inside, and i can't decide what to do. Do i be myself or what they tell me to be? Why is this so difficult? Shouldn't life be easier than this? I shouldn't have to walk with my head down, trying to avoid the looks. I should hold it up high with Pride, but i can't. Everytime i'm happy someone comes along and tales it away.I feel the way i've always wanted, but it doesn't last. Why can't i be the person i am with out someone destroying the only thing i've ever known? My self...

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asmith

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