more 1am thoughts but first..
Posted July 21, 2008
ok so im jus gunna dd blongs w/ the reg date. dont get me wrong im still rely excited bout warped but hey im sic of changin the date.
on a more serious note..craigery michael owens tried to kill himself by overdosing. hes fine now but i ask you to keep him in your prayers. he needs to know how much he means to his fans. if yu arent religious then please go to his myspace or to iamcraigowens.com and tell him hw hes changed ur life or whut he means to u.
ok so this probally isnt gunna help me not think about whut happened but this is whut i wrote down the past few nites. yes all at 1am.
the song, the words best friend become redefined came on and out of nowhere i understood whut craig was trying to say.
1. "Ive been hiding in this bed for weeks from this"--
i see this line as trying to avoid something and the only way is to just lock yourself away. for me its this...i have a friend and she has this thing bout her that i cant stand and i everytime i see her its like i want to just scream it in her face but i cant and the only way to avoid it is seclusion.
2. "throats raw from screaming and i havent said a word"--
this flaw in her has been ripping at me.torturing me at nite. i will get nightmares about it. im always screaming at her wanting to hurt her. but in real life im just bottleing it up inside (which probally isnt healthy)
3. and finally..."to hide from out twisted ways"--
we all have these thoughts and feelings that can be so messed up that we just keep it to ourselves and not wanting to hurt others.
the next one ima do is if she only knew by greeley estates. ik i dont usually say whut ima write bout next but i have ideas written down. its not ready yet tho.
