i dont get on here but lik once a month or so to approve friend requests so if ya rely wanna be my friend add me on myspace
myspace.com/kaleydietrich
I have a boyfriend and his name is Kris. He is better than you are so dont think that if you add me ima flirt w/ you or leave him for you.
"punk is not a mohawk and a rancid shirt,punk is these nuts so suck on em"--Craigery Michael Owens
so im in a rely good mood and shouldnt be typin this out cuz its kinda sad but if i dont itll bug the shit outta me haha so on with the depression lol...
so my best friend and probally my only friend got in a hella lotta trouble and prob cant go to homecoming and i was gunna go w/ her. idk if i should go cuz of friends. at skoolik tons of ppl but we arent close that i would be able to go to homecoming & hang w/ them. i hate not having friends. when ever i hang w/ my 2 closest friends and their friends (which is rare) i feel so out of place. if u ask anyone who knos me, well or not, about how social i am they would all say how im kinda intimidating cuz im quiet but once you take the time to get to kno me then im rely loud and pretty chill. i hate being sky and having all these pre concieved notions of me. at my skool there arent many people like me. the ones who i was friends w/ turned out to me just a pathetic excuse for a person (cept one who i dont hav a prob w/) im at a point where i jus wanna leace. idc where but i dont think i want to leave alone. there are about 3 or 4 people who i wouldnt mind picking me up and taking me somewhere. if i told the names then the people who kno my relationship w/ them would be suprised. i think i chose these people because im not close to them. but ik that they are up for anything and when i talk to them everything that is bothering me goes away. im so restless rite now (ive changed the way im sitting bout 6 times and im still not confortable and ive sat in almost every corner of my room) my mind still has been going a million miles an hour and idk y. i keep thinking bout my 6th period class. for some reason i think its cuz of how out of place i am there. there is one person i consider a friend in that class and we dont evn talk. i only see them in 1st period and we talk for lik 2 seconds on aim and on even lunches. im starting to question y i consider him a friend and its killing me....
ok complete gear change. being single is starting to bug me again. its been over 2 years. 2 fucking years. im sic of it all. i find myself liking a few guys and ik it will never happen. one ive known forever another i only talk to on myspace and another ive never talked to. i jus wish i had a guy in my life who i could just hold or kno will be there. everyday people tell me bout their girl/guy problems and it seriously makes me want to hit them and say atleast u had someone. i think that y i want only ppl i dont rely kno to take me away. we dont talk bout relationships. if i was to have someone i knew well pick me up thats all they would talk about. i dont mind helping friends w/ their problems but once it becomes all they talk about i get kinda mad. ive become almost the only person some ppl talk to bout relationships and some of them thats the only time i talk to them. today i was watching a sick puppies video w/ the guy who gives free hugs and it hurt to watch. i havent gotten a real hug from a guy in litterally forever. no one seems to get how much that huts. not one person ik can say they hav gone through whut im going through. why am i always the one who goes through shit first? im not a fucking gunnie pig. it sounds cheesy as fuck but i wish someone would jus giv me a hug...a real one too. jus to let me kno they cared even a little if i lived or died.....
...that was sad. now bac to havin fun haha
so much has been going on but nothing has happened. its almost lik drama around here has gone underground. no1 talks bout it as much but you can feel the tension rising in almost every conversation you have with someone. its kinda makin me mad. theres so much i want to say to people but i cant. idk which is worse having the drama be underground or out there on the table for everyone to see. i hate how things are rite now. its lik my mind in running at a million miles an hour on nothing. like my mind almost wants there to be something there to make me worry and stress bout. but nothing has really pissed me off. cept some random ppl who jus flat out annoy me.
homecoming is saturday and im still goin bac and forth on whether i wanna go or not. ik ima hav to go but idk if im going to want to be there. something tells me that theres gunna be a shit load of drama bout hookups and last years drama.
battle at the bands was amazing! every band was awesome but im glad nihilus won they disterved it.
idk y but ive been feelin lik i did around 3rd quarter of last year...alone. things were goin great but now its lik im forced to be with people that i dont wanna be with. maybe im jus making this all in my head. god i hate living in my head and creating situations so real that i think they r real.
i need new people in my life. to make it more interesting or just slightly better. talk to me im sick of people here...
something old...
Your killing it
watching it rot
that stupid grin on your pathetic face
insanity surrounding the room
waiting
waiting to make its move
taunting me with its false visions of love
and something new (last nite haha)
I look at you
and all i hear is
fake,ugly,worthless
screaming over and over
you wont stop
Fists clentched over my ears
i yell, "stop it!"
but you dont listen...
sitting on the floor
my arms covered in blood
you lying in pieces around me
the screaming still wont stop
i take you
your sharp edges calling my name
...you win again
i had something that was on my mind but things that happened today make me think fuck that.
why do things hav to be so fucked up in highschool? i didnt do shit and somehow theres lik 5000 pounds of drama weighing me down right now. im pretty sure that i have absolutly no friends right now. people are so stupid at this school. they talk shit. they cant keep it in their pants and they get their laughs from making others cry. its so childish. UGH im fucking pissed. seriously someone who i can slightly stand needs to come and pick me up before i go out and kill everyone. god fucking damn it..../rant
martin
Hi :) I recommend listening to this pop punk rock
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Thanks, good luck!
posted Jun 07
StephanyMurder.
SYPHILLYS!! >:O
posted May 12
your my weakness, baby.
yeaaa its madd annoyinggg...=/ i still didn't figure
it out.... ah well...im in a good modd now. its PJ day
at school :]]
posted Oct 30
ibreathemusiclikeair
oh the mall is always fun
posted Oct 28
ibreathemusiclikeair
waiting to go hang out with a friend u
posted Oct 27
your my weakness, baby.
well thats good thats good...im decent. for some reason
im in this bummed out mood. nothing terrible happend im
just kinda blahhhhh =/
posted Oct 27
your my weakness, baby.
hey hun! how are you? we havent talked in forever.
posted Oct 26
ibreathemusiclikeair
sounds like where i live lol.
posted Oct 26