Age: 15
Location: Netherlands
Joined On: Nov 10, 2008
ummmm, dunno what to write, havn't been hear in age, cause i went astray....
anyway, i've come back to the light, after reading my thing....wow it was really ment for me wasn't it scary CRAP, with a CAPITAL C, haha lol
anyway, so for the past few days i just kinda pushed Him (God) away, didn't really give a crap about anything, all started when i was doinf global and found out how mean the europeans were to the Africans, starting blaming him about everything....but then after thinking about it i 'forgave Him' i was really pissed off and sad at the world didn't understand why people were spo mean to one another.... i know i'm really sensitive :P, anyways so ye, so i went to the 'dark side' well not really but now i'm back to the light XD, and getting to know myself more and more each day :), anyways so ye, a part of my life :::PPPP
TUESDAY 15th SEPTEMBER, 2009
ps i no, it looksd like a bloggy thing, but who gives :P
this isn't mine but it talks about MUSIC and PRIDE and my personal enemy lucifer aka satan.
enjoy and be inspired, PRAISE GOD
The Curse of Pride
It is important to note that the original musician in heaven was Satan. He was the most beautiful of all the angels. He was responsible for music in heaven and had the total spectrum of instruments in his body and could play them all. As such he is all too aware of the power of music. When he fell, he was removed from heaven, as he wanted the adoration and worship that must be given only to God (read Ezekiel 28).
This is also a very relevant danger for musicians today. Often when play well, we want to receive the praise and glory. But it is not us who are to be glorified, as there is only One who is has earned that right and privilege. It is only God who is worthy of receiving that glory. Nevertheless, this struggle has been a curse on musicians' lives ever since Satan was thrown down to earth from being the chief musician in heaven.
As a result, there is a tendency for musicians to be egotistical, and to want and need praise. This often causes them to isolate themselves, either due to a superiority complex or conversely through feeling inferior to other musicians and thus suffering from insecurity.
In my understanding this is a reason why the musicians in the Old Testament had a part of their duties that entailed being a porter. As a menial, task it protected the musicians from the sin and curse of pride.
"None ought to carry the ark (His presence) of God but the Levites (who were all skilled in playing musical instruments) for them hath the Lord chosen to carry the ark of God, and to minister unto Him forever." (1 Chronicles 15: 2).
Forever means forever! God wants His musicians to play for Him forever!
In the Hebrew, the word minister is 'shârath' which means to attend as a menial or worshipper. It also means to contribute to, minister unto, serve and wait upon.
As musicians we are to serve the Lord.
gatita_63109
Apostolic Believer In One God, Jesus
hope u will see the way, and walk towards the light and not the road paved with good intentions
PEACE dudes xxoxx
My pride is an evil hing. Unless i say I want to let it go. It doesn't go, it lingers in my mind like an evil spirit expanding in the open air, until it has had enough. But it will never have enogh, will it??? This is very annoying
I no i can do it, He tells me so everyday, but everyday i wake, with a black, a dark, a passive evil lurking inside me, awaiting for the moment his master has had full control of the light in the world before it shows it's face...face...the word face....i don't have a face, millions even billions f expressions i make each day and non i truely feel, non do i truely believe in, they are the mere masks i put on and remove when i reflect....my true face has slowly disintegrated, offended my the masks i wear to hide it...don't leave me, You are all i no...but u should leave me, everyone else does...they look at me with mocking eyes, they see through my masks but don't say enything, they see my true self shrinking back in it's self as they become powerful. I grow as i die, they die i grow, they grow i die, i am the opposite but similar to everyway, form and thing u are. they see me different, i see my reflection in them. they aren't lost, they are happy, they don't care, when i'm alone i'm happy, i don't care and myself...why can't they see, i like them, but i just stare...i admire them but they think, i look too long, trying to see their soul, then dive my head down when they see me. i get all i want but shrink away when i get it, i am happy and confident when i'm alone, when they come up to me i shrink back, when they are infront of me i bow down, i try so hard to be accepted but instead they push me away....y can't i stop, haven't i leanrt my lesson, don't i no they are the sons and daughters of the one that rules this world, my biological father....no one will ever understand the self destructions that happen with my own berlin walls, the way i seperate myself and don't allow them to mix, oh how they look at me and see me weak, but on the day they will feel sorry for me and take back all the thoughts they thought...how i yearn for the end to come....
so i sit here, looking out the window wanting to be pure but failing as i get up, i sprint but then get tired so i stop...why dp i stop, i tell others to keep goin but never tell myself to keep going, i have to start to be my personal mentor the only human being that loves me. if i let the world crush me into a thousand pieces i will share the fate of the doom that awaits u. the world is in darkness and i'm slowly sinking under, if i weren't with Him i wud have drowned, engulfing the black liquid to fill my lungs, my heart, my mind. all i no is to beg, i don't no how to start, walk a whole mile without aches or pains, i no i can do it but i don't. don't judge me i know everyone else does so don't jude me...
i'm i truely that lost, has he really drained out all the good in the world, is the world black, with evil, dark as the room he lives in, bloody has his thoughts are....i flirt with him, i have a minor crush, but i will never lie down with him, he touches me with the hands of a thousand rapests, he grins at me with the smile of a million murderers, his eyes are bright red with the evil that has torn his mind apart, he feels the power he as over us but will never cease to stop to gain more....i no him, he has always been in my dark room, he leaves the door wide open and cloaks it with his light angels, he calls my name constantly, all i hear is his thoughts, his ambitious thoughts....y....
so i say, i think, i will stop, this willl be the last day i shake hands with him, i'm parting with my best friend to go to my adopted father, now he is different from my biological father. i luv him with all the light parts of my heart..the darkness shrinks out of my when i see his purity, and holiness, i am goin to find out what my life has instored for me, i will give up my pride, my life to be with my adopted dad, i love him, but i don't no how to love him, he showers me with love and happiness but i choose to turn away....
i've made up my mind, i will turn back to Him, today, today will be the start of my new beginning, today is the start of peace, happiness and joy
God bless y'all xoxo
don't give in, keep running
have you ever felt lost
like your trapped in an unending cycle of confliction
of war
of battle
of guilt
of pain
of sadnes within the tall walls they call ur body
do you sometimes look at yourself in the mirror and think you are pathetic for letting people walk over you
for staying in a group of people that you actually find very annoying and pathetic
ohhhhhh, what is life for
why do people act mean
why is it that when you extend out your hand they spit in it
why is it that when you try and be urself they spit on you
why is it that when you try and not be yourself they spit on you
why are people filled with venom
why is the wicked happy
why is the good sad
the world is upside down
people believe in what is wrong and put their faith in what is deadly
why are they happy when others fail
why are they happy that i got picked on instead of them
the world is a cruel place
anyone who says other wise isn't your friend
the one that says, go to a pyschologist isn't your friend
the only road you can go on is the Lord's
man's road is full with despair
hate
false promises
evil
death
people think being a christian will make then high all the time
they have false perceptions of the real faith
when all it really helps you to do is let go of the world
helps you appreciate everything
helps you not hate the world
helps you not care what people think
helps you love your true Savior
"all my life i've been searhing for something, something never comes always leads me to nothing, nothing is the nothing at the end of your road" = man's path
stop searching on the wrong road
follow the other road that leads to peace in heaven
people have false perceptions on how they will go to heaven, they think that even if judgement day comes they will still go cause God is love
they are blind and foolish
they will go to eternal damnation for the littlest thing like lying and without forgiveness from God and true repentence, they will die
..... i stray of the road,
like now..... i know i am, but i just can't seem to stop
i know what to do, but i just can't seem to do it
y is the devil so cruel
y is it that the road to hell is paved with good intentions
in moments of tests he stabs, squeezes, kicks, punches at your akillees
y does he make the gap between you and God so big
because he's the evil one
i wil not stand for it
you may not care about what God did for u
but i will change
i shall change
this is the start
i will not be afraid of the light.........
......but how can a girl who stayed in the dark for soo long not be blinded by the light?
by praying
so then ii will pray
i will believe
i will be a new me
a God filled me
i will detach myself from this cruel world and attach myself to Jesus
my friends i pray that someday you will step into the light no matter how dark it is
come out, come out
let Him love you
recieve the gift that he as left at your feet
He knelt down Himself to place it there and kissed your feet a million times
reaad and let your heart be cradled in God's heart
don't resist......
u've wanted to be loved for so long
let Him love you
don't push Him away
......i feel your pain
i know the torments the evil one throws at you
i was in the dark
i am at the brim of the light now
raising my feet that the devil clutches at....`i can do it, i will do it, I MUST kick his face and step into the burning light
it will not be easy
for the first days i know it will burn me
i know it will scorch my skin but i must
YOU must
you must realise that
that is the truth
the minute you step into the light
the devil will shoot arrows at you and will never stop firing
endure
feel the pain
love the pain
for man can do anything to my body but wiill not have my soul
for i am saving it for the Lord, only he may keeo it
.....i know u want to
face away from the devil
pickup a bible
join a church
begin to pray
never stop running
never stop running for the light
for God
for Jesus
for the Holy Spirit
They will help,
They ALWAYS help
realise that when you don't do what the Lord wants the devil will move in closer to the darkness
faster than you've ever known
he hates what is good, which is good
which is God
which is the light
run to it never look back
keep running and you will make it
i promise to you
God promised
he will keep it
run into His warm arms
i will meet you there
we shall rejoice together
we shall laugh
we shall love
and then we shall walk in a huge line behind God, celebrating the death of all things evil
how i yearn for that day to come......
don't let sattan drag you down now
our time is running out
be careful in the music you sing
their words could be the very destruction of your soul
be careful with your soul
don't plung in too deep
or else you will be lost in the eternally damned souls......in hell....with satan.....
ummmm, so don't forget to love, cherish every wakin day of ur life
don't try to please others
dn't think anyone controls ur life, cause u do
don't forget to stay positive in all u do and say
don't hate
don't join with evil people at skool
don't go down the dark road
don't abandon the light
don't hate
always love <3
Riiighhhttt, so i was like really bored, just came back from chilling with friends and got back into my bored state, soooo i decided to do like my own isn't it funny thing, hope you likie and comment on what you think, ciao xxx
Isn't it funny how we look down on the kind and intelligent people, but look up to the egotistical and obnoxious populars
Isn't it funny how we laugh at people who try too hard to become as confident and popular as you
Isn't it funny how we say they are retards when they slit their wrists, when it's our fault
Isn't it funny how we say their freaks when they try to be themselves
Isn't it funny how they turn to the darkness after we rejected them
Isn't it funny how we say 'People who bully are evil' but we are one of them
Isn't it funny how they commit suicide and all we say is 'I knew it'
Isn't it funny how we all didn't want to be that person, so we didn't do anything to help them
Isn't it funny how you rejected God
Isn't it funny how you will go to hell because of all the things you got yourself into because you rejected Him
Isn't it funny how this is ment for you
Isn't it funny how i think it's funny, when it's not....
QK sarah
hey :] i'm just about to go hang out, you? haha, you
are! X]
posted 2 days ago
♥ Casey ♥
lqtm thank you very much! nothing much really, just
music and talking to people. hbu?
posted 4 days ago
ipoetxcecilia;
hey mann. you commented me before so yeah, just
returning the loveeee! so what's you name?
posted 1 week ago
♥ Casey ♥
Hey
posted 1 week ago
Ashley Greene
hey I'm new on this site so I wanted to say whats up,
you should check out this electronica hip hop band
called "PLANET ROCK", at purevolume.com/planetrock they
are so cool, check'em out..peace
posted 2 weeks ago
brittanyBUBBAmorgan
thankeeyou for the add. :)
posted 2 weeks ago
xX|:Jordan:|Xx (On The Clouds With Fire)
yeah im doing gud. holland? im dutch (if thats how
you spell it :) well half. my last name is dutch, but i
cant say what it is for a couple of reasons ROFL.
sweet yeah. that sucks. the world is rotting :S but
ive got HOPE ..woohoo YAY lol
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Linus
ah...its not worth talking about :/ :/
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