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i am brittany
my friends call me poLLy! [pocket]

and she awoke from her nightmare into what seems to be a dream. but as she looks over the city the air is as clean and fresh as a new start.[this IS real.]she closes her eyes and cries. leaving behind her past but not her pain. when will this go away? the only thing she ever did right, seems like she has it all now. what more could i want? everything is fucking perfect.now i smile [yes. finally so truly] but my eyes hold all the tears from past years. i still need help.wake me up. i'm standing in a field that smells intoxicating yet i turn around and i'm being hit by the blinding lights of a car [all that i've left behind me]....

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May 1

he's dead

i wiLL miss you jake aka suffocates_me
there is a story behind this...i don't care to explain
<3

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April 1

everything i've ever wanted

i’ve been broken.he’s been broken.
moreso then a record.moreso then a car.
moreso then anything you’ve ever seen by fucking far.

But....
HE
Sets
ME
on
FUCKING FiRE!


he means more then anything to me
once what he meant to the world, now means nothing.
because he’s become what means everything to me.
and i love him with every ounce and and an inch to grow
every second
he is the one who saved me from another heartbreak.
he’s the one i want the one i have.
he is the only one i will ever need.
he is THE ONE!
and it’s funny because before....
i never believed i would ever fall in love again
and it’s funny because before....
i never believed in "the one"
he has my hand and i have his.
this is truly what is forever.
at first i was fucking scared to death
this was going to be another....
"lets break my heart game"
no. this was different.much different.
and much too difficult to explain.
he looks into my eyes and stares at me til i smile.i love it.
i ask him "what?"
he just shakes his head no and smiles back.
i love it more.
he makes my HEART warm.
he’s the one who brought the butterflies back.
the ones i never thought id feel again.
i have his shoulder for when i cry.
he hates it when i cry.i can see it in his eyes.
he has a temper that sometimes scares me.
it reminds me of my dad.
but we both know i’m somehow....
the only one who can calm him down.
and i know he won’t EVER hurt me [period]
in the ways my dad has.
should i even call him my dad? he means nothing to me.
i’m not even sure he’s the one who helped consumed me.
at least that’s what he’s said.
but i’m sure it was just to scare me.
he’s always there to keep me warm and safe.always.
he’s much too willing to do anything for me.
like i’ve never seen.
he says or [thinks] i’m gorgeous all the time.
but i know im not.
he grins and says "that’s okay we’ll work on that".lol
he makes me smile more then i’ve ever smiled in a minute.
he holds me tighter then i’ve ever been held by anyone.
he’s where i feel safe.and no where else.
i left my home to be with him.
i left behind my life.for a new one with him.
don’t say im stupid for doing this.
it’s THE BEST THING i’ve ever done.
my home life was a piece of shit anyways.
my dad would’ve killed me by now.
or i would’ve done it myself
because of him.
he’s ruined my life.
now all i can do is....
put this behind me as much as possible.
i have MY baby
to refill everything that’s been broken since ferever.
i’m sick of looking at my wrists.
haunted by memories of my past. and flashbacks.i only start to shake and cry.
i have him.he has me.that’s all i need.
this is all that matters anymore.
he blows his paychecks on me til we have no gas money
even when i say nooo.
then i ask him "why would you do that?"
he says "because i love you and i want to spoil you."
cheap line?[nu uh!]
i just look at him with a puppy face.
gets him every time.i say....
"then i’ll just have to spend all my money on you."
which he tells me no.
i ask him "why not?"
all he says is.."because i don’t need anything but your love"
i can hear the silence in the air even in each breath consumed.
my HEART slows almost to a stop [and this is all i hear]
then rapidly it beats like i was hxc dancing in my living room.
it's AMAZING how he gets me like this.he gets me & he gets me.
i smile.he smiles.we kiss.[ever so softly]
i still tell him all i need is his love but he’s a guy. he doesn’t listen.
i love him more then anything i will ever know or see in the entire universe.
i can’t even begin to explain my love for him.all i can do is smile.
and then you’ll know.
he has my heart.but has no key to it.only because he’s thrown itaway.
so im forever his.and he’s forever mine.
simply....forever.and i never thought i’d see this coming true.
falling in love soo truly and having it actually happen....
it’s much more beautiful then it is in any fairy tale or dreaming it.

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March 27

a bullet with his fucking name engraved!

my mind is like a video
constantly on rewind of my past
vivid memories replaying so fast
this video has no soundtrack
just the silence of the screaming in my head
wanting out but instead...
as i lay down to go to bed
i still cover up my ears
and close my eyes
i see what you do
yet i listen to your lies (so sweet)
now falling slowly yet fast asleep
this anguished and torn up heart
says hold it in, yet my mind says weep
now the pills and pain take over
ever so calmly
but has the most torturing effect as fuck!
isn't this beautiful.
now look into these eyes
can you see the truth?
hey i thought my misery was well enough hidden
guess not.
nothing escapes the eyes
even these tears forbidden
i keep them hidden
for only the very inside of my soul to see
because can't you see?
her life isn't really so bad
but this is still so sad
others have it worse, forgive me if i curse
but why the FUCK can't i FUCKING get away
from this FUCKING seemingly inescapable situation?
(because no one will stand up and we are all afraid)
and each tear shed....
reflects a haunted backend kept memory
each day still trying to forget
well it's once been said
my dear life is much too short
so live without regret
i bet if i let all this go....
maybe just maybe i'd feel better?
well some things if i could then i know i would.
until then we all need to get awayfrom this....

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March 27

....engraved! part 2

shh! don't say a word
if you don't then i won't (tell a soul)
i have a goal
to get away, far away
so i've slit my wrists
i wear my eyes thick in black
notice the confidence i lack?
yea this is all his fault
and partly hers
but he's made me this way
look what he's turned me into
the one i wish was dead
i've killed him in my dreams a million times
he wants to say w'ere the cause of all his pain
well stop!
this ain't no FUCKING game
when you make people wish they were dead
just to be away fom YOU
you say we don't know what it's like to be suicidal
and no were not talking o.d'ing on fucking midol
you say you truly feel it
well then hey (applause) c'mon take your own advice
wouldn't that be nice
show some guts (yea that's what i thought)
excuses are for cowards-like you
you want to hope for change (hahaha!)
yes. taking your advice would be GRREAT change.
you say you won't change because YOU are YOU.
(yet you expect US to change fer you?)
well same here too....
WE are who WE are.mf!
you talk about the same shit everyday
w'ere not listening, it's so sickening! x.x
just go the fuck away
so here, we'll give you our suicidal talk
you seem just the type....
cause to you all we have to say is just fucking hype
so here's a gun
now look down this pipe.boom.

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March 27

why?

why couldn't i take him with me?
why'd he have to go back?
i couldn't bear to watch this
i walked inside
all i did was cried
i hated the words they told me
i saw him holding back
i wish....
we would've hugged a little bigger
a little longer
knowing i don't know when i'll see him next
why?
why'd he have to go back?
back to that same sick place
i couldn't watch
the tears held back on his face
why?
why didn't she say a word?
she's scared but he wasn't there to have heard
(i don't understand this)
i can't believe this
all that's happened
and this has been my life captioned.
first she abandoned us
now she won't protect herself or her only son
from the fucker....
who needs to be shown to his gun
why?
i know we fought
but w'ere all we've got
are we still?
we love one another
he is my brother
though i have gone
i will not give up
i need to get him out. i will.
i don't know how
but i will get him out.somehow.he needs out.
and so does she.
but she can't see
she thinks....
she deserves all he's done
for what she's done to him
she's living in a pretense land
and she's scared (i understand)
it took forever, but i stood up
now hopefully she'll stand?

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