Making a choice for new years
Posted December 29, 2007
That love that i told you about didn't last long. Nor did those words sounds so sour in my mouth. He was too jealous and i now see that i took that trait with me when i left him. Think of it as a cruel reminder that i will be alone for the rest of my life. That or until the end of the world comes and i start to fight for what i want.
Even though i have tried to fight now, but the familiar flow of being pulled down under the flow of it all . Still seems to find me and i just close my eyes and let it take over me.
Sometimes i try to keep guys away from me but they think that i am just playing hard to get and i let my open and wounded heart show on my sleeve like so much schattered glass. They end up hurting me and say that i have no trust.
Well do you think that you would if ever time you let someone in, others see what you are to blind to see. Then when you take that blindfold off and see what they are taking about , you wish you could put it back on.
* Sighs* Then again i feel better with the blindfold off, because i can see the cliff that i have been sensing all these years and i know that i don't belong like all the others jumping off it.
I am different than them and i will never jump with out knowing where i am going to land.
