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About me

names Ren not Lauren.. too damn many of them
i live in a place surrounded by wheat fields
Art is my life in so many ways
I dance with out music all the time
no one knows the true OGs but me
i'm a photographer.. maybe yours.. but most likely not
i have ADD starting at about 8:54 pm
i dont know the actual color of my hair
i am known for my shoes and their spectacularity
and i know how to make my hair awesome
especially when i started hanging out with the so called scene
then it got boring so now its all one color
i strive for imperfection
i'm wasian.. chinese and i love it
and no i dont drive a rice burner... i like my car and her name is Ferretta
however feretta is very hurt right now =/
pinatas are my only gifts
i'm addicted to haribo gummy bears
nice hair and pretty eyes kill me with goodness
i made a reject stamp.. out of yarn
i sing the story of my life
i will master making the slinky go all the way down the stairs
i'm intense and tender and any other amazing word you can think of
its beautiful, adorable, gorgeous and lovely
not hott
i will make your heart burn if you let me
i talk nonsense
i'm obbsessed with my hair.. wrote a paper about it
i'm a romantic but laid back and realistic
i procrastinate but am punctual
i bite when i kiss.. chomp... never had anyone complain
if you live near me by a few hours... we should hang out
i like my fire water (aka alcohol) on occassion
i have dreams, hopes and ambitions
i've experienced love, , sorrow, and joy
i want to love again.. i miss it
i'll draw you a picture if you ask.. its what i do
i'm a hopeful but an agnostic with my faith
i know but i live on
i rely on honesty in everything i do
i kiss with intensity to prolong the moment
i write with poetry to remember the past
i like to sit in the rain and dwell on life.. and then wash my hair in it
youre a wonderful thing even if you don't know it.
there is so much to know.. you just have to find it

now for my favorites:

he knows my heart

we have songs.. :)
he means more to me than you ever will

i love the feeling of rain drops on your skin
when you see the first snow
the feel of a nervous kiss
a hand held against mine tight
the touch of a makeup brush against my skin
kissing in the shower
the feeling of acomplishment
pushing my feet into the sand
the smell of my grandmothers kitchen
the warmth from a darling boy
the security of his arms around me

wanna know more send me a message.
i'll get back to you eventually
love always dears
oh and my site for photography
http://aixnok.typepad.com

yes i have aim.. you may ask but i may not give it to you. so if i dont please dont ask again.
also... please don't take my work.. all of my photography on this site and on my photography site is copyrighted. If i find you have stolen it i will prosecute. Thanks! sorry if that was intimidating

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October 25

stop a beating heart

You're the blood in my veins
My canvas would be empty without you
I'm a sunken vessel being washed to the shore
The coastline calms my ears as I fall to the ground
The undertow will catch me and lull me gently in slumber
Theres no more hard feelings when you rest so deep
Stow away, my solutions
My best bet is my only affliction
You savor what they say, take it like gospel
Concide with these bloodshot eyes
This is the price you'll pay
for just getting by
but you're getting better, you're getting better
did you say invincible?
or are we just remorseless?
we're apparitations, making our way through the
dark (static fills my eyes)
I'm not ready go yet...

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October 18

John made a mistake

It was a dark night
and all was cold
John made a mistake
he was eighteen years old

That truck in the driveway
very rusted and old
John made a mistake
he was eighteen years old

He got in the truck
with his feet hanging out
John made a mistake
his eye sight was stout

The fog had blown in
and they lost all direction
John made a mistake
showing life's imperfection

They yelled in the night
As truck sped on
John made a mistake
now he knows he was wrong

There was no belt
to keep him secure
John made a mistake
his life now unsure

They made a wrong turn
and John hit the ground
John made a mistake
he's a life without sound

The bones cracked down his back
in the night there he lay
John made a mistake
for hours he stayed

In silence and cold
hanging onto his life
John made a mistake
his future unbright

A small steel chair
and an incapable mind
John made a mistake
normality blind

It's another dark night
and all is cold
John made a mistake
when he was eighteen years old

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October 6

i found the heros in my life

first fridays make my heart warm
all these amazing kids were dancing in the windows
in moon man and airplane costumes
they danced to techno in the most amazing store
called the habitat
then i danced with them
they are my heroes...
that is the meaning of cool
i <3 those kids they are the OG's in my life
... best thing this year

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September 30

longing...

if i could have the boy i love; life would be like this

there would always be a hug waiting for him at the door
those small kisses that dont have to mean anything but affection
hands would never be lonely
and that i love you would mean everything in the world
there would always be spontaneous nights of just dancing together
and looking into each others eyes
life would be like childhood
and we would swing on the playground just talking about how we are
everyday would be one to look forward to
he'd be on my mind all the time and i would write small notes to him even if i will see in within 5 seconds
i'd buy him flowers to show i care
make him soup or bring him food when he's sick
plan picnics and wake up early to go see him
kiss him hard so he'll know i missed him
hold him but never want to let go
bring him small presents to his work if i ever pick him up
and encourage him to let me pay for 1/2 of our dates
call him at 2 in the morning to come and watch a movie with me and cuddle
or lay under the stars although i'll be distracted by his smile
feel lonely everytime his hand is not in mine
and have butterflies everytime i think of him
constantly nervous whenever i first see him
i want him to be the first thought everyday
and the last thing i think about every night
my friends will have to stop me from telling about how amazing he is
i want out time together to seem longer than it ever is
lay in bed holding each other
pull him to me by his belt loop
i want to be his support system in all he does
that smile that will make him go on
i want him to hold me and not let go
and if i walk away grab my arm to have me stay
i wanna give him those play kisses
just to make it more interesting
play the peck kissing game
bite his lower lip and have him do it straight back
i want to make his day better than it was before
with surprise pinata gifts and waffle parties
i'll show up at his house with footie pjs just to promote keeping our childhood
dance with him in public to no music
lay in the middle of a field just to be together
go bowling and bet on senseless things
i want him to win
i want him to have goals and to pursue them
i want to repect all his decisions
just love him to the best of my ability
have him know i will always have him in my heart
show him i can be the stability in his life
i want to help him get inspiration
i want to write lyrics that tell my feelings
take pictures of myself holding them
and then give him the photographs
as a sign of affectiion.
i want him to be a kid at heart always
but be serious with me when the time is right
not to be afraid to have me with his friends
kiss me with intensity
i wanna give him my heart and all the drawings to my life
i want him to be the yellow bird to my eye
that opens my soul
he'll make the music to my heart continue for eternity
he'll be my prayer in life for everything good.
basically he'd be my everything
the one i'll always care for no matter what
that one i'd do anything to make him happy
and that i'll never want to hurt
he'd be mine and i'd be his

...i miss this

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September 12

hmmm

new stuff not really. all you can really do for me is check out my art website. that would be killer. thanks dears..
http://aixnok.typepad.com

love to talk with you all just leave a note
or catch me on aim.
chao
<3 Ren

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